there's a void
maybe its always been
empty from the start
maybe i ignored it or
maybe i enjoyed it

but it's gapping open
now
and there's nothing
to fill it with

this is a new kind of broken
and being alone is so scary
but how can i be trusted
if i cant be alone
i need validation
i need someone to look at me
to say to me
you'll be okay
you'll be okay

you've tiptoed up behind me
once again

and a part of me wants
to ask you to leave
but the other part missed
the way you curl your arms around me
and take control

because i'm tired of pretending
like i know what i'm doing
and putting on a smile
to make everyone else happy

i just want to be alone
and you seem to know that

i feel like my world is falling apart
and i wish you were here
to help me pick up the pieces

the sun is shining
while the rain cascades
down my windshield.
and i'm thinking
maybe
the sky is as confused
as me.

you're the same
kind of different
as me
which is nice
but exhausting
because i cling to you
as if you're the last ember
in a fire that long ago faded
i'm just so cold
and i can't find the flame
in myself anymore