I rolled over this morning and you weren't there.
Not even the scent of you remains.
Yesterday I was admiring and stroking your hair.
Why you walked out I can't explain.

I lumber down the steps in a jilted lovers daze
Hoping to see your smiling face.
Instead I see a darkened room with a guilty haze.
Your love is something I can't replace.

I start my car and the sad music begins to play.
A heart stabbing melody surrounds me.
I begin to feel dizzy and my head begins to sway.
The tears stream down my face so free.

I drive my car around to clear my aching head.
When I spot you holding another mans hand.
The feelings that overcome me make me feel dead.
I would rather writhe skinless in the gritty sand.

There's no reason to go on with my miserable life.
If I can't have you then I don't want anything.
And just to think I was going to ask you to be my wife.
What in the hell am I going to do with this ring?

Hey man that sugar cube really hit the spot.  
My nerves were on edge and really taut.  
Let me tell you about the dreams I had last night.
I wish you could have been there it was quite a sight.

There I was talking with an enlightened being.
His eyes were the sunrise and his hair was singing.
The steed he rode was a rainbow dromedary
And his voice was like an over excited canary.

We ran through green fields that were moving.
Alive with sound and scenes that were soothing.
We took a glass elevator that broke the membrane.
Helmets not needed as we breathed the methane.

We slowly floated back to our shining sphere.
And even without wings I didn't have any fear.
We grabbed the umbrellas and went to the beach.
I collected vacated shells and ate them like a peach.

We swam around in my ocean of confusion.
It became quite apparent that life's an illusion.
There's so much more behind the wizards curtain.
That my body is a useless shell I'm quite certain.

The cellular connection that joins us together.
Always has reception regardless of the weather.
Love is the key to life on this mortal coil.
Our feeble minds will always be love's foil.

My friend looked at me with knowing eyes.
He's been telling me for years that life's a lie.
He said that trip you took opened your soul.
Whatever you do, don't climb back in your hole.

I've been often asked if I believe in an immortal being.
Will I burn in the fire or fly with the angels that are singing.
It's a question that I've rolled around in my troubled mind.  
But I've found that thinking makes the answer hard to find.

Instead I've concerned myself with today and the moment.
I observe the things around me that make life oh so potent.
So here's what I'm going to do with the rest of the story.
I'm going to reminisce about the things that show his glory.

I've been lucky enough to be blessed with kids and wife.
And except for some bumps and bruises a healthy life.
There's a roof overhead and there's food on the table.
And I live in a country that's not war torn but quite stable.

When I pause for a moment and quietly observe natures scene
I know in my heart that it's no accident that it's so serene.
Are we just lucky to find ourselves on the planet of blue.
It's not really a question I can answer you'll have to ask you.

But I will have to concede that the the truth is unknown.
Science tells me that there's no one sitting on the throne.
We are all a cosmic accident that began with a boom.
And at the end of our lives we head for a darkened room.

But let's circle back to the original provoking query.
As you probably guess I have my own thoughts and theories
So if you placed a gun to my head and made me guess.
I would close my eyes and mumble a definitive maybe yes.

I can't be a wooden man.  As you pull on my strings.
I know your devious plan.  That **** hurts me and stings.

I see your wandering eyes. When we walk down the street.
I'm tired of your obvious lies. As I lay between hardened sheets.

The late night phone calls.  Where you whisper in the dark.
The sudden visits to the mall. When he climbs in and lights a spark.

Now there's a bump in the front.  And you're trying to say its me.
But I've gotta be really blunt.  You never did make me squee.

It hurts.  
The words rolling around like boulders.
An imperfect mind resting on shoulders.  
Thoughts that never build but just smolder.  

It's maddening
So much to say but my tongue stays tied.
So much self doubt my brain is fried.
So many nights isolated where I cried.

It's death
A familiar friend that promises the light.
A release from the demons that stalk the night.
Place that halo on my head shining bright.  

Renewed life
Comforting arms around my new being.
Nothing but lullabies and soft singing.  
Forgotten lives as I circle life's eternal ring.

Eyes fixed on the ceiling as the day passes by.
Foggy thoughts of nothing blot out the sunny sky.  
Sighs of exasperation escape my smothered soul.  
Where's the happy days that my depression stole?

I want more.
Rainbow skies
Flowered fields
Your head on my chest.

I want more.
Joyful cries
Kisses sealed
Your love would make me blessed.

Burning tears of misery stream down my face.
All alone in this world I feel so out of place.
The shadows surrojndjng me are my only friends.
Will I break these shackles or will my struggles never end?

I want more.
Rainbow skies
Flowered fields
Your head on my chest.

I want more.
Joyful cries
Kisses sealed
Your love would make me blessed.

Take me in your arms and hold me through the night.
Please whisper softly that it everything will be alright.
All I need is your love to escape from this self imposed cell.
One more day without you is like an eternity in hell.


I want more.
Rainbow skies
Flowered fields
Your head on my chest.

I want more.
Joyful cries
Kisses sealed
Your love would make me blessed.

When I pull myself out of bed as my nails scratch down the sheets.
When I face the world on the darkest days when my soul aches .
When I want to run from faces that I meet on the busy street.
When getting out of the elevator gives me chilly shakes.

It's because of you that I face the daily pain
It's because of you that I want to dance in the rain.
It's because of you that I can try to cure my wrongs.
It's because of you that I want to write you this song.

When the voices inside my head bring me to my knees.
When the world stops making sense to a plain and simple man.
When I can only find peace by swinging between the trees.
When I'm lost without a compass or a rational plan.

It's because of you that I face the daily pain
It's because of you that I want to dance in the rain.
It's because of you that I can try to cure my wrongs.
It's because of you that I want to write you this song

I can't repay this debt.   I can't shed enough tears.
I'm so lucky we met.  You've calmed all my fears.
You've saved my life.  You've made me feel.
God gave me a wife.  Now I know love is real.