i'm terrified of not dying
i'm tired of you lying
the end of the world
is exciting

i'm excited to die,
because there is
so much to
look forward
to

i don't want to play
your sadistic games
you try your best
to pull my reins

i know my worth
more than gold of earth
i love you so i let you
hurt me so so so much

There's a place,
you and i know,
there's a garden
where we reap knowledge
but there is noting to sow

we cry for wisdom
but god sauntered
we are left questioning pain
the single inquiry
can a deity go insane?

i have done so much to cause pain
i don't deserve your love
but tonight we are young
and we deserve forgiveness

i sit very still
on the shelf
like a pretty doll
be careful with my skin
it's fragile and will break

please take care of me

i'd love nothing more
to hold you in my hand
i'd love nothing more
than to keep you
in my pocket

but i'm alone
all alone
no one to save me
when the rain falls

to my past loves
i'm sorry i failed
i'm sorry i cared
i'm sorry i tried

to my past self
don't quit
it gets better

to my future self
hope it's as well
as it can be

to whomever it may concern
don't give up on me
i will change for you
wait
watch and see
if you leave, you won't know who

i can be

to **** a god first you must
find and bite the golden apple
then you will certainly lust
for knowledge above the chapel

then hold your humility
and cry out with all your will
the sky will open inevitably
all the ocean will become still

then it's a day of reckoning
and someone will win

please forgive me.
i'm sorry for all things
you said i did
that i know i didn't

please don't hurt me again
i'm sorry i locked my heart
away in a safe
for safe keeping
from you

you have lied but i forgive you
after all, i always said forever
and your abuse ensured
that i was too weak to leave

but always i have you
at least your kisses make
it all okay that you hit me

or does it?
of course it does, you cry
and apologize every time
and say never again
until your angry again

please don't hurt me

when the world starts to burn
then maybe we shall learn
that we destroy ourselves
and everything that compels
us to live and laugh

dearest love of mine
i want you until
the end of time.
my whole heart
until we die
will belong to you.

i love you so
we will run
hand in hand
child-like fun
our love will withstand
the test of time

i cant help but fall
head over heels
i'm at your call
how it feels
i cant explain

maybe one day
you'll feel the same

help.
i'm trapped in
i'm tapped out
i can't win
with you

i hate the fate that
i patiently await
it drives me insane
no it doesn't

i'm fine and smiling

SOS
save our souls

needles and scars
blades and sleeves
pills and reapers

i drove home going 90 last night
hope to say to my mom hi
tell my lover goodbye
my funeral will be empty
all those i love are gone
and i'm left with the feeling
and the realization

i am the one who is gone.

you're the bane
that drives me insane

the constant crashing
the harsh thrashing
the screams and cries
the truths and lies
the life and death

don't waste your breath
i won't rest until im dead
because it's all in my head

My familia crossed so long ago
with wet backs and nothing to show
no good clothes, no shoe soles
hidden in dark, voided of souls
degraded for searching for better
belittled for trying to eat
insulted for wanting to live

I have no more patience for intolerance
i will shed no more tears
i will have no more fear
i'd rather be shot dead
then stay here instead

i am in need of comfort and utter care
i carry this world on shoulders that cannot bare
any more

i weep no longer
no more hope for sovereign
a moshpit in my head
i cant even go to bed

i dont want to die
but i dont want to live

a deafening screech fills the void
my soul in torment and you arent help
i think they forgot about me
im alone

ill drop this world and pray for mercy
my shoulders give up, i failed. im sorry