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Dec 2013 gd

I hurt myself by hurting you, that is the worst pain.

Dec 2013 gd

Moon Humor

I hurt myself by hurting you, that is the worst pain.

I'm trying to push you out of my head
but somehow my thoughts keep going back
to your smile and the way you sing
my favorite songs in bed.

I'm wishing you would have told me
how you really felt
and that I would have told you
how I really felt.

I'm terrified of your love
but I would never resist it
and I will never lose you again
because I miss the imprinted
sheet lines on your face in the morning.

{I miss countless things and I keep thinking of them when I should be focusing on anything other than missing you.}

Dec 2013 gd

What We Are

Dec 2013 gd

Moon Humor

What We Are

She was
sunshine hiding
behind the clouds
patient,
willing and waiting.

He was
sunshine
on the beach
gracing the sand,
steady and warm.

She was reluctant
struck by her love
and afraid to say it.

He was reluctant
hurt by past love
and afraid to jump in.

She was wet eyes
and open ears
fragile but resilient.

He was a strong face
and a scarred mind
strong but misunderstood.

She was green eyes
iridescent in the daytime
twinkling in the night.

He was green eyes
hiding in the daytime
opening in the night.

She was deep, endless
ready for anything
expecting nothing.

He was reserved,
hurt and unsure
expecting nothing.

We met by chance
and I'm still
trying to figure out
what we are.

Dec 2013 gd

I Can Only Try

Dec 2013 gd

Katrina Wendt

I Can Only Try

I can lay
right next to you
and never touch you

I can see you smile
from across the room
without kissing you

I can watch you
leave the room
and resist hugging you goodbye

But sometimes
when I'm next to you
you have to ask me to move away

Because for a few minutes
I let fantasy get confused with reality
and I lean against you during a movie

And it's so warm
your arm and mine, touching
for that minute I'm at peace

But when you ask
of course I make room
Because I don't want you to feel uncomfortable

And if you weren't my friend
I would probably try it
just once, to know what it would be like to kiss you

But ideally,
I'll get over this
and when I am, we'll still be friends

So in the meantime
I try not to think about kissing you
and I only hug you when I have reason to

What I'm saying is
I will do what I can
to keep myself sane and our friendship intact

But just know
that with every look I give
I wish I could give so much more.

2013

Dec 2013 gd

I am

Dec 2013 gd

Serine Elise

I am

I am dust on a sunbeam
I am the winding endless road in dreams
I am an oblivious mess of illusions that you do not care to seek
I am a frozen dinner
sitting on your lap
while you watch other news
I am the words you curse into your sheets when you've overslept
I don't want to be all of these things
but I am
I was here but i've left
The negative notions of your being have grasped me in fear
of being lost
and avoided
But they just found another fearful soul
Your sorrows clung onto my hair
my arms
my ankles
Their weight has brought me closer to the ****** earth
but i'm no longer concerned with taking the time
Stolen mishaps and memories shaped into pleading eyebrows
turned upwards
furrowed further
I want rid of these barriers
the haunting
the void
But I am dust
I am a winding road
I am a mess of illusions
I am a frozen dinner
And I am the words you curse.

Dec 2013 gd

haunted desire

Dec 2013 gd

Kassel D

haunted desire

the oddness of your lips stained across my chest
unable to move
flawed
by the blood that flows there
my frantically beating heart
gives me away to how humane i have become next to you
i have lost my wild
thorn filled hair now hangs lifeless at my side
and the electricity that i once felt at your touch
has been dimished
i am in love with the idea of you
the thought
that i may not roam forever alone and free
is equally as terrifying as being with you
part of my hate for the way you are able to penetrate my iron wall
is also the reason why i am unable to forget you
yet i stand here
frozen
where you left me last
and i remember how hard your heart beat too
i could not fathom that i would be the one stuck
while you are able to move so freely
for i am the breaker of hearts
and yet
here i stand
the jagged edges of my heart protruding from my chest
hungry to devour another
so that i might heal from their pain
and one day
when i am free again
i will look back on this moment
and run
blindly
through the forest
allowing the wilderness to consume me
haunted
by your beating heart