Remember when I told you that you don't scare me?

Falling in deep,
Or...sending you 19 consecutive text messages
Because I can't sleep without knowing that your head and heart is racing with mine.

Or...smiling for the first time at a compliment
After years of inauthentic grins because you
See my scars ...and you love them.

Or.... Questioning everything I do
Because the day feels meaningless
Without exchanging torn pages
Of our histories to cherish like bibles.

Or... Falling deeply into your melancholy
And wondering if I can ever breathe again.
..It's 5 am and I find myself amidst
The shards of your heart again....

I lay them around me like diamond dust
Scraping the hopelessness from each
Resolved to peer into your memories
and find the light to rebuild the heart
that has blinded you
From shining for two for so long.

Falling... into your twilight...
...and finding my own beauty along the way.
Falling is flying for the first time.

Deeply, I'm falling.

Yes dad I act like a boy
I guess acting like a lady
Felt a little too oppressed

Their eyes stare through my soul
As if I had one.
All I can think about is nothing.
Tell myself to forget the pain.
Once again,
I am alone.

Me?
I was born a storm
A whirlwind of inner turmoil
Tsunamis tripping off my tongue.