Semblance of Balance.
Serenity and Divinty.

Cast out doubt,
Draw in might,
Cast out hate
&
Draw in light.

Striving for more,
I dream to have mine,
Working while sore
Looking for a simple sign.

I dream but they twist into
Nightmares:
Nightmares haunt reality.
Never ran from what scares,
But the universe is prone to brutality.

Facing the race and
The race it is truly daunting,
Stood in my place
And the race is truly daunting.

But run one must and
In theirselves trust,
Resist doubts dust
Into the future ******.

I never meant to miss out on you
Never meant to fly over you
But am I meant to be with you.

Never did I ever
Come back just to sever
Replay repeat the same
Restart rehash the shame.

Blame
Because you blame me
How I went and left
Because I wasn't the same see.

High functioning,
But I'll function higher.
I'll leave you flat
Like a worn torn tyre.

Want to burn me,
But - Hell -
I've been the pyre.

Burn me or
Learn me,
And my doctrine.

But Loves more
Than a scene stealing *****,
Try and we try,
Loves more than tears
Without trying.

Beyond the fear
We find ourselves flying.
In the heat - we avoid flaying,
But love for more love
And that's how we're praying.

Life breeds life
A game we're playing,
Love being alike and it
Stops the world from fraying.

I hear you want to die.
I heard you even tried.
Did you hear the tear on
The ground as it dried.

Did you see the face strained
With pain as hope drained...
Away...

And away you've been,
In my arms stay, never did,
but I pray you've seen.
The way of light spirit won't freight.

Sight can be plagued and blighted,
Look to the light and
See illusions slighted.
See raw reality laid bare,
From the past to what's passed
The present has lain a challenge fair.

I just want it bad
I really need it,
It makes me so mad
But I still read it.

I don't hold it & it
Makes me sad,
But I still bless & write it
Despite that,
Does this make me less?

The only sight I dream.
It makes me want to scream,
It tears me at the seam
Till I effervesce into steam.

**** Boy
You treat the truth
Like a **** toy.

You're iron from the ore,
And I'm the one that's impure,
Telling tellers I'm a *****.

When in reality,
It's you that holds
The high score.

Remember you are loved
When you feel low,
And people care
When you don't know.

Each day take a minute
To tell yourself you
Are loved, resilient
And alive.

Even if one minute
Turns into to five,
Remember there's help
When you need to find it.

Seconds may feel like minutes
Minutes may feel like hours
& hours feel like the death of you.

But find help
when you need it.

Bought
Like you ******* think it can
Be sold.

How cold.
No more than mould
And you linger.

Now sold,
Salivate but he
Seals it with a finger.

Social degeneration
A gift
Of our generation.
Moral degradation
And
Spiritual incineration.

We burn and rage
With more than
Is beyond our age,
We set the stage
And watch as the
World burns like
Dried sage.

No history books,
Let alone words
To fill a page.

Blind
And I can't see.
Dead
And I can't be.
Alive
& I won't breathe.
Rotted
Been broken since birth.

His sisters
Love,
His misters lost.
**** tease,
Is **** the cost.

Please tell me
I'm kinda ******* lost
And is my soul the cost.

Don't call me - I'm *****,
Dumb *** always flirty,
Guess I got what was coming
The feeling of degradation when
He was *******.

Don't satiste me with words
That float like birds
In air, they're meaningless.
They're never there.

I can't be me
In the presence of you
I'm just a doll ,
Just a beach for you to
Take a stroll.

Just lost justice and cold,
Sinister soul soled
For like clay for him to
Mould
While I rot like the foulest
Mould.

So that was us
And all we were
Used for.
Simple
In its elegance.
Brutal
In its honesty.

That bridge,
Olive branch
Burn it down.
Never could
But ties I server
Burnt them all.
That Hell
I won't dwell,
Inferno
I'll learn them now.

I'll teach them how
Won't break them down.
Won't bless a crown
Don't stress the sound.

Won't mess the lot
Or miss the rot
Kiss the lot
and bless the spot.

Hell and Inferno
Burnt against my feet,
Live this bitter love
Until darkness I retreat.

Silky black fur,
He shined with silver flecks in the light.
Golden stray patch an inch on your paw.
How I wondered, a Black Labrador with a golden patch on his paw.

I have no recollection of your arrival.
You always was.
Spike, with the silver spikes on his black collar.

My friend when I didn't  understand what friendship was.
Maybe a tutor in compassion,
Would be what you always was.

The tide and
The under ******
Pulled under and
You couldn't guess.

Guess you're gutless
And without guilt,
You fall and the
Dominos in unison.

You couldn't handle the cold
Or be left strong enough to hold
And it's truly bold how you leave,
Like a leaf wrapped in gold.

And I couldn't be me
So I became you
Lost the tide and the sea
Lost in depression blue.

But I guess I'm not you,
Can't wither with the yew.
Reincarnate, a joke:
I'm just left with you.

Crying would be
Cathartic
But I'd rather be rid
Of you.

Laughing would bubble insanity
So I'll sit silently
Till you leave.

I'll hold my breath and
When in the presence of death

Finally breathe.