hello

hello Nov 2013

Leaving

A pen with no ink is equivalent
To my mouth
Saying something
And not being heard
You don't have to blink
To miss me
I was never here

But,
If you did happen to notice me
Watch,
I'm about to disappear

hello Nov 2013

Untitled

Everything is a spiral
Straining my eyes

hello Nov 2013

Untitled

say what
you want
i don't miss you

and that makes me
smile

hello Oct 2013

PM

ill rise and learn
rays are what im given
complaints of **** you dont have
remind you why youre suffering
trees die
they expect that season coming
they arent afraid
because they know theyll
rejuvinate
while we contemplate
coming up with so many
theories of
after life
ever thought we just go to the ground
so many different
ways on the same thing
stop pushing
to understand things
no one ever will
books are books
not trends or masks
get your head out
your ******* ***
thank your lungs
for helping you live
they argue when you say
i cant live without her/him
cause your heart sure is pumping
your brain sure is feeling
sadness
and your nervous system
is bringing your self inflicted pain
shut the **** up
time heals
gaps close
notice i said nothing
about filling holes
holes are homes
furniture is stacked
hoarders brain
messy file cabinet
things hide
get misplaced
and you wonder
why im not around

Liking this no punctuation

hello Oct 2013

Not aquired

Shallow skin and muttered secrets between breaths filled with fear, are what my dreams consist of. Bright moons during the day but my mistakes fill the craters. Feeling short; synonymous to TNT whilst strutting, looking for answers to questions I can't even comprehend. A smile is toothless that tells unrequited jokes to my tongue but its all a façade. The Scenes are covered by the curtain and the stage gets spit on when I walk through the door. Numbers of maybes and probablys are my friends on one hand. Blankets that aren't machine washable will forever smell like how your skin did that night. I am forced to sleep with your memory up my nose. My eyes want to jump out their sockets especially in the morning because they want to be forever closed. But closed is a trap. A trap because I see your bedroom ceiling and your mouth pursed next to my ear while I lay; moving slightly for hours. A trap because I see signs I should've acknowledged.
An unnoticeable I Love You.
But I don't even want you anymore.

What's a need anyways?

hello Oct 2013

******

It's insane how one
One little thing
Can set me off

Guess this just shows
How much of a fuse I am
How much I am filled to
The very top
How I can not
Take anything
Anymore

hello Oct 2013

Zero pt.2

I straddled him and he told me
How light I felt
Zero zero zero zero