books
rain
and
you

i love it when you
notice me staring at you
from the corner of your eye
and you catch my gaze
and put on a smile
and throw your head back from laughter
because it makes me feel
like i'm the only person
who can ever make you feel this way
even if
i know the smile on your face is not for me
at least
i know
i am the cause

i haven't spoken to you in 5 months
and i crave your touch
each time i hear
your name

i haven't heard your mixtapes in 5 months
and i crave your words of comfort
each time i hear
your name

i haven't seen you cry in 5 months
since you left
and each time i hear
your name,
i wish you hadn't.