Wordforged Fool

Wordforged Fool Jan 2016

I'm breaking
My soul is cracking
My mind is bleeding
My heart is shattering
And I am screaming
I want to be saved
Or have my name in a headstone engraved
Either way is a way to liberate me
Just another way to be free
I am suffering but you can't see
Because I'm laughing joyfully
But I want you to see through my lie
Or our next kiss may be our kiss goodbye
For I may soon leave this world
A pull of the trigger leaving my suffering unfurled

I'm okay. I promise.

Wordforged Fool Jan 2016

Thief

She was everything
All I needed was to ask
Then she took it *all

Wordforged Fool Jan 2016

Addiction

I'm not addicted to ****, ****, *******, ****** or crack
But I have an addiction, and if I don't get it, I'll have a heart attack
I'm addicted to you, my heart can't get enough
And being away from you makes my life rough
You are the only one I want, my only addiction
And I always want you, my only conviction
You make my heart rush and my head spin
Feeling everything from within
You are my everything, my greatest addiction
I am your addict with a desire that can't be beaten

Wordforged Fool Jan 2016

Afraid

I am afraid
Of being betrayed
I am terrified
Of being denied
I fear the people closest to me
The ones I call my family
Tyrants taking advantage of my cowardice
And never giving me a real choice
All I'm allowed to show is unconditional obedience
I am shackled by their chains, keeping my distance
I am trapped and afraid
Keeping their punishments delayed
I am but a spineless fool
Good for nothing but their tool

Wordforged Fool Jan 2016

Silence

I'm screaming silently
I'm crying for help inaudibly
I shout but nothing can be heard
Listen close, not a syllable, much less a word
I'm screaming silently
For someone to end my misery
An existence inside of my head
I may as well be as good as dead
I need to be saved, to be heard
But I scream and shout with a smile, not a word

Wordforged Fool Jan 2016

Dreaded Mentality

On the outside, I'm just fine
But take one look into my MIND
This is HELL
This is BLISS
There are SCREAMS I can never quell
I'm a broken machine of HORRORS nobody can FIX
THIS is my head and all of the emptiness
Full of terrible thoughts that will not find silence
I smile because my head can't decide what to do
Crying for me is nothing new
IGNORE what you see
Because inside is the one and true miserable and broken *ME

Wordforged Fool Jan 2016

Sanctuary

I see your blood, I know you're in pain
But let not your suffering be in vein
Let me hold your broken heart
To keep it from further falling apart
Protected until a solution is found
Held close to me, safe and sound
I crack, crumble, and fall apart
But I'd rather I suffer than let anything harm your heart
My doors are ironclad
My walls are steel
I hope I can make you happy and glad
So I can continue to bear the metal, so cold to feel
I want you to smile
I want you to weep with joy
So I can continue my denial
Of the walls collapsing, myself I destroy
I am the vault of secrets and lies
If you smile, then I'll be the one they all despise
Even if you hate me after
Just be happy now and forever