Revelation sinks in,
Like poison.
Calming at first, then
Turning violent,
Harsh,
Painful,
And sad.
You do not want me anymore, and the elixir of your love ceases to cleans my brain.
For now I am vulnerable, left out to die,
Without your sincere words of encouragement,
How will I survive?
How will I learn to move on, when all I wanted was you?
How will I recover from death, as this venom slowly kicks in?
How will I reverse time, and stop myself before I saw you,
When your soft blue eyes met mine,
The world stopped,
Just one time.
How will I make you change your mind?
There is no reversing death, though.
And change occurs without a jury telling it not to.
For the poison has almost knocked me unconscious now.
So please, before I go,
Know this,
I hate you.

I can't continue playing these games,
And act like it's okay when you ignore my comments.
I can't continue suppressing the urge to grab your face and kiss you,
Only to feel your warmth and security.
I can't continue biting my tongue every time I wish to proclaim my admiration for you,
And my hope for our future.
I can't continue feeling like the way you neglect me is normal,
And that my constant doubt and fearful thoughts are average ones.
I can't continue seeing you fall for me, and for other girls,
And pretend that when you hold me at night that it's okay,
Because your arms make me warm,
And your eyes make me safe.
I can't continue pretending that I'm fine,
And pretend that leaving me behind doesn't make me feel lost,
Like a cloud of smoke has suddenly clouded my vision,
And I can no longer taste your yearning for my love.
I can't continue doubting our existence,
Especially for the second time.

Sometimes I look at you and wonder if you actually like me.
Your eyes are bright and full of hope, yet there is still mystery in your gaze.
Life is much similar, giving us false glimpses of hope, only to fail us later with deception.
I fear someday too, that you will fail me, but for now I must have blind faith.

The rain pours down on an early fall day;
Summer is weeping before her departure, it seems.
I envy the seasons, and how they can come and go with such ease.
As if they are sick of Earth, and wish to go for a bit.
If I were Autumn, with her brisk attitude, and carefree lifestyle,
I wonder if maybe you would come to appreciate me more.

At times, I look at the rain and ponder if it comes to cleans us of our doubts.
If maybe it was summoned just to tell us, "Your fears are no more,"
And then I realize weather does not have personification,
Nor do eyes contain mystery, only expression,
And that you must like me, or else you wouldn't be here.
I suppose rain maybe does cleans our fears a bit more than we realize.

Insanity corrupts the mind of society.
As children lose their tempers and grow up too quickly,
And adults **** their last chance of tranquility.
The structures grow larger and the brain knows more,
And the sun grows hotter through the atmosphere's pores.
Growth and death suddenly coexist,
As your god crosses names off his Christmas list.
Your judgment defines you,
And your world deprives you,
2013 you merely exist.

People are different, but yet they're the same,
With their forever entitled and fickle brains,
With their struggle with commitment and baggage they bare;
Secrets are always afraid to be shared.

You tell me you want me and you show it too,
However, I can't get a hold of you.

If I could, I would write you an epic in which I could explain all the ways I wish to fall into you.
I would paint you a beautiful mosaic in an elegant chapel, with symbols of eternal happiness.
If I could, I would be yours for as long as you'd wish to keep me;
Because your eyes are the most brilliant shade of serenity I have ever seen.

I breathe you in slowly, attempting to grasp this moment to its fullest extent.
Your skin smells like home, and you know that I know,
I don’t ever want it to end.
Your eyes say that you’re in love, and your smile says it too,
And when your glance meets mine, I know that the feeling is true.
You are sad and you’re scared and you can’t understand,
That I am too.
But when our worlds collide and your eyes meet mine,
You won’t want it to end.
Your voice is like heaven your heart is like mine,
Beating faster and faster as my hand passes by.
And the hours turn to minutes and your face meets mine,
And you understand we don’t want this to end.
Our bodies connect and suddenly we are complex,
Figures just balanced in time.
And when the end is the end,
And your thoughts suspend,
Understand that you’ll always be mine.
Your heart is a cave I have buried myself in, and darling,
I don’t want this to end.