I'm screaming silently
I'm crying for help inaudibly
I shout but nothing can be heard
Listen close, not a syllable, much less a word
I'm screaming silently
For someone to end my misery
An existence inside of my head
I may as well be as good as dead
I need to be saved, to be heard
But I scream and shout with a smile, not a word

On the outside, I'm just fine
But take one look into my MIND
This is HELL
This is BLISS
There are SCREAMS I can never quell
I'm a broken machine of HORRORS nobody can FIX
THIS is my head and all of the emptiness
Full of terrible thoughts that will not find silence
I smile because my head can't decide what to do
Crying for me is nothing new
IGNORE what you see
Because inside is the one and true miserable and broken *ME

I see your blood, I know you're in pain
But let not your suffering be in vein
Let me hold your broken heart
To keep it from further falling apart
Protected until a solution is found
Held close to me, safe and sound
I crack, crumble, and fall apart
But I'd rather I suffer than let anything harm your heart
My doors are ironclad
My walls are steel
I hope I can make you happy and glad
So I can continue to bear the metal, so cold to feel
I want you to smile
I want you to weep with joy
So I can continue my denial
Of the walls collapsing, myself I destroy
I am the vault of secrets and lies
If you smile, then I'll be the one they all despise
Even if you hate me after
Just be happy now and forever

My weapon is patience
Time is my sword
For me, waiting makes no difference
Because the ones who wait reap their reward
The clock is my armor
The watch is my shield
Watching the hands revolve forever
As all of time itself I feel as if I wield
I feel in my heart that all will be solved in patiently waiting
For all must come to an end, both despair and hating
My weapon is patience
My armor, the clock
Eventually all will know silence
*Tick-Tock

Hush my darling, don't you cry
Even when the light is about to die
For when the darkness comes to play
Forever with you my heart shall stay

Pain, deceit, misery, and lies
These are all I know and they're what I despise
But that also means I hate me
But the echoes of my past won't leave me be
My sins, my crimes, my evil misdeeds
I hate myself, yet I plant these seeds
Hit me, punish me for all I've done
I can't hide, I can't fight, I'm too frightened to run
But the echoes, OH GOD THESE TERRIBLE ECHOES!
I can not rid myself of them
Burn me and make me bleed
Either that or leave me be
I don't deserve kindness
Not for my cowardice
Not for the pain I've caused
Not for all of the lies
I've taken their bliss
I guided them until we were lost
And I am the false shepherd until the last lamb dies
I am a monster, hiding in a human's skin
I am nothing but evil within
I have good intentions and I want to do right
But I can't because all I can do is extinguish the light
Cut me down and punish me for what you have no knowledge of
For I deserve it all if I am ever again to be worthy of love
Worthy enough again for joy, laughter, happiness, and bliss
These are the emotions I long for, I miss
At the end of it all I ask for one tender kiss
For me, undeserving, a monster amiss