I’ll step aside

Although I loved you since before memory , your presence a source of my smile.
In a day of digital technology , I chose the time to write , pen and parchment , odes of affection , sealed in wax , my kiss from afar.
My Angel
Even such a wave of affection , not enough to rise you above your yesterdays .
I stepped aside
I can’t watch you chase your past, while I wait here on our future , another empty promise.
You never seem to appreciate my affection , despite the ways I’ve shown you how .
My sun , moon, and stars , yes , the light of my heart you are .
Oh how I wish I were the same to you .
I’ll step aside
The little things , I always looked at you as the flower to my soul , the echo to my heartbeat, cherished you like a porcelain doll , just as you skin would glow under the lunar beams at midnight ,
I stepped aside ,
For the eyes that never looked at you that way , did he ever serenade you ? Or tell you “nobody loves you like i do “ ?
You told me I was your first love , and I told you the same.
I stepped aside “ our “forever , so that you could be with your past.
For even a mighty stone wears from the continuous flow of the water , as  I have form your indifference toward “us “ You never really got it .
So,broken hearted, and under appreciated, as much as I still love you with all that I am .
I’ll step aside .

Sometimes you gotta just know when to quit .

Just like the old time slugger
who's bat is just a little slow
Or that aging quarterback
With less velocity on his throw

You just keep on hoping
For that one more moment In the sun
To re live some of that glory
When the game seemed much more fun

You've given it your all
Left it all out on the field
But no matter how hard you try
The truth has become revealed

Your true and loyal fans
Have turned to someone else
To give them that special magic
That with you they felt

It's then you come to realize
That maybe you should go
Leave with what little pride you have left
Its time to leave " the show "

It's really kind sad how
You've done so much for them
But they'd rather look to someone else
Instead of appreciate you again

Kissing in the rain

The skies hue of bellowing grey , ready to purge the day’s harvest like a spew of raging affection that had been building up over a lifetime of anticipation , waiting to purge from within the belly of the clouds like a first kiss after years of dreaming.
The air filled with the scent of innocence , and ready to rinse away all the tensions , in wisps if relaxation as the wet curtains sweep over the horizon and bathe us in inspiration , while we are peering into each other’s souls amidst our gaze.
Heavens tears cling to or skin , as the tugging of enchantment tightens the threads of a romantic spell drawing our lips together .
Moistened lips slide ever so slightly , as the warmth of our kiss seeps through the cool droplets of the skies offering .
Our skin has a special sweetness as if dipped in passion and filtered through a rainbow , intensity builds with each moment longer our lips dance on each other’s.
Hair wet clothes clinging ,our lips clinging even stronger , the rain enhances this snippet in time , etched in a new memory being made , as we look back on this yesterday someday as our first kiss in the rain .

Take a bow

It used to flow like sunshine on a river bliss , full of affection and glowing vigor.
Just a pen and paper and an open corridor to my soul.
Thousands of odes,laden in sincerity that could only have come from a heart filled in love.
Take a bow
What was once as easily as breathing your name , has dissipated along with the distance of the memories , and abandoned tomorrows that you chose to walk away from , while you went to chase your own.
Take a bow
Missed moments and indifference, doused the fire that burned from within , left growing shadows on the walls , that the final act of forever may be coming to an end.
Unreciprocated romance , wore away at the determination , and a hope for our forever , that seemed to fade alongside your appreciation, of a heart that loved you forever.
Take a bow
You’ve made me watch the curtain close , on our happily ever after , slumped shoulders , and dampening eyes , I’ll turn my back and walk away , you’ve finally gotten me to give up hope ,
It’s over ,
so go ahead , take a bow .

Over again

What I would do just to see your face once more
Even though I know you’d hurt me again
To hold you and love you all through the night
I do anything to have that moment reattained.
So many poems , affection and heart
Put into everything , and “everything you “
The glowing moon has lost its magic
The morning horizons lost its hue.
Although I wish your arms around me
I know it’s not for very long
It would be wonderful for a while
But then back to the same old song.
I’d love to kiss you over and over
But I know sooner or later , you’d you’d only hurt me all over again.

What are you doing now

So many times I drift off on to nowhere , lost in a memory and wondering, what are you doing now ?
For so much of my life , ‘twas made living to love you , thinking of you was just the norm , full of love.
Were you lost in a daydream ,driving off to the store , was the wind rolling it’s fingers in your hair , as you strolled in the sunshine.
I picture your smile , how often I’ve seen it.  And tasted your lips , rose petaled and wine.
Were your hands locked in someone else’s , do you still have my heartstrings , do thoughts of me even enter your mind .
So many dreams we had planned on , so many tomorrows you left behind , so many promises you made me , for one , you’d always be mine .
What are you doing now ?
Are you working in the yard , or on the job , or in the kitchen , I wanted to be at your side no matter what , or when .
I’d stay awake with you in the evening , and wake when you before the sun , just so you wouldn’t have go at it alone .
What you never realized was to me it never mattered , where ever you are is where I called it my home .
But now your somewhere , and maybe with someone , anyone , it seems , just not me , yet I can’t help myself , I can’t get past you , and all that you were to me .
Are you with him , are you sleeping , are you smiling and laughing , alone , or under the stars ?
Do you ever wonder about me , or was I just another step in your heart.
Do you ever think of me too and ask also ,what what is “he “doing now ?
.... what are you doing now ?
what are you doing now ?
what are you doing now ?

all i ever did was love .

I’ve written you thousands of odes , only to have you tell someone else “you love them with all your heart”, a song I’ve never herd you sing to me.
I’ve spent most of my existence , living to love you, not a frame of mind , but, a way of life.
how do you let me treat you so wonderfully , knowing you never wanted to stay.
was it all a lie ?
you were not the first girl who’s lips have touched mine, but you are the first woman I’ve ever truly kissed.
i believe our souls were one in eternity , sewn in the strings of our heart and sealed in that very kiss,parted to be joined again on earth in this life.
i thought we were drawn to one another for as long as i can remember.
you led me to believe you loved me all your life , just not with all your heart i guess.
I’m haunted by the memories that we will never have , tormented by all the times you’ve hurt me , for they outweigh all the times you didn’t .
tried to show you all the time ,just how much i cared , you were my angel,i gave you all that i had ,you gave me indifference , i tried to walk away, yet i kept being drawn back, i tried to forget you , but how can you forget your forever.
all i ever did was love you unconditionally , all you ever did was love someone else more.
why did you ever let me love you at all.