Consistently questioning myself but not my worth

Pain is immortal
not I

I wish i wasnt so blind
I wish i wasnt so kind
I wish i saw from the beginning
what you would do to me

When my words escape my lips and find yours,
That is where  I know we are meant to be

Love is a type of destruction
it destroys the soul
And builds a new one

There's been movement of my soul and I
From place to place
Home to home
We want to stay but we keep being kicked out

They say a love so young can only dream of growing old vines and lasting in the withering weather

That the cold stones of pain and sorrow will certainly crumble it away

That it shall never see the purple and orange kiss to create the evermore glorious sunsets

And yet here we are

I need to read more
I need to grasp those words on paper more

One tree does not make a forest
Neither does one grain of sand make a desert

The dark.
It came from no where
The dark
It swallowed me
My last bit of strength pulled from my heart

Don't tell anyone
But I think my hands are too weak to catch the right type of love, the good kind that does not drip between your fingers in a sticky mess
But the kind that has wings to fly but remains nestled in your palms

Everyone has different stars
It is easy to get so blinded by another's
That you can't see your own

I once drugged my lungs in order to feel you again
Letting kings ravishing a body that was once sacred and untouched
Their gold crowns reminding me what I seek yet what I do not need
Their jewels cool against my body, tormenting my senses on what they can never have
Now I drug my lungs in order to not feel the pressure against my skin, the lips tearing against my innocence and the screams destroying my hope
I drug myself to forget but it is hard when your window is across mine

Our love was so big
I could scarcely fit it in my heart

I've always wanted to be happy, I mean everyone wants to be happy
No likes the festering sadness that bubbles within
No one likes sleepless nights
Not unless they are spent with a lover or a friend you never want to shut up
No one likes sleepless nights
But here they come again

I get so frightened that I w ill fade

She moved like the waves
But looked like the sun

He was wild and feral
But in love was I

With his golden hair and glistening eyes

His sharp teeth and claws feared me not

But his untamed heart did

True to the words I speak
True to the experiences I have lived
True to the hands I have held
And the faces I have met
Both the ones frozen in time and the ones that held motion
I know to it all a dream that will never be forgotten
A dream I could not make up on my own

You can love my physical attributes
But if you have no love to give my soul...............

I wish winds could die with just a kiss from my lips
oh how famous I would be
I wish the sun would dim at my gaze
oh how famous I would be
I wish snow would melt at my breath
oh how famous I would be
I wish the flowers would bloom with my touch
oh how famous I would be
Oh how famous and how experimented I would be

Her lips hid many secrets
And he wanted to find them