If you cant listen
To the repitory words
I've spilled from my
Lips and hand
For a time now
I can't make you
If you can't appreciate
The endless trail of my
Wanting to please you
Pining giving and waiting
For much too long
I can't make you
I see and hear
The words you choose
and actions you use
It weighs heavy on my heart
Leans, no yanks me
To witness where
You would take me
With no regard to
a smile or frown
Upon my face or heart
I can't make you
I can take my own advice
And change my life
So I stay sane
And admit
As I've had so many
Times before
I'll be taking this door
All alone.
Because, I can't make you
I cant make you
I can admit I was wrong
This doesn't make me happy
I need more then
just sassy presence
I can pull myself together
Even though inside me
The weather is so grey
But I can't make you
I can't make you
it pains me
To admit to the world
Im trying to lit
Is so rough and
Untraveled, I was so
Encouraged,.convinced
If I gave more
Did it all
Gave every moment
Only to you
Id feel a darkness
Inside me subside
And its not
Its growing out of control
And given me a hole
I can't balance anything on
I need more and
I can't make you
Make you love me.

I grew this flower
Yet no one cares
I made it fed it
And loved it without fear
No one ever will see it appear
i grew this flower
With all i hold dear
Yet no one will tear it
To pieces and leave it
Right here
I grew this flower
For no one to hold near
For no one to smell
Or admire or see
I grew this flower
Just for me
So i could be lonely
And filled with fear
I grew this flower
So no one could see
all this pain
That this flower
Removes from me
I grew this flower
So i could be here
To share why i grew
This flower my dear.

"AGoddessOriginal"

Hi! I'm Nobody.
Not only do I not care
I dont really give a **** either.
And Yes, I dare.
I'm  the one who
Doesnt change the toilet paper
I don't listen too!
Joy anything sound familiar.
I also never water the plants
Take out the trash
I don't know how to drive
yet here I am, Nobody, CRASH!
I don't pay attention
When SomeOne says anything
I'm so busy not caring
For everyone except little ol nobody
Does any of this sound real
well of course it should
Cuz if nobody wasnt doing it
Ya'd thunk somebody would.
But there it is
Nobody *** 'er done
If anyone was worried
its ok go have fun.

Dont compare your life
With mine with her
How could you dare
You think it was easier
i was a bad kid
Whi never had a stable home
Was molested, detested
Cuz I was too young to be left alone
Mistreated, beaten
but i was rotton
For no reason at all
13 yrs old forgotton
Juvenile hall
Very few loved me
Hated by all
Like i asked to be here
i made this call
Then when someone
Did have love for me
smiled at my success
She made sure i felt
Unwanted and a worthless mess
Even when she was given the tools
For her and I to make amends
She choose to toss them aside
like i was a means to an end
I couldnt of felt more abandoned
And so a wall was built
Of course i left
Why would i stay
So i could continue
To be treated this way
She didnt miss me at all
those were their best years
Everyone was so happy
When i wasnt there
Why do you think
I feel its better this way
When she died
All ties vanished away
I dont neeed her parasites
Take on her worries
Her problems
In this life.
If she did so right by you
Go   be    hurry
Do what you do
Im not sorry
For leaving that way
I will neber be back
There is no someday
Very few things
That were good
happened to me there
So for the life of me
I dont see how you compare
Also your father
Couldnt stand me
And nor i him
Like i needed
Another alcoholic screaming
His drunk slurs again
That ***** was crazy
If she thought it was happening
Thats why at 14 yrs old
Me and nana lived alone
just on the other side of town
Oh where was precious mother
no where i was found
Now think about that
And tell me how you compare
Cuz she didnt fall through
For a while ******* year
the only reason she knew
I was pregnant
Cuz she would gossip
With ******* who were ignorant
Not cuz she tried to be around
Ask our dear brother he will tell
how much effort she roused
Think i felt abandoned and alone
That poor kid oh my god
He was left with schizophrenic soul
Cuz it was too much for her
To be provided for on a silver platter
ridiculous and so low.
So dont come to me with your mess
Of how lessyou feel
Without me in your home
You dont know what your saying
Less then half my age
And trying to make me change
All cuz we came from the same hole.

I have a thought on a page
and its making me crazy
Wondering how I could save

My sweet baby

My little words are absurd
I dont think theyd be
what the world wants to hear

About my little baby

My babys eyes
Tell no lies
And its never a compromise
Theres never time
To get your wits
Just click that ****
Hit them bricks
You'll never see him coming
Sweet teddy bear loving
His **** blues
Will have you fooled
Give up on this
I'm all his too

Because

I have a thought on a page
Oh its making me crazy
Wondering how I could save

My sweet baby...

I am so plagued
By this song
That plays endlessly
Again and again
Right when I think I'm on
To what it says to me
I'm wrong
How can I be so unsung
from something only I have
Thunk of
And when will I figure its tune
In you
maybe it could be thee
That I'm not alone in denial
its wretchedly vile
Over and over
It sings to me
This song
Thats plagued me all along
Making me
Feel endlessly.

I found myself, wishing I could call you today
I found myself missimg your smile
O found myself forgiving your harshness, your ignorance, impatience, and selfish style
I found myself, sighing with heaviness
Glad that I left things that way I did,
Relieved I said what I needed to, so on these days,
My closure is a little more completely said.
I found myself, through adversities that you subjected me too,
I found myself, though alienation is all you taught.
Out of sight, out of mind,
A sorrowful excuse to have fought.