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Helen May 2014
Have your ever stood on the edge
And wondered?
What does the Black feel like?
Is it that soft brush against your skin?
Which raises the hackles?
Or would it cling like tar
Hot and sticky
Seeping into your pores and
Down to your very soul
Solidly encasing it in stone.
What does it taste like?
Does it brush against your lips
A whisper, a kiss?
Or does it flow down your throat
Choking, clogging, no air.
And what smell would it have?
Would it be a gentle reminder
Of a distant memory, buried deep
Or would it slam into your senses
Like a wind carrying the scent
Of Long Forgotten memories
That wound the heart.
If I took that step, from the edge
Would the Black softly receive me
Or burn forever, relentlessly?
Would it gently beckon me or
Would it reach out its long bony fingers and
Seize me
With no choice?
Have you ever wondered?
14/06/2010..... they just get older, like me!
Helen May 2014
If I had a Dollar
for all the times I trusted you
when you said
There will be No Regrets
Oh wait…
I did
and I was finally able
to buy a packet of cigarettes

If I had a Dollar
for all the times I remembered
when you said
Baby, you’re the only one
Oh wait…
I did
and I was finally able
to buy a packet of chewing gum

If I had a Dollar
for all the times I listened
when you said
My Darling, you do that well
Oh wait…
I did
and I finally bought a ticket
out of this Hell

If I had a Dollar
for all the times
I regretted
all the things
I heard
and reviled everything
that you said
I’d be Rich
beyond my wildest dreams
And my dreams
are so poor
I would even pay you
A Dollar
to take them
from my head
Jan 19 2011 :)
Helen May 2014
It doesn't Help... but it doesn't Hurt either...

I once got kicked out of the library
for moving all the Bibles
to the Fiction section
Not mentioning the time
I was escorted
from the casino
because I completely
misinterpreted the meaning
of the Craps table
whats up with that?
Then there was the time
I dumped a whole packet of cornflakes
in front of my blonde friend
and she still couldn’t make the picture
look like the one on the box....!
And I really shouldn't mention....
I once knocked upon the hatch
of an Irish submarine
I know, I know, a nasty trick!
And then there was the time
I put three shovels in the corner
And told my less than
smartest friend
to take her pick!
***!
I laughed so hard
as she started to go mad
and pull her own hair out!
And on the day
she sent me a text message
asking me what the hell
did *I D K
mean?
When I replied with
I Don’t Know
I swear I heard her shriek
from a million miles away
even as my phone beeped
and the message read
*** NOBODY KNOWS!!!
I swear!
It’s the most delirious that I have been!
The hilarity that ensues
when you realize that
Ernie truly is
nothing** without Bert
I know it doesn’t help
But I love how it doesn’t hurt!
Jan 11 2011 :)
Helen May 2014
Here I am
now armoured
swinging my
broadsword
Come at me now
(pointing at your heart)
"Which limb can you afford?"
You know me
so well
You assumed I'm dirt
but can't you tell?
I'm better than that
I'm dirt mixed with tears
baked in the Sun
now just as rock solid
as your own moral fears
I drink
(like a fish)
I smoke
(like Ash Wednesday)
I even still
gasp
have... S E X
with my bloke!
My river of sorrow
compares not
to your puddle
you've still not
understood
how to sidestep,
my ocean of Joy
is bigger than
your sky
but, I bet
that one day
when you aren't looking
I'll still be standing
while you are on your knees
cupping your useless nuts
just sooking!
Helen Apr 2014
lets all take a back seat
to the man behind the wheel
let's all dance on two left feet
to the fool who doesn't feel

let's all lie down on the track
and wait for the train to depart
let's all take a back seat
to the emptiness of a heart

cruising down a one way street
going backwards doing 95
one hand on the wheel,
nothing left to feel
in the rear mirror, I'm doing fine

tracking thorough the parking lot
my vehicle I left behind
I bet if this was a truck stop
You'd be pulling 9 to 5

I dealt the cards on the table
face down so we couldn't see
I'm driving my winnings
into the middle of nowhere
I'm the loser, but I'll never be
your enemy

*but I won't let you drive
I'm a gamblin' man
I fall down, on a roll of the dice
but I get back up when I can
don't know where this came from but.... it truly sounds like a country song in my head!!!!
Helen Apr 2014
Haunting memories

10 dozen different creatures
that stalk the night
119 of them
just looking for a fight

One of them sits
perched like a peacock
upon my laborious chest
and in jest
asks me
through colours of
blue, red, gold and green
tell us of things
that should be unseen


Ahhh, no
I think I'd rather stick
to the Back and White
and undream
all the things
that would haunt me
at night
Helen Apr 2014
how he sits there
listening to a song
that reminds him
of the child
that got away
but today
he sits there
singing along
headphones on
his face lowered
hands grasping head
choke filled breaths
strangle lyrics
singing words
that once had
meaning
his heart bled
He sits up
with a sigh
brushes the tears
from his eye
and tries to pretend
the song didn't end
Just walked past Hubby on the computer, head in hands, listening to Drops of Jupiter by Train remembering, I'm sure of it, our 20yr old Son who has been estranged to us for 4 years... The tears never end :(
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