Hank Van Well Jr

Hank Van Well Jr Dec 2017

I know

I know

I know you haven't said it , but I can see it in your eyes , you don't have the heart to tell me , but I know the fires died
The smile that used to melt my heart seems forced and burdensome
You built a wall between us I can't help but know we're done.
You no longer get excited , or want to be with me , seems all you do is think of reasons , of why we just can't be .
Even the simple little things , to you , seem now a chore , it's becoming obvious to me , you don't want "us" anymore .
It's such a helpless feeling , knowing our dreams are no longer the same , it breaks my heart to see the love in your eyes has waned.
I've no choice but to walk away , I have to let you go , even though I gave you my heart so very long ago.

#heartbreak

Hank Van Well Jr Dec 2017

The hardest part

The hardest part

The hardest part is just before I go to sleep , where I fall victim to the memories of a life I know I’ll never have, the frustration of knowing I loved , and never got the same in return , the heartbreak , that in the end , it was him.
My mind drowning in yesterday’s shadows , and the foolishness of how much I tried to stay afloat amidst the indifference, thinking that true love would be our buoy.
So many promises broken , so many dreams we planned , and you’ve abandoned.
All I ever did was adore you with all my heart, a heart that’s empty , and keeping me awake with the taunting fact that you never gave me your whole heart in return.
I wonder if you’ll ever think of how deeply you’ve scarred me , I wonder if I ever really mattered at all.
Or was I a fresh breeze that made its way into a stagnant time in your existence.
You had my heart in your hands , and never really appreciated what you were holding.
Unconditional love , an eternal soulmate , a lifetime .
The thoughts that keep me awake , as I wonder what I could have done different to make you love me more , or was I just a blip In your life for amusement, “already gone” , before it started .
Yes, the hardest part for me , is just before , I go to sleep .....

#hearybroken

Hank Van Well Jr Dec 2017

Shadows

Shadows

A brisk jolt and I turn my head only to find a blink of a remnant shadow , I could swear you were sanding their.
Only the realization of yet another fading memory and another piece to a broken heart.
Shadows.
Turning my dreams into nightmares , not because of your presence , but because I know When i awaken with a hallow pit in my stomach , and a fresh reminder that you are gone, and a mind full of yesterdays I’ve been trying to forget .
Shadows .
Under the moonlit glow , where I loved you forever , ran my fingers on your porcelain cheeks under the evenings lunar reflection , so beautiful , soft and loving .
Shadows .
Through the empty walls I can swear I hear your voice , sweet murmurs that would bathe my soul in comfort , only to feel another piece of this broken heart weep , knowing it was only my mind wishing .
You may never know the pain you caused , and the remnant thoughts that still taunt me .
You held my affection in your hands ,and you let it go .
Shadows
Lies , infidelity , flashed like stormy sky in the heat of tempest rage punching me in my gut , I see you with someone else and wonder if I was ever true .
Nobody loved you like I did , yet now all I see are shadows.

Hank Van Well Jr Nov 2017

One last time

One last time

I wanted to to hold you one last time
To taste your lips , and savor the flavor
I wanted to embrace you like it was the last time I'd ever touch your skin again.
I wanted to hear your voice just once more , so that my heart would bathe in its warmth as if we were walking into a dream forever.
I never wanted it to end this way , I kept hoping for that one more time , but you seemed to have something other on your mind .
You were happy with your memories , I kept wanting to make more.
But you chose yesterday over tomorrow , and I never got to love you " one last time "

Hank Van Well Jr Nov 2017

The final dance

The final dance

Sadly the music has been dimming for some time now ,
I tried to hold on , to what I realize , were only memories,fooling myself.
Your heart's been silent for a while ,empty echoes , not the melody I kept dancing to, not realizing , the band called romance was already played its final tune.
I always thought " true love " would be the never ending song.
In my affection I was still dancing,while you were walking away.
I guess I'll never feel your heart beating pressed against my chest , no more will your head never to rest upon my shoulder, we've had our last kiss , yet I was willing to make your lips the last to touch.
I'd say I'll miss you now that your gone , but I spent most of my time missing you when you were here , now it's finally come to me, you can't slow dance alone , and you've been gone for some time now , we've had our final dance

Hank Van Well Jr Oct 2017

When I die

When I die

When I die pleas don't be sad
Don't wish you could have spent more time with me , you could have if you wanted.
Don't wish you had one more chance to tell me you love me , you passed up in so many times when you could.
Don't feel bad about not having one last night together , you had plenty of fun with those people you blew me off for instead.
Don't feel bad for all those times you were unfaithful , and how rotten you must have felt for making me hurt , cuz you only went ahead and did it again and lied about it .
If you miss my voice , don't fret my darling , just get in touch with whomever you were talking with , when you were not talking to me , waiting say " I love you ".
It's ok my love , you'll be fine.
Don't worry about all the " I love you's " and expressions of affection , you said it yourself , you didn't have time , I'm sure all
Those people places and friends will never let you down ,will show you unconditional love and loyalty , heck , I'm sure they loved you like i did !
Someday , when they all have lives of their own , don't feel bad that I wanted a life for us .
You'll be fine , I'm sure those people cant wait to hear from you , like I did every day .
So please darling , don't be sad , don't be sad when I die.
Yours truly
Mr Unappreciated

Hank Van Well Jr Nov 2016

Open the dream

Open the dream

The moment you professed your love for me, the door between my dreams , where you lived in the heart of my mind was opened to the now.
Like a magical key forged in our affection , only you could unlock my soul to the world , so that I could live to love you under the sun , not just behind the stars or deep in my imagination.
True love , ours , is the bridge between the aspirations of a future tomorrow where I slept in " we " and now wake in " us ".
Sealed in eternity the moment I " felt " your kiss !
I love you