I spin up
I spin down
I spin spin spin spin
round Round round.

I get dizzy
I fall down
I get back up
blaming the whole
F'ing Town.

I look here
I look there
I take a good look
around everywhere
suddenly I see,
Suddenly it is clearer
I have always and ever
been the only
fool here!

I get shy
a little embarrassed
at my outburst of course!
I was shocked a bit perturbed
was it just me
myself and I ?!

So I took a breath
got a good look in the mirror
I uttered the words
no, it does not belong to
any other, just me.....
Aww F it why feel ******!!
          So I'll go ahead blame my friggen mother! ;(
why take the blame when I can
direct it at another and another?
Go on who's next? Dear oh father?
sister? ~ brother? or dig deep
in and see the broader picture?
See your participation
let your
faults
be seen
how
about
Just
saying
~Sorry~
How About
that thing!

I walk around
I walk in stride
I walk along with the image of false pride.

I walk around
I walk, I try
I ***** out
a gaggle of
lies!

I walk around
a happy life
they see.
Behind
my door
hides
the
loudness a knockin"
hello insecurities
are
at the front
trying to surface
so .......
I walk around
I walk alone
I walk beneath
my sinful bone.

I walk in joy
I walk distressed
I walk as I keep on keepin on
come on lets just all
play Pretend or just take a rest
Ain't life the Best? :)!

I'm Sorry if my face pains you for the sins within ~ ~
I am sorry I can no longer supply you with what you need and crave
both of us still in this dysfunctional relationship =

Brave, " Oh No We Aren't ! "
Together we stay
together we are
living in the same
hell on repeat
same as before
too scared we are
to close tight that door
So continue on and ignore
I'm so sorry
I've broken you
and you have broken me too,
Just can't see that there is any strengthening glue
for this to become right again,
Its okay, Go to sleep
Good Night,
See you in the morning
to do it all again
on this roller coaster ride
such is life
joynStrife.

Could it be that I am the abuser the enemy who has come across lifes boundaries crossed the lines? Could it be that I am the walking contradiction?

Could it be that the triple blurred vision
is really with me ~ myself and I?
Could I be the foolish blind
with no way to see or hear is
in real
time?

Could this be
could this be me or mine?
Could I be the one
I've always been hating?

Could it be the picture I have been painting
is the version that no one is seeing or ever will?
Could it be this is not really me? An actress
a ***** or Goofy in General.
Or
Am I exactly as those around tell me?
Could it be?!?
Nope, Because I am always
just me-take it
or
Leave it
I know me. or could it be???
Not if you Know
Me.
#KeshaThisisME