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Hank Van Well Jr Nov 2014
Who's the fool ?

As if the tips of my fingers are
Attached to my heart, that's why
I can't seem to let go
The growing weight unbearable
As my chest turns to granite amidst the indecision.
My lungs desperately trying to inhale any hope of a future.
But she lets me hang
Daring to say she loves me.
And yet I hold on
To what ?
Torment , nightmares , rejection.
Who's the fool ?
Why can't I just unclasp my fingers.
Succumb to the weight of rejection and let go ?
Maybe the crash will shatter the stone that has been punishing my heart ?
I wish I could just let go , or you could step on my fingers with the soles if his shoes
The one you've chosen over me
And let me go !
But no , here I am , hanging on,
Because I still love her ,
Fighting with myself
I ask
Who's the fool ?
Hank Van Well Jr Jan 2015
Will she ?

Will she hear the gentle breeze ,
And think it was her name uttered through my distant lips,
A galaxy full of whispered " I love you's " sealed by her name , I used to encompass my day with.
Will her mind ever wander , to one of the may odes I used to create , bathing her in affection , laying steps,
Leading  to the pedestal I had set out  for her.
Will she miss being the center of someone's affection , now that its gone completely , only to relish in the storms if a past that was just as moody as the month of march.
Never to be wrapped in the cocoon , my arms , my affection, will she feel even the slightest bit unprotected without me ?
Will she look to all the beautiful things I used to compare her to?
Feel my love amidst the roses , and the pain on the thorns ?
Will flowers bring back how gently I touched her ,,
The porcelain brushes if my fingers , or lips to her skin as to me she was as fragile as she was beautiful.
Will she miss the comfort of knowing she was never reality alone , as long as she had my love?
I was just an outreach away
My love ,
She was always alone in the mirror, but her mirror was my Eden , just her.
Will she ever " get it "
She'll never know another love like mine, and ill never know another love ,
And I wonder if she will ever "know" at all ?
Hank Van Well Jr Jan 2015
the truth is like the sun, you can't seem to hide from it , and they both can bring tears to your eyes when you see the light
Hank Van Well Jr Oct 2014
Wish for tomorrow

In adolescence I chased after the tomorrow's
Anticipation , of what was on the other side if the evening sky
Or maybe even the decade ,
The future ,
Full of wishes , in the eyes of a child
Never takes a Notice to the face in the mirror
Not realizing we are wishing our existence away ......
Until one day you find yourself in one of those many tomorrow's
Wishing you could go back to yesterday .
The face in the mirror aged and ashen ,
Now longing for yesterday
Lost loves , and care free times
Anticipation of that first kiss
Sadness from that first heartbreak
The night before you met your one true love
Afraid of the future
Missing the past
Wishes now .....
To live in a memory
Time machine set to the past ,
Avoiding the future
Another tomorrow
Greater the distance from all the when's
A greater distance from my " life "
I'm afraid of tomorrow
I miss the past
I don't like the mirror
It reminds me if what Is left to come
As I reminisce of what's left behind
I fear the future , relish the past
Especially........
those moments I used to spend with you .....
Hank Van Well Jr Dec 2014
If I ever got to the end of the rainbow
Or that one wish upon a star
To me my only, hopes and dreams to wish
Is for you, anywhere , that you are
Hank Van Well Jr Dec 2014
Word play

You were the reason I could never stop looking ,
now your the reason Ill never look again.
You are the reason I knew something was missing.
because without you ,
there was always something I missed.
I've come realize love is the reason,
Because without you ,
I have no reason to love.
Hank Van Well Jr Oct 2014
Worlds away 

I've so often tried to reach you 
But distances hold their ground 
Your agenda seems to have its own agenda 
You smell your own flowers 
But never walk though the garden with me 
You sup from the chalice if your own  correlation 
But never hand me a drink 
You gaze at your own set of stars 
And never relish in our romance 
You mock my expression of affection 
In search of your own 
A lifetime wasted 
Living where you were , and never 
Where you were going 
Worlds away 
Distant shores , within the same troubled ocean 
Futile attempts , dreams of us 
Nothing but a lie 
But still I tried to shorten the distance 
Whittle away at the miles , 
Odes , loyalty , honesty and affection 
Maybe walk under the same stars 
Drink from the same cup 
I've tried , 
I've traveled , I've loved 
But your still 
Worlds away ..........
Hank Van Well Jr Jan 2015
Writers block

Just like the closing of a curtain between scenes
I shut my eyes ,
Like a blanket over my head buried on a pillow waiting for a dream.
Anywhere
Anywhere I wanted to go , an it was so.
My muse , my imagination ?
, the flowing river of ink that filters itself through my soul every time i take my pen to the parchment.
Moods ? Seasons ?
I wonder ,
the summer brings the feistiness , the bellowing crackles of thunderous echoes that sound like century old trees crumbling in the forest , along with the stabbing extremities, if the clouds scratching the surface of the ground in the form of lightning.
The springtime ,
I close my eyes again
Pandora's spectrum ,
where I " paint " my words in animation , and " budding hopes ", dreams aspiring romances ,
calasdiacopic brush strokes
second only to autumn
Still vibrantly colored , but fading , where hope may start to show signs of weakening, and recollection seems to carry pain , perhaps graven insight disappointing realty
, and the aforementioned colors slowly ages into a grayness, that acts as the threshold to the cold
A bridge , another blink
The coldness of  a rejection
As the heart of a loved one freezes over .
winter,
lost loves, and stagnant springs, here , where the flowing juices of creativity seem to freeze ,
My muse ?
Perhaps just like the winter gone ,
Hibernation
Winter in "writers land " the seasons if a creative soul full circle, where I can only " hope " she will return from her slumber invigorated.
Thawing into the springtime
Freeing a soul from slumber,
Making its way back , to flowing freely ,
Creative thoughts
back ,
back to the parchment ,
as writers block has woken in another  spring
Hey , that's " one " explanation ....
Something different ?
Hank Van Well Jr Apr 2015
Yesterday's Dreams

She rode in over the horizon on a chariot dipped in memories , and a horse named "Yesterday's Dreams".
On a wave wave of innocence
That formed a bridge out of the face of the clouds.
I look to her with the eyes of the young man that saw her first .
And for a moment , the sun , the moon , and the earth ,
Reverse .
To catch up with the decades old dream.
That seems to be rolling in over the horizon
And into the heart of a dreamer.
Hank Van Well Jr Mar 2015
" you show so much of yourself , without even uttering a word.
Your actions, the voice even louder than spoken words show so very much more , that you needn't say a thing, yet I know ...
      Yet I know ..... "
Hank Van Well Jr Oct 2014
You are the reason I hope for tomorrow
You are the reason I smile
You are the reason my cares dissipate
Even if its just a for while

You are the reason I know how to love
You are the reason i care
You are the reason my heart skips a beat
Even if you aren't their

You are the reason I sleep good at night
You are the reason I dream
You are the reason I want to take care of you
I know its silly it seems

You are the reason my life has now changed
For I have loved you for most of my life
You are the reason I don't want anyone else
But you, to love , as my wife !!!

You are the reason I love at all
You are the reason I breathe
You'll have my heart for ever my love
That you can truly believe
Hank Van Well Jr Nov 2014
" the spot over my heart , the place you rest your head , you claimed your own since you were a little girl, " your spot " where you can ,listen to my heart whispering your name as my dreams are coming true ,
simply because you are there "

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