disconnected daydreamer,
party lights and streamers,
blockin' out the screamers,
grasping onto my femur.
i'm really real,
still alive & kickin'
not eatin' chicken
i'm strong as steel.

i wanted to show you
i wanted to open up that part of me
entangled fingers and chewed up nails
let me show you and open up that part of me
show me no haste, no more time to waste
fill the air in my lungs with your tender soul
i felt the beckoned wind lash beneath my toes
the ground pushing me up to the last branch
the branch wont crack, the life in front of my eyes
lies in the clouds and your breath in the sky
flooding in the alley ways of old freakish stories
numbness in my neck, disconnected from my flesh

you left me shattered
like a battered up baseball
the stitches are frazzled
your eyes glossy and dazzled
you lurked through the blue lagoon
in search of the secret blue light to my heart
i was alive and listening
the harsh pounding of your heartbeat
the pulsating of your veins in the brisk
the sea was yelling and the sky was smoking hot
we waited for them to intertwine
and got ****** into the catastrophe
the betrayal of our open wounds and founding fathers
can we sink beneath the deep sea, just you and me?

really up, really down
love inside a cup,
drowning in a frown

feather duster
collapse me into an almond cluster
shake me into waves
don't say that jesus saves

Suddenly stranded,
I’m at the bottom of this pit of mush.
Full of angst,
Delusions.
Crawlies & wet dirt up to my chin,
Suffocating,
Anatomical heart thumping fast
Beating like a drum.
Despair,
Stretching out my arm,
Aiming it towards the bright light,
Barking for it to take a grasp of my hand and **** me in tight.
Shutting my eyes,
Seeing black,
Wanting to be black,
Disappearing into ashes.
Emptiness and motionless harmony,
Suddenly speaking.