the thought of him brings so many ugly words to mind that I could turn into a beautiful write.

he told me
"I love your writing."
"could you write about me?"

I said
"I can only write about the pain I feel."
"and I never want you to cause me pain."

6 months later
all I can write about is
you
and the pain
your love caused me

the devil isn't evil or frightening
he's beautiful and appears as an angel
the most contagious laugh that you have ever heard
big hazel eyes with freckles that scatter his skin like the night sky
he makes you love him when and he doesn't even try
adventurous and curious
smart and humble
the pain that he brings is unbearable because as soon as you love him
he's gone

you remind me of a tree
you are beautiful
and hiding the ugly.

fall
you sprout these beautiful
colors on you.
you turn into everyone's favorite.

winter
by then
all the fake and pretty
are gone.
no one looks at you the same
you are just an ugly tree.

and you try to be beautiful on the outside when all you are is ugly on the inside.

im in love with cities I've never been to and people I've never met

you
remind me of a
sunflower

and
sunflowers actually are my
favorite.