When I'm around the people I love
I'm not good enough
Not pretty enough
No I'm always the ugly one
When people talk to us
It's because of my pretty friends
Not me
Whenever I'm around them
I'm never enough
I'm always overlooked
But oh well
I always know I will never be good enough
For *anyone

From the outside
Her life is perfect
Popular, athletic, pretty
But if you go inside her life
It's a living hell
Parents fighting, unloved and depression
All devour her fragile mind
No one sees what she sees
The mask she puts on is unbreakable
She can't let anyone in
Fearing they will see the real her
Fearing all her secrets will come out
Fearing her mask will be ripped off
From the inside her life is the opposite of what you think

How does a bright future loom
Over our dark lives

What is love?
Love; something little experience
Love; something worth more than gold
Love; something everyone longs for
Love; something you want to hold close
Love; something that can easily slip away
Love; something that breaks many hearts
Love; something that is so bitter sweet
Love; something that is *unimaginable

These days
Kids die over looks
Children don't eat
Because there too fat
Why has society trained our brains
This way
I may not be perfect
But you are
You are worth
All those hours
Of heartbreaks
Pain
Self destruction
Those times
Will make you stronger
You are perfectly
Imperfect
Don't change for society
Change if you believe
You are worth it
If you look at what you want
Your heart will lead the way.

The most pain filled moment
Is when you realize
Your love was waisted
You realize that your heart
Was stolen
When you realize
Hope is gone
All I can pray for
Is someone will save me
From this life I live
I berate myself
With thoughts of
happiness
love
closure
The only pain you feel
Is the flood in your heart
Because your outer layer
May be undamaged
But your heart is pain filled

The only thing that hurts
Is when you try to act
Like your perfect
We fight
Because of you
Don't act like you
Think
It doesn't effect me
You know it hurts me
Don't act like you
Don't think twice
About screaming at me
You do
Just stop this anger
And feel the love
I constantly try to pull
From you
True pain
Is the fact you can't except I
Love you

Something no one wants to talk about
But something that is itching to be said
I don't care about politics
Society
I care about life
A little life that you killed
If you choose to make it
Don't choose to **** it
Some people say
When you are ***** it is ok
To **** that life inside of you
It pains me to agree that
Yes that is ok
If you feel that is what god is telling you
Then do it
Because it wasn't you choice
It wasn't you mistake
Your fault
If you choose to make it
Don't **** it
Because you will never feel grieve
Until you realize
The terrible
Unchangeable mistake
You just made
If your going make mistakes
Don't make another
Living human
Suffer in your place
Because no matter what anyone says
The minute that baby starts growing
In your body
It is living
Keep it living
Keep it thriving

I never got to say I love you one last time
So here it is
I love you with all my heart and I can't wait to be with you soon in heaven. I am trying slowly to let go of this sadness and live the way you want me to. The only day I will forget the pain of this loss is when I see you again. One day that day will come and I will again be in your arms. I love you so much and this is me letting go and understanding that right now I have to say goodbye but soon enough I will say hello to you again. Goodbye for now I love you forever and always. I. Love. You

It just is hard to let go
Of someone who has been a constant In your life
You don't know things
Any other way,
But with them
Life seems almost unreal
Without them
On the first day
It is a abnormal sort of
Peace
A peace that is utterly
Bitter sweet
It is a happy feeling
But not at all
You feel empty
But you try so hard to seem
Happy
It feels
Fake, forced
It is a twilight zone
Of uncertainty
That you can't escape
You try so hard to stay strong
But you evidently
come crashing down
You cry
A lot
You think
A lot
But most importantly
You try to remember the happy times
The memories you shared
It is hard?
Of course
Will it get easier?
One can only hope
But what matters is
I will see you again one day
And that is the only thing
That holds me somewhat
Together
Because it is hard to be introduced
To a life so foreign

Why?
All I keep thinking is why?
How could this happen to you?
You had a simple virus
It was nothing deadly
It lead to unthinkable things happening
You were never sick
I can never remember a time when you were ill
You didn't have cancer or diabetes
You were healthy
I just cant let go
Because I still believe you are here
Death doesn't make sense
I just can't comprehend that I will never see you here on earth again
It all happened within 2 days; 48 hours that changed my life
It was so quick I never said goodbye for the final time