I am a ghost
Simply a hollow shell
Of my former self
I am not happy
Nor am I sad
Only numb, empty

With every heart break
Every betrayal
Every time the world came down
I lost a piece of my soul
Like a leech, every sorrow
****** the feelings out
Leaving me to stand alone against my demons
And no courage to fight them
No courage to live

So I drown myself
Narcotics, *****, cigarettes
Anything to make her face disappear
To put past friends behind
To forget the disappointment in my parents’ eyes
I just want to forget it all
And vanish from the face of the earth

Los Angeles, The City Of Angels
A place where the phrase
***, drugs & rock n roll
Comes to life

Where palm trees are abundant
And the sidewalk is covered in stars
Engraved with the names of Hollywood’s finest
And its mental wreckage

A place where dreams come true
An oasis in the desert
Sandy beaches, elaborate mansions
Trendy shops, expensive cars

Everything you could ever want
Is within an arm’s grasp
Whatever your fix is, it’s here
The true land of the lotus eaters

I strike the match
The match strikes the cherry
And I inhale the smoke into these
Diseased lungs
My entire body relaxes
The cancer creeping in calms my mind
And sates my troubles soul

When I exhale
The blue, curling smoke drifts
Up in the sky
Towards a lonely moon
A little bit of life swept away with it
Perhaps to keep the moon company
Or to quicker bring my wretched life
To and end

Why do I destroy myself?
Does it matter? We all die in the end
Maybe the destruction makes it easier
And it still ends the same
Death
For life is a cancer
Perhaps the destruction keeps me breathing

Your love is like ******
A sweet needle shooting euphoria
Through my veins
Giving me the epitome of happiness
You are my addiction

Your big, blue-gray eyes are *****
Melting me away with pleasure
Your golden hair the poppies
In which I rest and find peace
Your love is more addictive than ******

But when I lost you
Nothing was worth the pain
The pain, the emptiness
I nearly died
But I made it out; I got clean of you

The other day, I heard from you
You wanted me back
But I was addicted to you once
And I’m never going back there
Your love is too addictive, and the withdrawals too painful

The dog toured the city at night
All orange and red and filled with light

The dog was looking for a fight
One that would give him divine rights

The dog fought many fights that
****** night and won them all
His opponents were quick to fall
And he dismembered them all

His brown fur is matted with bright red
Blood, his body covered in cuts
And he roamed the streets as he bled
In search of doggie *****

As he crosses the street that night
Two bright lights appear
Getting closer, closer
Screeching rubber

Rest in peace, little dog
Rest in peace