I Don't cheat. Who would I meet? Have a seat.
Your family banned me.
I say "yes" to only the best.
I confess I have the potential to obsess.
I possess undying loyalty & devotion.
With an attraction to success.
A prior notion ... out of distress
I gave out my address.
My emotions I could not serpress.
Falling in love with you before I expressed.
My feelings are & is alot to invest.
I want all his love.
My self worth has been a rebirth.
An exploding star of incredible brightness.
Slowly dimming over time.
Mythic righteousness being divine.
Not a crime.
I put myself first.
A super Nova.
Not Christ or Jehovah. A God?
That would be odd.

Life is but a dream.
A de ja vu.
You remember but aren't sure you knew.
A ghost haunted by their past, who can not stand the present, weighs heavy in silence dreaming of a hopeless future.
****** to relive & repeat a daily nightmare of solitude & neglect.
A person people forget.
Welcome to my life.
Whats in store?
But to restore a shattered & unsettling past.
Not to resurrect the bad times.
Never to press rewind.
Corruption is what you will find.
I guess it was before your time.
Maybe you can never be mine.
A curse still binds.

Would you just listen?
See things from my position.
I get ****** when I realize how we don't kiss.
An unspoken wish.
Remenise in mutual bliss.
I always miss what does not exist.
A commitment is not that hard to resist.
Every year I get older, your shoulder feels colder.
Souls descend toward the clouds.
Watering skies when angels cry.
Raining snow a misery we all know.
The rain can't wash away your blame.
A storm of raindrops, relentless never stop.
Water that is chosen to be frozen.
Ocean waves crash & misbehave.
People drowning can't all be saved & sink to a watery grave.
Sea shells don't float to the surface.
Instead they sink to the bottom. In winter, spring, summer, or autumn.

Like the wolves grey eyes watch.
Sharing is not taught.
Life is not suppose to be fought.

Tomorrow will be new & will be different.
"The muck at our feet
The ooze that eats itself "
You still stink of it".

The ancient holy ghost ...
their power runs through your veins.
"Can you think of the one word there you probably shouldn't have said?"
To destroy each member of the Black Thorn.

"Place the holy vessel back into the bassinet."
An abduction you will regret.

Do not notarize or sign anything no matter what.
There is no reason to record words.
Others notions abscurd.
Misunderstand what they heard.
I will never trust their actions.
Courthouses is like a church with the devil as god.
Birthing Ariel was worth each contraction.
I would'nt do it again though.
I had to be sewed what was ripped.
One life is just as precious as two or more.
Child birth was an expected trip.
My belly may never again be flat.
But I am determined not to get fat.
About this we will no longer speak of that.

This table is taken.
What is the cafe making?
I will have a buttery croissant.
A chai latte is what I always want.

My daughter has always been my only real family.
We deserve respect.
But judgments is all we ever get.
Some faith on us no one will let.
For us to fail is what they all bet.
Her academics reflect.
Our credibility is what it affects.
A recommendation they still don't regret.
The schools & courts don't know I am what is in her best interest & always has been.
Just because I list my case & did not win.
To take a child away from a good mommy is their sin.

Broken hearts with paper they deliver.

To be labeled insane on court manuscripts is ridiculous.
Logic is something they entirely missed.
They need to give Karma a kiss.
Revenge crawls & may hiss.
The mediator, judge, & minors counsel, along with all the attorneys can drink serpent's ****.

They wasted half a year of my living expenses on their wages.
They didn't care at all about my declaration pages.

I passed the evaluation of my brain.
I took pointless parenting classes in the rain.

What they really believe is I am unfit because I am unmarried.
Ariel is my baby which I carried.

Nobody talks to me.
I am a loner as you can see.
To be my friend no one wants to be.
But that is okay.
I do my life my way.
I have a place to stay.

My cat identifies with my mind.
A true friend in him I find.

Can't hide the horror.
Your opinion of me weighs less than sunlight.
You are not the shaper of things.
Stale wind & ash.
It is beyond you.
Something is broke inside you.
How am I to function with such limitations?
I do not bend to your will.
Change is constant yet things stay the same.
Together?  Yes together.
Is this what grief looks like?
I don't like where this is going or has been.
The time line is stitched back together out of sequence.
Drain the energy from you safely.
"Serve no master but your own ambition".
It was a failure.
Your all that's left.
Fighting to hold on to what you were is destroying you.
The weakness of your species.
Touch me & die vermin.
Everything is different.
A self destructing time bomb.
Overloads & explodes.
Stuck in time.
Fear the night.
No harm no foul.
May or may not be evil.

Living on this Boulevard.
The struggle to survive off minimum wage is hard.
To prioritize the assembly of lies.
To patent an idea & prototype it exactly.
To be rich & successfully a dream of a  vision practically.
Take my picture.
Am image maintain.
An existence retained.
An experience arranged.
A desire deranged.
So I can document & record my figure.
Do you ever wonder why you can't have my #?
Care bests are always there.
Frost bitten paws frozen & unthawed.
Misunderstood thoughts forgotten & retaught.
Sapphire skies over the horizon.
Every fiber of my being.
Again my mind in overthinking.
These stone walls are solid.
Thinking of others & babies without mothers.
Subsides but does not last.

Pride smiles while envy laughs.
Creatures if habit adapt.
Lipstick lesbians on the back of butch ***** a Harley bike.
Fully clothed I am at the beach you loathe.
Mysterious & delirious.

Your words & voice never speak to me.
Your eyes never look at me.
Your hands never touch me.

We never occupy the same space.
Our lips never touch or each other taste.
These feelings of mine will rot & waste.
Time may or may not let my desire erase.

I wish we could become friends & get closer.
But I am not your girl you chose her.

It must have been fun taking her to Disneyland. Spending all your money walking hand in hand.

I wonder this time together how long you'll stay.
It is the happiest place on earth is what they say.

***** and drugged.
Kissed but not hugged.
Naked and tied.
Me he had tried to buy.
Forgotten from amnesia
For 11 years.
2005.
The person is no longer alive.
But the bodyguard to blame.
They took his will when they came.
I had no memory of going to Minnesota.
He wanted to marry me the Purple Yoda.

A wanted & desired presence.
A warm soft baby hand.
Big baby eyes.
Chubby cheeks with a personality so meek.
A precious soul to complete your life whole.
Babyfood in a bowl.
Let's go to the park with others.
So if we are together or not people won't wonder.
Impatience is driven.
Of how you visualize living.
Creating your own vision.
Happiness, peace, & love you envision.
An existence chosen.
An occupation worked & you got paid.
To finance a home we stayed.
A tax return brings opportunity of independence.
So living with "mommy" is no longer a dependence.
My own things is what dollars bring.
An oven, a stove, a refrigerator, a bed/futon, a closet, a toilet, a tub, a faucet, a sink, blinds, & a carpet.
All things that aren't broken & work.
My own food, toaster, pots, pans, cups, & plates.
I want to stay inside.
Sit here, write, watch DVDs & hide.
To the paper with my pen my feellings confide.
A bigger online world opens wide.
The internet cultivates while hope waits.

Today I saw a rainbow.
It made the sky glow.
The clouds were dark.
Neighbors dogs bark.
It was sunny but it rained.
My stress was strained.
Looking for work in this town.
Wasting gas all around.
So far nothing I found.
I applied at 3 places online.
If they pick me it will be mine.
Then I can live just fine.
At restaurants we can dine.
I will have to see.
Who or what I will be.
Hardships when your not chosen.
Present moments stop & are frozen.

I bring thee angel a silver chain.
I tell thee also an unbelievable truth.
I shall never have fortune or fame.
I never get what I want only what I need.
My own child minimum wage can't feed.
Poverty, stench, & hatred i breathe.
Tell me what is the solution?
To control & diminish this pollution.
A sacred heart belonging to me.
An unshattered love binds us to be.
Just because I never married someone strong.
To take away my daughter is still wrong.
A sacred kiss of eternal bliss.
A glowing soul that grows.
Holiness bestows ungranted hopes.
Stealing my parental rights.
Lonely abandonment.
Evil feeds & Bites.
Unregretful resentment. Unsettling contentment.
Pages turn words burn.

Waited to be sofisticated.
Desires saturated.
Feelings contemplated.
Unknown people stalked & hated.
Commitments unreached & outdated.
Birthdays belated.
Imaginary relationships created.
Fantasies unfated.
Communities fenced & gated.
Opposite sexes connected & mated.
Second thoughts changed & debated.

Life is not a game.
We are not all the same.
I am a minority.
Having a job is a priority.
Taken for granted by the majority.
You can make this world a better place.
Express a pleasant nice face.
Live each day live to the fullest.
Visualize a destiny, a wish.
That's how you will create it with a kiss.
My past i don't miss.
I have been cursed with the Devil's destiny.
It has ****** but not corrupted me.
My path to middle class success has been interrupted.
By unfortunate circumstances erupted.
All i need is full time work.
The fabric of times quirk.
Minimum wage will get me out of this cage.

All the stars stay still & shine.
The solar system is there but it's not mine.
A vacation island in paradise.
No where you can afford to go once or twice.
Describe what's in your nature.
Capture a silhouette form enraptures.

Sunsets horizon brightness dims.
Moonlight rises through the clouds.
The neighbors get loud.
When they have stupid birthday parties.
For work I am never tardy.
My Chrysler gets me there on time.
When people are young they are in their prime.
I am almost forty it is true.
Everyone I know already knew.

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Unicorns with long pointy spiral horns.
Galloping & trotting along.
Everywhere they belong.
Never can they do any wrong.
Taking no risks.
A magical being.
Seeing is believing.
So graceful & majestic.
A warrior to guard & protect.
A friendship without neglect is what you get.
With telepathic knowledge & supernatural power. Evil will melt & devour.
The unicorn strength will carry you to the river bank.
Your one companion with no pranks.
A heartwarming love from below & above.
Your family to love.
A trusting loyal creature With enchanting stature & lovable nature.

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Reside by my side or step aside.
Our lives sacred. Our souls naked.
All I know is locked in my soul.
My requests go unanswered.
They dissolve like a cancer.
Your lust appeals to my disgust.
You are no one I trust.
Your lack of compassion & empathy is rude.
How I feel is up for appeal.
I was misguided when to you I confided.
My room from you is where I hided.
The 7 deadly sins is what you decided.
Impatience is debating.
These circumstances is what I am hating.

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Destiny is calling what is left of me.
An army is more than one, two, or three.
Honor is a part of me.
Morals you feel but can't see.
Heros don't always get fame on t.v.
Humanity is a morality.
Death is a tragedy.
Disperse this ambush.
The alliance was not first.
Delayed from before.
Bombed to the floor.
Echoed through the corridor.
Innocent souls to heaven soar.
From this life mortals need more.
Vital to survival.
Don't stall or idle.
Go the extra mile.
Be pleasant & don't forget to smile.

A ghost voice has spoken.
The key is to use the token.
An invisible shield.
A sign to stop or yield.
Caution of the crosswalk.
Ignore the beggar's talk.
Focus on your destination.
Along your path to avoid devastation.
Use common sense & use safety.
Have a buddy system.
To a friend you should listen.
Beware & be aware of your surroundings.
When you drive don't speed.
Devise a plan & take the lead.
A certificate in the mail.
A person to know.
A family to grow.
Wings or halos.
Without horns or tails.
Male or female.
An image two of the same.
D.N.A. is your mark to carry your name.
Your ***** is your seed.
Never drink, or do drugs, or smoke ****.

I sometimes hate this earth.
I'm not sure which is worst.
This life or the curse.
Only once I gave birth.
The only & the first.
An angel was delivered.
My happiness was shattered to slivers.
My tears shed enough to fill rivers.
I thought I was nice.
But no one to never ever marry once or twice.
If you know me, you hate me.
Even the parts you can't see.
I no longer cry.
I don't wonder why.
I only hope to never die.
To have or to hold.
Too late another year old.
Your heart is too dark & cold.
Another lie unbelieved is told.
I never got to keep any Guy.
Bad or good.
They never would.
Maybe they should.
If they thought they could.

Soft Lips & soft hands.
Strong arms & strong legs.
Curved hips & deodarized glands.
Seductive charm & eyes that beg.
Wavy long hair & a tall height.
Hairless chest that is bare in daylight.
Hands embrace walking side by side at an equal pace.
Speaking to each other's face.
Timeless romance unerased.
Happiness experienced and unforgotten. Heartbreak shattered & rotten.
Tomorrow is promised.
My lips go unkissed.
My love rejected.
My trust infected.
My spirit ejected and neglected.

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Situation of inflation.
Betrayal saturates your current fate.
Destiny can no longer wait.
Your enemies deceive & hate.

Objectify a small white lie.
An unanswered why.

People & things fall apart.
Torn in half & broken hearts.

Salvage pieces to make it whole.
Satisfaction in a cereal bowl.

Truth unbelieved.
People you can't be with you leave.

The moonlight shines through the trees.
Like a mysterious treasure released.
Our existence fails to cease.
My Feelings are at peace.
Unshattered & undeceased.
Beautiful memories unfading.
My tearful eyes keep waiting.
Uncertainty of a connecting future.
A broken heart is neglecting.
True love needs correcting.
The moon casts a glow.
Through spooky shadows we all know.
In the chilly air being with a guy to care.
With a concern & stare.
Just knowing you are there.
Acknowledge my essence,
with a diamond for a present.

Animals are sacred holy vessels every species.
Wild life to farm animals to pets deserve to live a happy, safe, & loved life.
Not to be butchered & massacred to be frozen, stored, & cooked.
They have feelings, their mind has thoughts, they gave affection & require to be fed.
Their lives have purpose.
They have families & babies .
My vegan beliefs are based on moral values.
I chose for myself & daughter.
We are the only ones among disowned family & friend who are not caravores.
I never voted for the meat industry.
To have meat departments in stores.
Is like having a funeral at a wedding.
It is my choice to never purchase flesh.
To consume flesh alive or undead is not edible.
Horrific ****** is unforgettable.

****** has no compassion.
It has no style or fashion.

Barbaques are satanic rituals to give the devil power.
A sacrifice in each hour.
To be raised as a meat eatting caravore is a brainwashed tradition passed from generation to generations.
I broke the cycle.
I took a stand.
Join the cause for a new vegan world without blood vengenance.
Become a part of life.
The circle of life has no death.
The dead can't rest in pieces.
World peace on earth to save & prevent decease & demise.
In your heart feel what is wise.

Your stomach doesn't digest meat anyways it just rots there.
Today you can start to care.

To devalue the lives of cows, horses, pigs, lambs, chickens & their eggs is disrespectful, heartless, sadistic, selfish, evil, corrupt, ******, mindless, unremorseful, deceitful, betraying, & cruel.

It sickens me to see packaged body parts of animals slaughtered & mutilated.
For caravore consumption.
They would've made good friends not food.
It is disgusting to see red & purple blood leak & chicken fat juice seep through serane wrap.
People who eat the chopped off chicken & pigs feet & fish with their heads still attached & cow tongues look like human lungs are disgusting.
It is cruel & sick.
To cut up parts of a living creature.

One day will happen when my desired dreams will be made real & true.
Most all of my thoughts are of what it would be like if I was with you.
I am a person you never knew.

Your lips just once I wish to kiss.
My secret desire I am ****** to miss.
Happiness unfelt without real bliss.

Rejection shatters my fragile crush.
Every fiber of hope turned to mush.
Any chance in hell down the toilet is flushed.

You'll never care whether or not I am there.

Something borrowed,
today or tomorrow.
Something old,
Something bought & sold.
Something new,
Something blue.
Friends are so few.
Depression has a reason.
It can occur in any season.

Sadness is a moody feeling.
A broken heart with no healing.

I would like to get married.
Before I am dead & buried.

I know I have yet to live a life.
Regret cuts like a knife.
A metaphor to be a wife.
Not a ***** think twice.
I am too sweet & nice.
A piece of heaven have a slice.

Disregarded,  no thanks.
I no longer fall for the pranks.
I withdraw my cash from the bank.
On a scale of one to ten how do I rank?
Poverty stenches & stank.
Stale & untrusted.
Broken,  abandoned,  & undusted.
Defeated,  hobbled, & now rusted.
Felonies & misdeameanors busted.
Lawbreakers, corruded & crusted.

Marry a man with a job & a van.
Who does all that he can.
My secret wish on a shooting star.
To stop getting drunk at the bar.
A walk to his momma's house isn't far.

Work ethics get my kiss.
Employment was my wish.
Success is our bliss.

Like jawbreakers dangerous & senseless.
Civilization settlers & makers.
Pioneers,  homemakers, waiters, bakers, & Quakers.
The towns folk are usually broke.
Different walks of life is no joke.
Occupations & professions of a wife.

Walking to the mailbox through the snow.
Mailing things I buy off eBay to work so my ex don't know.
I spend all my money on me.... So!
I am glad back to California I go.
In my new clothes I look so radiant I glow.
I will never again be your ***.
Your morals in life are so low.
Low life with junk cars that get towed.

Goodbye wither & die.
I promise I won't cry.

You tried to strangle me to death.
Because your addict *** smoke ****.

Be alone.
I'm done pretending we had a home.

You are a bad guy.
I wish we never had met or said. " Hi".

I found someone better after I left you.
Someone you never knew.

A chance with me you forever *******.
A portrait of a better future I wrote & drew.

I was created in his image.
A life unlived.
Mortality outlived.
An existence you can't repeat.
You can not rewind and take a seat.
It doesn't matter if you take a number.
Waiting to die.
Destiny you can't buy.
Promises you can't even try.
Nobody knows why.

Never can I understand.
Why you never hold my hand.
I see the hole in your empty soul.
Anger can be controlled.
Will power & common sense.
Elements that tower & ignorance so dense.
My tired eyes close.
As my spirit rose.
I lay down & shiver, as I drift down the river.
The sky stares at me.
Showing me who I should be.
Killing the fire craves the desire.
My pain you can not obtain.
Happiness sustains, balance maintains.
Water on my skin luring me in.

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What if I died?
What if you cried?
What if no one tried?
What if no one will hide.
What if we lied?
What if they drowned in the tide?
What will we confide?
What if you matched my stride?

A dark shadow.
A quiet meadow.
A depth that's shallow.
A log that's hollow.
A flower that's yellow.
A song that's mellow.
A fellow that says "hello".
A nice soft pillow.
A weeping willow.
A giggly piece of jell-o.

I was hoping your door would be open.
You blackmail & bribe.
But I do not hide.
I am aware of your obvious stare.
Do you care to make a wager?
That I can predict your nature.
You will make the first mistake.
A promise you will break.
A commitment you will fake.
A sin you will make.
You will go to a fire lake.
Die in a violent earthquake.
I can celebrate with cake.
For your sake a chance I won't take.
From a nightmare you won't wake.
I don't blame the rain.
I can't drain the pain.
I can't tame what remains. You are insane.

Who was your first?
This is not going to work.
What is my temperature?
We don't feel like we were.
Are you qualified?
Have I already died?
Am I hideous?
Should I run & hide?
You don't understand,
from my own life I have been banned.
I can't stay here.
I don't trust you.
You are no one I knew.
It was me you were choking.
I am okay now not even broken.
To be with me still you were hoping.
Are you insane?
You have got to be joking.

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Disbelief of your tragedic grief.
Has no relief.
I guess we should rest.

Have tranqulity in your ability.
Doubts abominate my fate.

You should'nt have lied about being on my side. Can you make it So I don't have to wait?

Isolate the fears you create.
Swallow the hate.
The critics don't accommodate.

Don't follow the void that is hollow.
THAT IS INSANE IN YOUR BRAIN.
With only yourself to blame.
Standing barefoot & naked in the pouring rain.

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A Capricorn his children I would have born.
Children of the Capricorn.
Despite in laws that would ***** as a thorn.
The jealous type as a devil with horns.
Never to be a sacred union I would mourn.
My heart in half is what was torn.
A wedding dress for me will never be worn.
By men I guess I am just not adorn.
My spirit falls like a ripe acorn.
Don't know what rhymes with T.....
Other then today, tomorrow,& forever
Perhaps his octomom complex of wanting to have four kids is not clever.
Who is willing to.... his girlfriend.
So he says we should just be friends.
To have another baby with a lover.
Not to be married first I say never.
Even if it was with T.....
Would he break up with his girlfriend ever?
A mutual attraction would conquer.
My heart is filled with love that is pure.
His desire I had once before stirred.
Money or ****** doesn't work as a lure.
For him to choose me over her.
*** & marriage with me would he concur?
His past with her would become a blur
To resume a life with me as they were.
For his happiness I would be the cure.
As a husband I know he would be better.
Casting a love spell couldn't deliver.
I have no power to control the weather.

Yourself is all you can see.
You can't have any part of me.
Your a mama's boy.
Her pride & joy.
When are you moving out of your parents house?
Your 28 & I'm 32.
You have to ask yourself who are you?
Get it together & get a home.
It has been time for us to be on our own.
Are you even going to try?
Why not, why?
Before it is too late & we are old & die.
What is wrong with you?
Why do you do what you do?
This doesn't make any sense.
Your reasons are completely dense.
I hate your excuse it is no use.
Get a life marry a wife.

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He swaggers by with such confidence.
I stare in admiration of his brown hair & hat.
Nobody else sees what I see, I know he's all that.
His strong personality defends a lack of trust.
He shys away without interest a shell within himself
While I am left to ponder
if about me he will ever grow fonder.
We have nothing in common.
I like to Facebook, watch DVDs, & write poems.
He likes to drink, play video games, & who knows what else.
We are not friends he doesn't care about me.
My feelings he does not care to see.
I guess I am to old is how it is to be.
To be 20 to 17 years younger is impossible.
To be the same age is just not possible.
Our spirits have no age.
But our mortal bodies decline & fade.
I guess I am a person he would never get to know or miss.
Eternal Youth full grown is my personal wish.
To reverse my skin's aging & never decrease bone mass.
To maintain a beautiful face, firm *******, & a figure that's first class.