I miss how things used to be and it hurts knowing they will never be like that again

My brain mixes up
what my heart knows
My brain remembers
My heart reminisces
My brain tell me no
But my heart reminds me
Why I say yes
Its hard to listen
To people
And their advice
Its hard to listen
To yourself
And your advice
I don't know what
To choose
I'm scared that
If I choose
My heart
I'll never think again
And if I choose
My brain
I'll never love again
Which one really
Completes me?

It felt good to finally give in

You experience death for the first time even though she has a breathing tube
You see your sister cry and you remember why you took this trip and you remember she has feelings and its not just you
You eat and drink and talk to distract the fact that someone is passing by and the relationship you had-no matter how short- was not insignificant
It's hard to grasp that this will happen throughout life and its not just something that happens in the movies.
You finally understand that life is real and its not some dream and you wonder how it'll hurt when you relive a death again


You wish people lived forever.

Hot water so hot it turns you cold and you are really cooking but you don't care until you get prunes for fingers and a dizzy high. Your legs are jelly because their almost done you should've waited a little longer. Head back waiting for the water to cover your nose it'll be done but one **** and your crying and you hate that you thought that again you thought That. You haven't thought That in so long and you blame it on the weather and get a heat lamp like everyone else.

I don't know how to feel about what you did. You ****** my ex but you're supposed to be my best friend.