[Misses]
I miss the way we used to talk.
I miss the way we both liked each other, but wouldn't fully admit it.
I miss how cute you were.
I miss the fact that you'd say something cuter than the day before.
I miss the fact that I wasn't just some girl you talk to every once in a while, I was like your number one.
I miss the cute questions you would ask.
I miss how we'd make each other blush.
I miss how we'd make each other nervous.
I miss how you'd stay up, just to talk to me.
I miss our 4 hour long phone conversations.
I miss how we said, "Lovers" instead of Love.
I miss how the age didn't bother us.
I miss how the distance didn't bother us.
I miss how we cuddled together.
I miss how it felt when you hugged me.
I miss your smile.
I miss the sound of your voice as you said those three words you'll never say again.
I miss how we became best friends then fell in love.
I miss the rush I felt when you told me you loved me.
I miss how excited you'd get to see drawings I did.
I miss listening to your song.
I miss how I could trust you so well.
I miss hearing you say you wouldn't stop loving me.
I miss how we would play truth for hours and have the craziest questions.
I miss having the feeling of safety just because I had you.
I miss the week from when I met you to when we started dating.
I miss the smile I'd get from talking to you.

[Hates]
I hate the fact that we've drifted apart.
I hate the fact that I didn't get to see you this time around.
I hate the fact that I'm afraid to talk to you.
I hate the fact that I don't even know what to say to you.
I hate the fact that you're so nice, I can never tell if you really mean what you say.
I hate the fact that I never kissed you.
I hate the fact that you never told me about her.
I hate the fact that you led me on.
I hate the fact that you never even loved me.
I hate the fact that you can't even tell what your own feelings are.
I hate the fact that you told me you'd wait three years.
I hate the fact that you pretty much lied.
I hate the fact that you can easily charm me.
I hate the fact that everyone thought we'd last so long.
I hate the fact that you couldn't even wait three weeks.
I hate the fact that I don't know if she's the reason.
I hate the fact that you only waited 3 days.
I hate the fact that you asked her.
I hate how you confuse me.
I hate how you broke my heart.
I hate the fact that I fell so hard.
I hate the fact that I love you.

[Loves]
But I love how you're giving me your sweatshirt.
I love the way you still want that bracelet.
I love the fact that you still want to be my friend.
I love the fact that you'll still visit me.
I love the fact that wouldn't change anything about me.
I love the fact that you opened up to me, and as far as I know, and only me.
I love the fact that you know you can talk to me about anything.
I love the fact that you give me advice...when it's about you.
I love the fact that you'll play along when I talk about, "Him" and you talk about, "him" too.
I love the fact that you still find a way to put up with me.
I love how you're considerate and won't boast about your new girlfriend.
I love how you still like me.
And I love the fact that you still call me, "***."

The worst happened.
You left.
And found someone else.
In less than a week.
You,
My best friend,
Broke my heart.
I was told
Not to talk to you
Anymore.
Told to forget about you.
Told that I didn't need you anymore.
I was going to say goodbye,
Considering how hurt I was.
Considering how royally ******* I was.
But it's just too hard.

You made a big impact on my life.
I can't think of one without you.
I've become too attached.
I've fallen too hard,
To just leave.
For you to just leave.

Your note to us was
A wake up call.
That I could be the one
Shoving you away.
But that's not what I wanted.
So,
I apologized for my
Ignorance.
I let my Anger
Cloud my original thoughts of you.

You're too good for me.
Though you still care,
And you still talk to me like you always have,
Which is all i need.
I'm sorry Dear.
Be happy with her as long as you like.

I miss you.
I love you.
And i want you to always be happy.
Even if it's without me.

I wonder what
                                                                He's
Thinking.
Putting me through
                                                                 The
Emotional turmoil
Knowing that he's the
                                                                Only
One who can help me.
The only
                                                                 One.
The only one
                                                                 Who
                                                                 Can
Get me through this.
He can
                                                                Mend
The wounds, slashed in
                                                                  My
                                                                Heart
Those wounds that he caused.

I'm just going  
To hate                            tomorrow
                        ­                          So
                                    ­           Much...
Stupid *******.

                                                       ­                                  Why did you have to leave?
We were so close

                                                          ­                                  We were doing fine
But you ****** it up.

                                                            ­                               And you broke my heart.
                                               Thanks
                                                    So
   ­                                              Much.

Really
      Just
          Wishing; [for]
              Hoping; [to get]
                  Wanting;
                      Craving;
                          Needing;
                              Him.

The petals have been plucked away.
Leaving only one left;
He loves me...
He loves me not...
The last one left
Makes it clear
That he no longer loves me.
As I guessed.
Yes, I should just accept it
Though it has made me a mess.