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harlee kae Jan 2018
I don’t know why I need people so much
when I love being on my own
harlee kae Jan 2018
what kind of person am I
to be 23 and missing high school?
it makes me incredibly lame
and truthfully pathetic,
but I’ve never been the type
to make friends just by living.

and in high school I found soccer,
and by extension,
people I genuinely loved.

I have never felt so connected;
to people, to a passion, to the idea
that I am good enough.
and it saddens me to know
four years was all I got
to feel alive and free.
harlee kae Jan 2018
sometimes I wanna be 16
to remember what it felt like
before I had my first kiss
to remember what it felt like
before I fell in love for the first time

sometimes I wanna be 30
to know what it feels like
to be married with kids
and a job I love (hopefully)
to know what it feels like
to know my purpose (hopefully)

most days I just don’t want to be here
harlee kae Jan 2018
To wake up
feeling isolated.
To drive to a job
I was supposed to love
with dread weighing deep
in my stomach.
To be surrounded
by people, by voices
all day, and count down the minutes
until I get home
to an empty house
to feel less alone.
harlee kae Jan 2018
And why would they,
I suppose,
when half the conversations I have
are with myself.
I just thought New Year
meant clean slate.
And if I tried a little love
it would come right back.
But maybe I don’t know
what love is anymore,
because I never seem to show it
without someone getting angry.
And no matter how I try
it never comes back around.
harlee kae Dec 2017
makes me
SO
****
NOSTALGIC.
it’s like the cold
seeps into my bones.
and with that chill, memories.
the ones i forgot to forget about.
and i’m not sure if it’s the free time
or my perfectionist impulses,
but i can’t stop going back
and trying
to fix things.
harlee kae Dec 2017
like the way
his tiny hand reaches for mine
as we line up for lunch

or the way
she says she loves my sweater
even if its the same as the day before

or the way
20 pairs of eyes light up
when i say the word experiment

yeah, some things are beautiful
like the flower
he picked me on the playground
or the moment she could finally
read the word as

and i wouldn't trade those moments
for all the money in the world.
some people turn their nose up when i say i am becoming a teacher but i honestly can't think of anything i'd rather do
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