Striving for more,
I dream to have mine,
Working while sore
Looking for a simple sign.

I dream but they twist into
Nightmares:
Nightmares haunt reality.
Never ran from what scares,
But the universe is prone to brutality.

Facing the race and
The race it is truly daunting,
Stood in my place
And the race is truly daunting.

But run one must and
In theirselves trust,
Resist doubts dust
Into the future ******.

High functioning,
But I'll function higher.
I'll leave you flat
Like a worn torn tyre.

Want to burn me,
But - Hell -
I've been the pyre.

Burn me or
Learn me,
And my doctrine.

But Loves more
Than a scene stealing *****,
Try and we try,
Loves more than tears
Without trying.

Beyond the fear
We find ourselves flying.
In the heat - we avoid flaying,
But love for more love
And that's how we're praying.

Life breeds life
A game we're playing,
Love being alike and it
Stops the world from fraying.

Look at what you did
What you do
Who you do it to,
Look at how you live
What you give
Who you gave it too,
Look at how they care
What they want
How they're getting it.
Look at how they haunt
They just hound
Are you getting it.

Look at all these people
All these people
They evaporate,
Look at all these people
All these people
Don't elaborate,
Look at all these people
How they come
Where they go,
Look at all these people
Do you know them
I don't know.

Look at all the fire
All the fire
That you made,
Look they want to burn you
Want to burn you
Till you've paid,
Look at all the people
They will turn they will turn
Will you ask for help or have you learned have you learned,
Look to all the people
They won't change they can't change,
Have you learnt your lesson life is strange. It's so strange.

I never meant to miss out on you
Never meant to fly over you
But am I meant to be with you.

Never did I ever
Come back just to sever
Replay repeat the same
Restart rehash the shame.

Blame
Because you blame me
How I went and left
Because I wasn't the same see.

I hear you want to die.
I heard you even tried.
Did you hear the tear on
The ground as it dried.

Did you see the face strained
With pain as hope drained...
Away...

And away you've been,
In my arms stay, never did,
but I pray you've seen.
The way of light spirit won't freight.

Sight can be plagued and blighted,
Look to the light and
See illusions slighted.
See raw reality laid bare,
From the past to what's passed
The present has lain a challenge fair.

Remember you are loved
When you feel low,
And people care
When you don't know.

Each day take a minute
To tell yourself you
Are loved, resilient
And alive.

Even if one minute
Turns into to five,
Remember there's help
When you need to find it.

Seconds may feel like minutes
Minutes may feel like hours
& hours feel like the death of you.

But find help
when you need it.

**** Boy
You treat the truth
Like a **** toy.

You're iron from the ore,
And I'm the one that's impure,
Telling tellers I'm a *****.

When in reality,
It's you that holds
The high score.

I just want it bad
I really need it,
It makes me so mad
But I still read it.

I don't hold it & it
Makes me sad,
But I still bless & write it
Despite that,
Does this make me less?

The only sight I dream.
It makes me want to scream,
It tears me at the seam
Till I effervesce into steam.

Blind
And I can't see.
Dead
And I can't be.
Alive
& I won't breathe.
Rotted
Been broken since birth.

Bought
Like you ******* think it can
Be sold.

How cold.
No more than mould
And you linger.

Now sold,
Salivate but he
Seals it with a finger.

His sisters
Love,
His misters lost.
**** tease,
Is **** the cost.

Please tell me
I'm kinda ******* lost
And is my soul the cost.

Don't call me - I'm *****,
Dumb *** always flirty,
Guess I got what was coming
The feeling of degradation when
He was *******.

Don't satiste me with words
That float like birds
In air, they're meaningless.
They're never there.

I can't be me
In the presence of you
I'm just a doll ,
Just a beach for you to
Take a stroll.

Just lost justice and cold,
Sinister soul soled
For like clay for him to
Mould
While I rot like the foulest
Mould.

Silky black fur,
He shined with silver flecks in the light.
Golden stray patch an inch on your paw.
How I wondered, a Black Labrador with a golden patch on his paw.

I have no recollection of your arrival.
You always was.
Spike, with the silver spikes on his black collar.

My friend when I didn't  understand what friendship was.
Maybe a tutor in compassion,
Would be what you always was.

Social degeneration
A gift
Of our generation.
Moral degradation
And
Spiritual incineration.

We burn and rage
With more than
Is beyond our age,
We set the stage
And watch as the
World burns like
Dried sage.

No history books,
Let alone words
To fill a page.

The tide and
The under ******
Pulled under and
You couldn't guess.

Guess you're gutless
And without guilt,
You fall and the
Dominos in unison.

You couldn't handle the cold
Or be left strong enough to hold
And it's truly bold how you leave,
Like a leaf wrapped in gold.

And I couldn't be me
So I became you
Lost the tide and the sea
Lost in depression blue.

But I guess I'm not you,
Can't wither with the yew.
Reincarnate, a joke:
I'm just left with you.

So that was us
And all we were
Used for.
Simple
In its elegance.
Brutal
In its honesty.

That bridge,
Olive branch
Burn it down.
Never could
But ties I server
Burnt them all.
That Hell
I won't dwell,
Inferno
I'll learn them now.

I'll teach them how
Won't break them down.
Won't bless a crown
Don't stress the sound.

Won't mess the lot
Or miss the rot
Kiss the lot
and bless the spot.

Hell and Inferno
Burnt against my feet,
Live this bitter love
Until darkness I retreat.

Crying would be
Cathartic
But I'd rather be rid
Of you.

Laughing would bubble insanity
So I'll sit silently
Till you leave.

I'll hold my breath and
When in the presence of death

Finally breathe.