i see the worst in the best
and i cancel out every idea of perfection to focus on the negative prefixes of things i cant change
ill sit here and watch and let it happen because i do nothing to make myself seem useless
watching everything happen to make myself seem like i had no choice
so i don't blame myself
so i can't say its my fault
i don't want the guilt
id rather be guilty for someones elses pain than the suffer the consequences of my own  
id literally sit back and watch you be killed than to sit back and watch myself destroy myself
i'm the monster and the victim at the same time
i'm the angel and the devil
choice of being the bad guy but having the intentions of a good guy with thoughts of demons interrupting the outer parts of my mind to make me change my mind
to make me see things by myself
to make me realizing i'm ruining myself
rather ruin myself than ruin you
you're the only thing i have left
the only sense of a conscious left in my soulless body i strive to find a bit
a piece
a crumb
of soul left
something to inspire me and tell me that my own self worth is more than my self pity