She told me
She would rather a broken neck
Than another broken heart
I hugged her then
For there was no right answer
Just the silent acceptance of the fact
Life is pain, sometimes too great to handle

Wondrous, beautiful, shining white lights
Speckled numerously before my balcony
I close my eyes and breathe in the saccharine air
Oh, I revel in thy beauty

The city so sleek
So embodied with life and love
My home, my divine metropolis
Reflected, with dotted light, most evenly in the sky above

I could never imagine somewhere as precious as her
With so many things, I have and yet to see
I open my eyes, letting the sapphire sky
Bathe me in serenity

My head is spinning
The steady velvet stream dripping
We all succumb to blindness

It is a constant state of ever-being
As living, breathing creatures
In one way or another, we are blind

Blind about the self inflicted damage
Or the fraughtful life of a loved one
We shut our eyes, and allow ourselves to be blind

To the good, the bad, the inevidable especially
Insist that we're living our lives to the absolute fullest
Unbeknownst and blindly

Looking up at me
It's more than I can handle
Show me what its like
To be tasted by an angel

I had a dream last night
It was beautiful
I woke up beside you
Bodies intertwined
Your head on my chest
All was at peace in the world
And it was good

I had a nightmare this morning
When I awoke to an empty house
It was awful
Cold and lonely, I rolled out of bed
A solitary cup of coffee
Such a depressing affair
And it was bad

Dreams can be the best
And the worst things in the world
For as I learned the hard way
There can be two types of dreams about a girl
One where she loves you, one where she won't
The former a fantasy so hard to obtain
The latter a reality, nightmare turned to life

I went swimming today
Twice
Which is weird because
In the past 4 years
I have been in the ocean a total of 6 times
Even though I live
In a small ocean town
Where the beach is
A short walk away
I went in the water today
Even though I have always hated
Being wet and
Salty the feeling on my
Skin is so uncomfortable
I always detested it
I went in the water today
Because I hate the person I am
And I thought that if I changed
One small part about myself
The rest could follow
And maybe if I could learn to
Love the water
I could learn to
Love myself