I thought you were the finest piece of art
that I've ever laid eyes upon,
you were so complex...exquisite.
so exquisite that the voices and noises around us
would fade out when you'd take a breath.
as if you were distinctly placed
in the museum of Fine Arts;
you were admirable.
constantly leaving anyone in aw
who viewed you as I did.
you were piece by piece, hand by hand
crafted and molded
into the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
the pigment of blues in your eyes
were so particular;
you'd think you'd find the sky in them,
even when you're indoors.
if you looked close enough
you'd probably fall in love as hard as I did.


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i crave you
i ache for your hands,
your touch
it was as if you knew
every turn and curve
of my body
as if i was your masterpiece.
you wallow in me
as if i was the finest piece of art
you’ve ever seen.
it was an infatuating love
a gentle love
a reassuring love
a love that was so beautiful
so pure
yet so hazardous.

GM

i sit here and stare
at the grains on the wall off into space
i hate the feeling of suffocating
where my lungs are begging for air
i hate the feeling of my eyes engulfed in tears
hanging onto my waterline
as if it's holding on for dear life at the edge of a cliff
i hate the feeling of boulders tied to my weak ankles
and weights strapped to my tired shoulders
i hate the feeling as though my mind
is trapped in a cold empty jail cell with someone
running a metal cup along the bars making this echo
this constant noise
those are my thoughts
unable to be spoken aloud

GM

It makes so much sense now,
Why hurricanes cause so much damage
And then are named after people.
You come in my life and destroy
everything
Everything that I stood for
Ruined.
Everything is gone.
You made such a hard impact
As a category 5
Destroying everything in your path
And then leaving as if it was nothing..

GM

Think of me as a conch, listen and lean in close to the waves roaring trapped inside my mind.

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i'm drowning
6ft under all of the
"i love you's"
and
"give it time's"
"it'll work out in the end's"
these words
they fill my lungs
to the very top
making it hard
impossible to breath
gasping for air
struggling for hope
hurts so bad
i've hit rock bottom
GM

I'm finally free to say that
I truly don't miss you.

i'm constantly piecing myself together
rebuilding and remodeling
gluing, stitching, and stapling
myself back together
so i don't easily fall apart
as i did once before

GM

i sometimes feel that i am not enough
i feel as though i cannot make you content
that i cannot please you
i want to be the best for you
when you can't be the best for yourself

GM

'Come to me'
I whisper
the drops of sun
kissed your cheeks
so gently
glazing your body in beauty,
it was as if though
God himself
placed you here
for me

Your aura
my god it's magnificent
I reach out towards it
'touch me'
I whisper
your hand softly
and sweetly
glides along my jaw bone,
through my hair
'kiss me'
I plead
your lips so elegantly
pressed against mine
they draw apart fast
as if we are
water
and
oil
divided between a fine line of
I love you
and
I hate you

'Mix with me'
I scream
I want to feel you
a part of me
Intrigue me with your ways
make me whole
kiss me
like the sun kisses bone above your brow
miss me
like the moon misses the sun
on a cold, dark night
crave me
like your body
craves this alcohol
drinking to suppressed devotion

Inhale me
like I am your last
and final cigarette
I want to be that warmth
that fills your lungs
that burns
the back of your throat
put me at ease
sooth me

I want to feel
your breath cling
to my cold,
numb body
like the morning dew
clings to your windowpane
as I leave at 4a.m.

I want you to tell me
don't go
tell me
you need me.



GM

80 days from now your name will just be a name

it wont be a sign of significance or importance

and my heart wont race a thousand miles

and my heart wont skip a beat at the sound of your voice

i will not reminisce on old voice recordings you left me

saying your apologies

which were just a routine after you’ve ****** up repetitively

you’re now yet to be just another one of my journal entries  

and nothing else but a name.

GM

I was so focused on trying to keep us together that I started to fall apart myself.

GM

there's some nights like these
i just stare at the walls
wishing that you'd text me
or maybe even call

hoping that id cross your mind
thinking of me
as i think of you
hearing those thoughts
'i'll always have you'

i stare out this window
long behold the moon
reminiscing on the thoughts
that id just be here with you

GM

i didnt move on because
i quit loving you
or because i stopped
indulging in you
i moved on because
im tired of waiting
im tired of feeling
abandoneded
i moved on because
i am tired

GM

It wasnt supposed to be like this
You grounded me
Showed me your ways
To make them my own
Showed me everything i needed to know
To be happy.
You gave me
Love
Hope
Joy
Wisdom
Happiness.

Yeah
These were all the thoughts
You planted in my mind
Like a little seed
You watered them with your words
Made them grow.
With the sunlight in your touch
The roots expanded.
Through the ridges and crevices
Of my brain
These flowers bloomed
Creating something
You've never seen before.
These flowers drew in
The butterflies from my stomach
Fluttering around my mind.
You've created such an ecosystem
That my mind is flourishing
And expanding into yours.
Giving you the ability
To feel things and experience
Things from my perspective.
This is where our grardens connect
At our minds
This is where
We help each other grow
Where we help each other
Grow as a whole.

My god
This garden was golden.

i have to feed this fire, your fire to keep it growing
because if it goes out it will be a cold,
cold dark world for us all
people like you are needed to bring warmth and light to this earth
to make it flourish
the world needs people like you desperately
to guide the way
so without you i'd be lost
without you i'd be cold and bitter
you ignite my fire so i can share it with the world
but your fire is flickering and it worries me
not a lot of people realize it
and continue to let your light dim darker
and darker
i can't let it go out

GM

i feel as if everything i write
is in memory of our love
of missing you
engraved in a tomb of sorrows
here lies my heart in grieving memory of what was once to be
but i am yet to rest in piece
instead you've left my heart to rest in pieces
while you've moved on
im stuck here
stuck in the in-between
picking myself up
not yet ready to move forward
while you my dear have already moved on
moved on to something exraordinarily greater than our love
but what you've failed to realize is
is there is nothing more heavenly than what we've had
nothing you'll ever find elsewhere

but its alright
in the meantime ill be here
fastened in time waiting for you to come back
waiting to be at peace
it may take days, weeks, months, years
perhaps a whole lifetime
but know ill be here
as always with open arms
waiting to make contact with those angelic eyes
to recover the pieces of my scattered heart
falling back into this immortal, ever-lasting love

GM

I often refer to people as art in my poems
when I look at you I see life
what I see is something so ******* beautiful
your smile reminds me of a crescent moon
and eyes of stars that shine so bright
your laugh reminds me of my favorite song
and so I sing, 'oh my darling' every time I hear it
and hugs as the warmest blanket I've ever felt
your arms as a seatbelt because you know
I love living life fast and dangerously
and I often wreck
you... you are my safety net
when I jump out of this burning building I call life
you're here to break my fall
Your lips remind me of CPR
when I see you I forget how to breath
I start gasping and you save me
I lay my head upon your chest
your heartbeat reminds me to stay calm
1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8
It's slow and rhythmic, it teaches me
how to pace myself
slow and steady
your voice reminds me of slow jazz
play me more
I am a huge fan, I want your autograph
because you put me at ease
I love to dance to your music
I get lost in you
I dance forgetting days and nights
are passing by like airplanes flying from
New Orleans to San Francisco
I watch you blink like shooting stars;
you point at them yet
I always just so happen to miss them
yet I say "yes I saw them"
just to see you light up.
I'm attracted to your light
I'm the moth you're the bug zapper
so pretty to the eyes yet so deadly to the touch
you my love are life
you are the ivy and I am the building
wrapping your vines through
the crevices of my bricks
we aren't growing up, we are growing together
we are what make the Earth green
and the water blue
and the sun so bright.

GM

You've engraved your name onto my heart like scratches on a distressed CD.

GM

i do things not because i lust over you,
i do it because i love you

GM

I look to you
as if you one by one
put each star in the sky
to glimmer just for me.

GM

You're the most beautiful human I've ever met, you're my safe haven.

GM

cherish me as if i am your most prized possession,
as if i am your whole life.

GM

What... Is... Love? Love is the ability to feel every last one of those heart wrenching emotions consume and engulf your mind and soul all at once. Love is how your smile reminds me of magic. Love is the way your lips mouth those three little words, the way I crave your touch every night before I go to rest. It's the way I long for you and the way your voice puts me at ease through all of the pain and suffering. Having you is like Heaven on Earth. You could forever put me through Hell and i'll continue to always love you unconditionally. Love is your lingering smell embedded into the fabric of my hoodies, it's catching a whiff of your favorite cologne and reminiscing on when you'd wrap your arms around me. Love is how you hold me when I'm scared, how you'd hold me when I'm weak and feel worthless. You've shown me love like no one else, your love is so exquisite. You've taught me to be strong and to love oh so hard. What is love? This is love.

GM

you my dear are distinct
those eyes, oh so heavenly
god those lips,
those lips whisper a tune so brilliant
so brilliant that i am put into a haze
oblivious and vulnerable.
those fingers, 
they glide across my body
as if its magic
but baby, magic is just an illusion
and i am hypnotized
hypnotized by those
brainwashing melodies
controlled by those eyes
those eyes that once seemed
oh so heavenly.

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you have a home in me
under my rib-cage,
on the left side of my chest
you stay in my heart.
you fill it with trinkets and treasures
causing me to feel how i feel
causing me to build a bigger home for you
you plant flowers in this home
making my love for you flourish into something so unreal
my affections for you grow and grow
making the most beautiful home
you play this music
a music so symphonic
this music gets my heart racing
racing to the beat
of this incredible love.

GM