took a phone call today
please come and talk to me
got in the car, drove to you
and you said to me
I'm not right, I feel it in my head
I've got no one else, I've got no friends
I can't talk to you, I don't know where to begin
please, just talk to me
I talk about nothing as I watch your tears
I speak about idiocies and unrelenting fears
I whispers entreaties that drive me insane
I sit and silently know... I'm to blame
each revelation, besides the last
leaves me gasping, struggling to breathe
each time you say I can't talk about it
gives me another reason to believe
It's
my
fault
this is my shame
my horror is I walked away
knowing you were on your own
you sent me away
like a dog with a bone
with no meat on it
I don't have a clue
whats really eating you
except I could only say
*whatever you are thinking
Suicide is NOT the way
actual events today... I'm terrified and weepy and just, ****...!