i sit very still
on the shelf
like a pretty doll
be careful with my skin
it's fragile and will break

please take care of me

dearest love of mine
i want you until
the end of time.
my whole heart
until we die
will belong to you.

i love you so
we will run
hand in hand
child-like fun
our love will withstand
the test of time

i cant help but fall
head over heels
i'm at your call
how it feels
i cant explain

maybe one day
you'll feel the same

i don't want to play
your sadistic games
you try your best
to pull my reins

i know my worth
more than gold of earth
i love you so i let you
hurt me so so so much

i'd love nothing more
to hold you in my hand
i'd love nothing more
than to keep you
in my pocket

but i'm alone
all alone
no one to save me
when the rain falls

to my past loves
i'm sorry i failed
i'm sorry i cared
i'm sorry i tried

to my past self
don't quit
it gets better

to my future self
hope it's as well
as it can be

to whomever it may concern
don't give up on me
i will change for you
wait
watch and see
if you leave, you won't know who

i can be

needles and scars
blades and sleeves
pills and reapers

i drove home going 90 last night
hope to say to my mom hi
tell my lover goodbye
my funeral will be empty
all those i love are gone
and i'm left with the feeling
and the realization

i am the one who is gone.