You laid your eyes on me and beamed. Oh gosh I can feel my stomach flutter! 
You walked away. I turned away. Maybe he doesn’t want to see me.
Someone is calling someone and suddenly I hear someone calling my name.
That voice, the voice I wanted to hear everyday,
The same voice I dream to have conversations with.

I missed that voice. The voice I used to hear singing me songs.
The voice I used to hear saying my name, sweetly.
That voice that sent shivers through my spine.
The same voice that I hear even when I’m dreaming.
Your voice who told me those two big words, “Trust me.”

I glance back and saw you, nearer. As if you wanted to talk to me.
That hair, your messy hair that goes beyond perfect with your looks.
Those dimples, your five ******* dimples that will only be visible when you smile.
And yet I’m seeing that smile, as if it was made for me, only for me to see.
Those eyes, those brown smoky eyes that lit up my soul whenever I look at it.

But I instantly pushed those thoughts away. Maybe he’ll going to ask me why I’m here.
“Why are you here?” Watching you. I’m watching you from afar. That’s the truth!
“I just want to talk to her.” To you! It’s you that I want to talk to, always.
    ⎯ “I need to ask her something.” What’s wrong with my mouth? It says clashing words from what I really wanted to say. It’s like it’s have it’s own life that I can’t control. Or maybe,
I’m just afraid to reveal my feelings in view of the fact that you might not feel the same.

“Oh, I thought you’re wat⎯” you murmur, “never mind. It’s nothing.” You walked away.
And as your body walk off with mine, you brought my heart but never left yours with mine.
Most of the times it confuse me, why are we afraid?
Here we go again… Afraid to say the words worth saying, and not risking anything.
And maybe, I’ll **** that someone who introduce us the phrase, “Prevention is better than cure.”
As it is harder to prevent someone you love, when you know that it’s them who can cure you.

You make me feel loved.
You make me feel needed.
But that’s always before you got what you wanted.

Nothing will last.
And eventually one of you will leave.
Because no matter how much
you wanted to save someone from drowning,
you will always be busy
trying to save yourself from the flood.

Do not believe someone
When they say you're okay.
Because you know you're not
and they are only telling you
what you want to hear
so you'll leave them alone
and they can go on with saving themselves.

Do not believe the song
That tells of things getting better.
Because it won't,
It's only there
to be bought from record stored
along with the others
that offer temporary relief.
Tomorrow you'll be sad again.

Do not believe yourself
when you feel cold.
Coldness is non existence.
There is only an absence of warmth.

But believe me when I say
That I am here and I love you;
That not everybody hates you.
Because there is no such thing as hate,
There is only absence of love.

Soaked in hard rain
I'm walking forlornly
In a quiet street
With an endless darkness
Without my heart in mine

Left with no one
I wept in disgrace
Knowing tomorrow will not be
The same again

Shivers thru my spine
In this freezing night
Will be forever
Until you came

I recognise the gleam
When you arrived;
You brought me felicity
That I somehow forgot
When I'm in pain.

Failing to remember
All those grief
Will be facile
But pledge you'll remain
And I'll do the same.

A family who have everything
     they need and want.
Have this little girl who
     wants nothing
     but a harmonious life.