I finally cracked.
My world came crumbling down around me.
Finally.
And even with my loved ones around,
I'm still alone.

Life was good.

I liked him.
He liked me.

He caught me
As I fell for him
We were in Love
Or at least I was.

Soon he grew distant
And I felt the pain of
Ignorance at times.
And then he finally admitted
He just wasn't in love
With me.

Dropped,
I was desperate to
Hang on.
Only being held by a hand.
I felt stronger
But I started to
Slip when she came along.

You caught this other girl,
Who must have fallen for you
And yet you never
Let go
Of me.

Or maybe you tried.
Though I still hung on.
Desperate
And
Heartbroke.
I need you now more than ever.
I hope you won't let go.
But now I seem to
Fear
The end of a friendship is
Near.

I wish for you to,
I hope you will,
I need you to
Hang on.

I'd be
Lost
Without you.

It's not an
Obsession.
I just
Love
Too much.
And I hope you
Understand that.

I'm desperate,
Dear,
For a good friend in my life.
Don't leave.
You almost left
With too much
Hurt before.
Please, don't do it again.

I still need
Your help,
In guiding me
Through this,

For it isn't over
Yet

I see you there in the distance.
You're broken,
Fallen in the dust.
I want to help
Even though
You
Left
Me
In the distance,
Fallen in the dust,
Not too long ago.

But you'd be there to help
Me
So I want to be there to help
You.

But you're falling hard.
I'm trying to catch you
But,
You don't notice my hand
Reaching out to help you.

You're hitting the ground
You're feeling hopeless
But if only you'd notice me there,
Trying to help
Even though,
I don't know how.

Go.
Just leave my mind.

I wish I never met you,
So I wouldn't have to hold back the tears now,
As I look at how she changed you.

Get the **** out
Of my heart!
You've over stayed your welcome.
I want you gone.
I wanna stop wasting my time loving you.
But I want you so badly.

I can't figure out how to get you out.
I can't tell you to go.
You've already seemed to have left on your own
But that boy who I fell for is still there.

He encourages me to stay.
He tells me I'll have him someday.
He tells me to keep striving.
He tells me it's going to be okay.
He tells me not to forget about him.

And it's not him who says it,
It's his personality,
It's his old words,
It's just him existing that tells me to hold on.

So who do I listen to?
The ******* who can't last forever?
Or the one I fell in Love with who must return someday?

You only know
True Love
When it's
Gone.

You only know how much you
Want
When it begins to slip through your
Fingers.

You only know how
Smart
You are when you start feeling
Dumb.

You only notice your
Happiness
When you start feeling
Glum.

You only notice your good
Fortune
When others don't have
It.

You only hear the
Music
When it's never even
Playing.

You only believe in
God
When you see that the other's are
Praying.

You never know when things go
Wrong
Till the thing is dead and
Gone.

You only know of true
Anger
When someone puts the blame on
You.

You only feel
Lonely
When everyone else consists in pairs of
Two.

You only let people
Go
When you know that's it's the right thing to
Do.

You only know when a fights
Over
When it's gone too
Far.

You only know when you want someone to
Stay
After they're already in the
Car.

You only know of
True Sorrow
After it's been
Felt.

And You only know who you
Love
Till they're out of
Reach

They gaze into each other's eyes.
He looks at the damage he caused.
She looks at the boy she belongs with.

They lean in close,
They know it's wrong,
But she's waited for this much too long.

Their lips meet,
For a passionate kiss;
She sure will miss this.

They pull away slowly,
He's realized what he's done.
She wants to scream in horror.

Did that really just happen?

"I'm sorry."
She speaks quickly.

He doesn't know what to say.
He'd committed the thing he never dreamed to.
Cheating.

They're heads rest upon each other,
One hand on another,

Her heart beats in her ears;
He stares at the floor,
Considering walking out the door.

But she opens her eyes,
Leaving the story left unsaid,
As she imagines it all,
While lying in bed.

This one boy...
Changed everything.
This one boy...
Makes me smile.
This one boy...
Gives me hope that not all men are the same.
This one boy...
Texts me all of the time.
This one boy...
Keeps me up past mid-night, not because we text till then but because I can't stop grinning ear to ear.
This one boy...
Makes me look forward to the end of the day, so I know I have someone to talk to, about anything.
This one boy...
Is so talented
This one boy...
Is SO adorable
This one boy...
Is too old for me.
This one boy...
Lives too far away
This one boy...
Is with someone else.
And yet I still love
This one boy.

I'm just going  
To hate                            tomorrow
                        ­                          So
                                    ­           Much...
Stupid *******.

                                                       ­                                  Why did you have to leave?
We were so close

                                                          ­                                  We were doing fine
But you ****** it up.

                                                            ­                               And you broke my heart.
                                               Thanks
                                                    So
   ­                                              Much.

I wonder what you think of me now.
I could ask, but how?
I'm afraid of what you'll say.
I think about you each and every day.
God, just take me now.

You'll never love me again.
Am I still your dear friend?
The confusion irritates me so.
Why won't you just go?
Will this ever end?

But you can't leave me,
We're not meant to be.
But maybe one night,
No fear or fright
Then we can make this right
And I can say good bye,
Find someone else,
Even though I fell
For you, my Love
You have flown away, you gentle dove.

You've soared away
Out of my reach

You taught me many things;
Not to dwell on the past,
Not to hold grudges.

Patience is Virtue,
Something you once said
When we talked about future relations
And something I'll never forget.

I hope you keep your promise..
I've learned you're a man of your word.
Not just something I heard;
It's something you said.
Let's do something together
Before we're all dead.

I sit here and think
Of everything we've been through.

I think about those moments
Of happiness;
Small things,
That make me smile.

I think about how
I used regret ever meeting you
And then think,
Why should I regret it?

You made me feel pure happiness.
Pure safety.
And just purity.

You taught me things,
Showed me how to live a better life,
How to let things go.

Though you may be something I can't let go of,
And though you may never make me feel pure happiness,
I'll cherish the memories of us,
When we were both happy
Together.

My brain no longer commanded me;
My hands took over,
Saying whatever reply came into my head.
I no longer had control;
The first thing I thought was said.
I know said what was on my mind
Without Thinking
Everything I knew
Didn't matter.
I stopped using my head,
And started using my instinct.
I'd Flirt with Disaster.
I wouldn't think ahead
Of the consequences that could be said
Or done.
I stopped thinking;
My hands took control.
I didn't matter now
But then,
I thought:
Is this a turn for the
Better
Or for the
Worse?

You picked me up,
Dusted me off,
But I was heavier than you thought.

Dropped,
You picked her up
Dusted her off,
She was the perfect weight
But to her,
You're arms weren't strong enough.
So she took comfort in his.

I want to pick you up,
Dust you off,
Because I know I can.
But I fear that you think
You're too heavy for me.

My
                    Dear! My
Love
                    It is true. Love
Has
                    Returned to my mind.
Come
                    And see me, my dear. I've missed you so. Come
Back
                     And give me hugs. I want a kiss
And
                    Your sweatshirt. I want your love.
He's
                    So perfect. Perfect for me;
Here
                    I am, perfect for him. It won't take much
To
                    Get him to
Stay
                    I just want to be interesting, **** and fun
For
                     Him. I want
More
                    From him. I want more
Than
                    A kiss from him. I want
A
                    Relationship in the form that we have. Only a
Few
                   Weeks have passed. In only a matter of
Days
                   We've began a certain relationship that's put my brain in this haze.

You've made your way
Into my heart and Mind
And not matter how hard I try
You won't leave.

I
                    Can't tell what you're holding back. Do you
Love
                    Me? Am I the only one who feels this way about
You . . .?
                    Is there some who you
Do
                    Love? Does she love you? Or is it
You
                    Who's afraid to confess his feelings. When you
Love
                    Someone, how long do you wait to let them know? With
Me
                    I've always loved you. But will you ever love me
Too?

I wonder what
                                                                He's
Thinking.
Putting me through
                                                                 The
Emotional turmoil
Knowing that he's the
                                                                Only
One who can help me.
The only
                                                                 One.
The only one
                                                                 Who
                                                                 Can
Get me through this.
He can
                                                                Mend
The wounds, slashed in
                                                                  My
                                                                Heart
Those wounds that he caused.

I want a guy
To Love me.
I want a guy
Who caresses my face.
I want a guy
To hold me tight when I'm scared.
I want a guy
To call me Beautiful.
I want a guy
To hug me and tell me he never wants to let go.
I want a guy
Nothing like you.
So why,
Oh why,
Do I still want you?