Blue symbolizes calmness
Blue symbolizes loyalty
though I know Monday Blues
could get to you
but oh prithee just hear me.
Have you seen where the birds flew?
To the sky filled with blue
those birds soar free.
Have you seen how mad and calm
the ocean could be?
With King Neptune as the king
and his water feeders
flow free with the seven seas.
Your eyes may not be blue,
your heart may have tiny dots of green,
But hear me,
Your soul is crystal clear,
Your hands dance in a way
I could never understand
Your head may still be empty
But as a whole,you're blue
and I still love you like;
I love the colour blue

A Poem For Each Of The Boys I’ve Ever Loved

Ⅰ.
sometimes your scent travels in the wind,
suffocating me like a nasty perfume,
leaving me to wonder if i’ll ever forget your smell.

Ⅱ.
you wore the sweatshirt you let me borrow a few days ago
i mean, i don’t even think you remember i had it at all.
it was just another sweatshirt in your drawer.

Ⅲ.
your handwritten notes sit in neat pile next to my bed.
it has occurred to me that maybe thats the cause of my nightmares.
but really i think you’re the reason for everything and anything.

Ⅳ.
you have the prettiest eyes in the whole entire world.
im satisfied knowing i was once the reason they lit up so bright.
I’ll never let someone take the sparkle in my eyes away again.

Ⅴ.
we used to listen to music together and we’d laugh a lot.
you’d snicker at they way i lip sang to myself.
and id laugh because you really didn’t care i was a ******.

ⅤⅠ.

most of my days are spent wishing you were still here
you never really know how much you love someone
until they don’t love you anymore and thats a sick thought.


(ps, each of these poems are about you and only you and always you. i miss you. love always, the pathetic girl with a big heart and green eyes.)

i see the worst in the best
and i cancel out every idea of perfection to focus on the negative prefixes of things i cant change
ill sit here and watch and let it happen because i do nothing to make myself seem useless
watching everything happen to make myself seem like i had no choice
so i don't blame myself
so i can't say its my fault
i don't want the guilt
id rather be guilty for someones elses pain than the suffer the consequences of my own  
id literally sit back and watch you be killed than to sit back and watch myself destroy myself
i'm the monster and the victim at the same time
i'm the angel and the devil
choice of being the bad guy but having the intentions of a good guy with thoughts of demons interrupting the outer parts of my mind to make me change my mind
to make me see things by myself
to make me realizing i'm ruining myself
rather ruin myself than ruin you
you're the only thing i have left
the only sense of a conscious left in my soulless body i strive to find a bit
a piece
a crumb
of soul left
something to inspire me and tell me that my own self worth is more than my self pity