Helen

Helen May 2014

It doesn't Help... but it doesn't Hurt either...

I once got kicked out of the library
for moving all the Bibles
to the Fiction section
Not mentioning the time
I was escorted
from the casino
because I completely
misinterpreted the meaning
of the Craps table
whats up with that?
Then there was the time
I dumped a whole packet of cornflakes
in front of my blonde friend
and she still couldn’t make the picture
look like the one on the box....!
And I really shouldn't mention....
I once knocked upon the hatch
of an Irish submarine
I know, I know, a nasty trick!
And then there was the time
I put three shovels in the corner
And told my less than
smartest friend
to take her pick!
***!
I laughed so hard
as she started to go mad
and pull her own hair out!
And on the day
she sent me a text message
asking me what the hell
did *I D K mean?
When I replied with
I Don’t Know
I swear I heard her shriek
from a million miles away
even as my phone beeped
and the message read
*** NOBODY KNOWS!!!
I swear!
It’s the most delirious that I have been!
The hilarity that ensues
when you realize that
Ernie truly is nothing** without Bert
I know it doesn’t help
But I love how it doesn’t hurt!

Jan 11 2011 :)

Helen May 2014

Here I am, just bare bones, do your worst!

Here I am
now armoured
swinging my
broadsword
Come at me now
(pointing at your heart)
"Which limb can you afford?"
You know me
so well
You assumed I'm dirt
but can't you tell?
I'm better than that
I'm dirt mixed with tears
baked in the Sun
now just as rock solid
as your own moral fears
I drink
(like a fish)
I smoke
(like Ash Wednesday)
I even still
gasp
have... S E X
with my bloke!
My river of sorrow
compares not
to your puddle
you've still not
understood
how to sidestep,
my ocean of Joy
is bigger than
your sky
but, I bet
that one day
when you aren't looking
I'll still be standing
while you are on your knees
cupping your useless nuts
just sooking!

Helen Apr 2014

I'm a gamblin' man

lets all take a back seat
to the man behind the wheel
let's all dance on two left feet
to the fool who doesn't feel

let's all lie down on the track
and wait for the train to depart
let's all take a back seat
to the emptiness of a heart

cruising down a one way street
going backwards doing 95
one hand on the wheel,
nothing left to feel
in the rear mirror, I'm doing fine

tracking thorough the parking lot
my vehicle I left behind
I bet if this was a truck stop
You'd be pulling 9 to 5

I dealt the cards on the table
face down so we couldn't see
I'm driving my winnings
into the middle of nowhere
I'm the loser, but I'll never be
your enemy

*but I won't let you drive
I'm a gamblin' man
I fall down, on a roll of the dice
but I get back up when I can

don't know where this came from but.... it truly sounds like a country song in my head!!!!

Helen Apr 2014

10 dozen (that's one hundred and twenty)

Haunting memories

10 dozen different creatures
that stalk the night
119 of them
just looking for a fight

One of them sits
perched like a peacock
upon my laborious chest
and in jest
asks me
through colours of
blue, red, gold and green
tell us of things
that should be unseen

Ahhh, no
I think I'd rather stick
to the Back and White
and undream
all the things
that would haunt me
at night

Helen Apr 2014

it's kinda sad...

how he sits there
listening to a song
that reminds him
of the child
that got away
but today
he sits there
singing along
headphones on
his face lowered
hands grasping head
choke filled breaths
strangle lyrics
singing words
that once had
meaning
his heart bled
He sits up
with a sigh
brushes the tears
from his eye
and tries to pretend
the song didn't end

Just walked past Hubby on the computer, head in hands, listening to Drops of Jupiter by Train remembering, I'm sure of it, our 20yr old Son who has been estranged to us for 4 years... The tears never end :(

Helen Apr 2014

stars are not just silhouettes

here, maybe
they are black
on white
just an outline
of what may be
but stars
are not silhouettes
not here,
not to me
they become 3 dimensional
with every breath
I take
tripping through
the Universe
not every Star will make
me want to breathe
another breath
tip toeing amongst
Poppy fields
I rest
breathing toxic waste
but wait..
the beauty of
your written words
makes me wait
I sit in a field
of unfettered pleasure
getting high
on monochromic doom
Until
you storm the room
and make me see
Shooting stars
treasured art
a part of the Galaxy
blessed you be
from the start
shooting across
my night sky
*its all I ask

dedicated to those special to me... you aren't just silhouettes, you are truly stars.... :)

Helen Apr 2014

Memory of a Smile (a song)

You laughed at me
Just the other day
When I held you tight
And said I’m glad you stayed
You shook your head at me
And said with a smile
Where on earth would I want to be?
I’ll be here a while

But I never thought
It would be like this
As the waves rolled out
To a darkening mist
You promised me
You’d be here a while
Now all that I’m left with
Is the memory of a smile

I promised we would wed
There would be no other
You smiled at me and said
Why would we bother?
It’s a bond of Man
What we have is fate
Let’s seize it now
For we could be too late

But I never thought
It would be like this
As the waves rolled out
To a darkening mist
You promised me
You’d be here a while
Now all that I’m left with
Is the memory of a smile

We faced a lifetime
Hand in Hand
Our life was precious
But we didn’t understand
We lived forever
In a few heartbeats of time
I said goodbye to the waves
Knowing you’ll always be mine

*But I never thought
It would be like this
As the waves rolled out
To a darkening mist
You promised me
You’d be here a while
Now all that I’m left with
Is the memory of a smile

pre 2009 the only song I have written that I can actually hear the music in my head... shame I haven't got a musical bone in my body to reproduce it ;(