helloitsyellow

helloitsyellow Oct 2018

and as i sit here in this bed
and write a poem instead of my english essay
i ask myself how i got here
because there was a time where my nights were filled
with sorrow
with pain
with stress
with regret
and now they are filled
with pride
with smiles
with dedication
with effort
because i put time into what i do now
instead of just do it
and i really don't know if i did that before
or maybe i did
but it didn't mean that much to me then
because what is the point in doing something if the meaning behind it has already been lost
or maybe the meaning was never even there
and so yes
i will write my english essay
but first
i will write this poem
because this poem means something
and right now
i want meaning

helloitsyellow Oct 2018

minute

every minute that i spend with you
is another minute that i fall deeper in love
and every minute that i spend with you
is another minute that i remember how lucky i am
and every minute that i spend with you
is another minute where i remind myself that i am loved
and every minute that i spend with you
is another minute that is well spent
and it feels as if every minute i spend with you
is still a minute too short
because no time spent with you would ever feel like enough

helloitsyellow Oct 2018

what i needed to hear

the other morning
i told you i loved you
and i cried
and apologized
and then i cried again
and you didn't tell me right away that you loved me
but you told me to never be sorry for the way that i feel
and i think i needed to hear that
more than "i love you"

helloitsyellow Oct 2018

hurt

with you
it hurts less
to think about
the things
that hurt me
the most

helloitsyellow Oct 2018

deep end

being with you
has made me realize that
i've already dove head first into the water
and now i'm in deep
and i've never been scared
of swimming in the deep end before
but suddenly i am
which made me realize
that i've never been much of a swimmer before
and now that i'm in
the water actually feels pretty nice

helloitsyellow Sep 2018

what do i say

what do i say
when i'm not ready to say
i love you
but
i like you
does not feel like enough

helloitsyellow Sep 2018

i miss you

i miss you
is sometimes not enough
and it's really hard to communicate how i feel
through a text message
so i think a poem will have to do
and i want you to know
that not a day goes by that i am not
so proud of you
so amazed by you
so lucky to call you my best friend
so sad that you are so far away
so when you tell me that you're sad
it kills me inside that i cannot give you a hug
and when i don't have time to call
i feel so bad
for me and you both
because i wish i didn't have to call
and i wish that you were just a drive down the road
like you used to be
and if i'm being completely honest
i don't think i'll ever get used to this
because i don't think there ever will be a time when
i miss you
feels like enough