You're gone because I kicked you out I feel empowered knowing this and knowing that you will not touch me again and knowing that I don't have to fear *** because you won't be pushing something down my throat
I feel so good

I'm in love with your high eyes
Droopy and red
Watery and filled with daze
I'm in love with the smoke you blow
In my mouth
I'm in love with the way you caress me
I love the smell
The taste
The burn
I'm in love with the way
You say you love me
When you're high

Matching spaces in between our ribs
I count the bones in your vertabrae
Its romantic to me and I'm in love
With the feeling of being
Empty

She takes two hits from the bowl
Holds in the smoke then blows
She's exotic with long hair
The color of her dark brown eyes
Match with her olive toned skin
She speaks to me in foreign tongue
Charismatic even when she's high
I want to be the smoke in her lungs
The bowl she puts her lips on
And the lighter she loses

Hovering around the Cold White Dragon I review my day in calories
120
12
50
100
And pounds
1
2
3
5
I feel the weight
Heavy
Overbearing
Crushing
I see it in my face
In my flesh
In my cheeks
In the places where
I wish they concaved
I feel the spaces in between
My ribs
My thighs
I feel the sharp jut of
My hip bones
My collarbones
My wrist bones
The Cold White Dragon
Is calling to me
It is yelling for me
It is in my brain
It is in my eyes
It is in my sight
I kneel and give in
To the Cold White Dragon
Once again.

This is the first day in a while
That I have not had the haze
Clouds fill my mouth
Scents stain my fingertips
I don't want to be sober

I miss the ******* old times
I feel the bad times creeping back in
I don't know how much longer
I will be able to fake it