I must admit
I forgot a name on the list
But I am totally behind my theory
Of doing what you want
I swear
I have never felt *****
Or banged my head in the shower
Because this is my idea of fun
And I don't mind thay my name is not remembered
I really don't
Even though I remember
Everything

trace an atlas
over my pale cheek

make a mark
for all the places
we will never see

consellations
that swear above us
how we can never be
shadow
the black cat
that you say
must be chasing me

you're raking your fingers through your hair
again
scarring my heart
with the calmness in your eyes

your words tumble out
like the light that glints
on the top of the river
drowning me
in what they all think is fragility

your smile
is a tattoo that i wear imprinted
on my wrist
where you would kiss me
murmuring
how i smelt
like the rain
in summer

drag me under you
again
i don't mind being in the darkness
when there are stars
resting above your shoulders

Days pass, by and by,
As if I wasn't here.
All my fears, revisited.
All my scars, reopened.

Life goes on and on.
I'm nothing but a ghost.
A mere fragment of of the past.
And I'm afraid to leave again.

I wish I could stay
To see you smile,
To see you laugh.
I don't want to go.

I feel like I'm burning.
Alive, but dead.
No one can save me from myself.
No one, but you.

If we weren't so far apart,
If I could only close this gap.
I would, but I can't.
I hope you know that.

We are so alike,
Yet so different.
Our minds are elsewhere,
But our hearts beat as one.


m.k.*j

i feel

naked

but vulnerably so;

i don't want to let you in,
show you the deepest crevices of my soul
not for fear of embarrassment,

i'm just not going to let you break me in half
like that.

"leave before getting left,"

a motto for girls like me.
                                                             you don't know the frustration
                                                           when things don't go as planned.
stop saying
                  g
                    o
                      o
                        d
                          night.

if i had loved you
the way i was supposed to
would you have never ceased
to love me back?
asks the man
with tired eyes
with sad eyes
cracking at the sides
to the star
laden
falling
sky

if i had loved you
the way i was supposed to
would you have broken my heart
the way you were meant to?
asks the old lady
dry rose petals
falling from her eyes

he reaches to close the window
to the breeze
of the darkness
she reaches to close the window
against the night
and they never
find out

it's not enough
for me
to do anything but love you

i don't trust myself
the way you think i should
because i don't make sense
even though
you swear
i make sense to you

Your voice
Is like the wind
Falling
Around me

You remind me of summer
And monsoons
And everything else that makes me
Weep