Insecure
broken down
beaten until she hits the ground.
All alone
bruised and battered
wasn't like she really mattered
face stained with tears
she's tired of holding back her fears
All of her scars show
but her tears cannot be seen
none of her friends care
at least that's what it seems
we have so much in common
how could this be
it's because that small girl
is me

they say forever is a long, long time
I believe it's until someones dying time.
cuz when the time comes for them to go away,
they refuse because they're here to stay.
They say forever is a long, long time
I believe it's until someones dying time
because when you look around and you see that they are gone,
It's when you realize that in your heart is where they once belonged

you picked at the scars.
you opened the wounds.
to all the pain,
that i have been through.
you see what you want to see.
but you don't see the real me.
you don't see the demons dying inside of me.
im hiding my pain
but there's no one to blame.
refusing all help,
pretending all is well.
but inside i'm screaming
my heart is bleeding.
my body is a shell.
my soul is in hell.
but i'll keep biting my tongue
until my time is done.
i always wnted to be the opne you wanted.
always wanted to be the one you needed.
but it seems as though
i've lost control
of everything that i have put on hold.
there's many times i've cried in the dark.
because my world was falling apart.
many restless nights,
times in sleep that i would fight.
you say to stop crying
but there's no point in trying.
with every smile that i fake.
it's another stab that i take.
i laugh
but nothing is funny.
like a river
my tears are flowing.
im saying that im getting better
but it's all a lie.
with all the advice i feel closer to dying.
i feel so insecure.
lost without a train of thought.
lost inside my own mind.
in these ropes of depression im bind.
i dont want you to be scared.
i already am.
possession takes over me.
with no escape.
all hope is going down the drain.
i cut
and i bleed
with no expression.
its not the depression.
it's me.
im gone.
im fading away.
where am i going?
i cannot say.
but inside this shell,
im fading away.
im running.
im running
with no control
of where im going.
save me.
save me!
save me from myself!
i want you to save me
but i dont want your help.
this shell won't hold tight for long.
it won't be too long before
im gone.
one day im gonna hit the right vein.
and there will be no one to save.
ill be gone
in a heartbeat.
listen to my heart but it wont beat.
im dead.
im dead!
did you hear me?
of course you didn't.
the sound of my cries are completely forbidden.
im crying. im crying loud!
but you dont hear a sound.
im not afraid of dying.
im afraid of living.
what ami?
who am i?
where am i?
im not Paris.
i'm an alias.
Jane Doe. who am i?
the world will never know.
slicing my wrist.
river of blood swish.
tick. tock.
tick.
the world is crashing.
the walls are closing.
something's taking over me.
i can't fight it.
but im not trying.
save me....
SAVE ME!
LET. ME. DIE.!

ashes to ashes,
dust to dust.
a wish for an exit,
a hope to forget this.
i tell myself i'm okay,
i say there's another way,
but deep down i know,

my wings are clipped,
my wings are clipped,
some angels don't make their way back home.
my wings are clipped,
my wings are clipped,
there's always something
going wrong.

my conscience is dull,
my lungs are full,
and i'm breathing in the death,
the death of you.
i tried to save you
but i couldn't.

my wings are clipped,
my wings are clipped.
some angels don't make their way back home.
my wings are clipped,
my wings are clipped,
there's always something
going wrong.

it's like there's cancer
in my bones.
and in my wounds.
i can't take another step
tell me what's left.
i can't take
another breath.
i built a bridge
just to jump it.
i built an ocean
just to drown in it.
i built a soul
just to burn it.
i asked for death,
but somehow im still here..
let me go,
let me go
im begging you not to hold on.
im selfish with my words
so foolish i am

My head is in overdrive
I feel I'm doomed
But I'll forever tell
You that I'm fine.
If I tell you the truth
I know I'll be doomed.
I'll tell you to let it go.
Don't hold on
Let the poison sink in,
Let my words disappear.
I'm a figment
Of your vile imagination.
A sworn into your darkest temptation.
I'm poison
I beg you not to drink.
Because there is no antidote
And you will slowly sink.
I'm better off alone.
The ground is my home.
And I'm ready to open the door.
This is the moment
The moment I've been waiting for.
I feel I'm doomed.
I feel I'm doomed.
I know that I'm doomed

It's a lot harder to put the knife down Than it is to pick it up.
It's a lot easier for me to ruin things
Than it is to not **** it up.
I put one foot in front of the other
And then I run.
Before my wings get ready to take flight.
The years have passed
But I know I won't take that path.
The winds pick up
And my lungs expand
But I'm running
I'm running
I'm going nowhere fast.
Arms grip my waist
I'm being carried away.
I'm being thrown into my grave
I feel the need to escape
But it's so comfortably dynamic...
The death
And decay
I can grasp it.....