When I look into that cold, glass surface
I see the face of a clown, fresh from the circus
With eyes too small and a nose too big
I stifle a sob and tug at my wig
Why did I have to turn out this way
An ugly creature without a word to say
To those who have been granted perfection
Why must I have to face this reflection
The disgust that I feel grips me tightly
And I know that I shouldn't take it lightly
But it burns my heart and crushes my soul
To know that I will never get to see my goal
So I shall lock myself away from those expectant eyes
And hide beneath an impenetrable disguise
For I do not wish to ever catch a glimpse of that face
I'll hide the key and leave not a single trace
No one will remember this person that hated
Everyone and everything that made life so complicated
With their laughs and their beauty they flaunted about
Making me realize what I was left without
I'm not a favorable being in the eyes of God
From the day I was born I was destined to be flawed
Sometimes, though, I get that strange desire
To lift my head up and see him that I admire
It's painful, I'd be a coward to lie
And I'm sorry to say I'm not willing to try
To be a more cheery, a prettier person
Because I fear that my appearance will only worsen
But the time will come when I must reveal
This inner me that refuses to feel
Because I placed that key on a crumbling shelf
While wishing to be anything but myself