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Feb 2014 gd

thank you.

Feb 2014 gd

Jack Jones

and all of a sudden
everything's gone
the magic, the bliss, the innocence

I turn to you and smile
there's little else to do

I pretend that it doesn't matter
that I don't feel physically sick

and yet all I see is red

my mind mutters bitter "I told you so's"
while I smile through gritted teeth
and bite my tongue

thanks.

Feb 2014 gd

loving you is painful, but

Feb 2014 gd

marina

loving you is painful, but

i'd rather you hold
my heart too tightly
than not at
all

i wish i didn't have feelings because i'm gonna get hurt yet again i just know it

Feb 2014 gd

moiety

Feb 2014 gd

Megan Grace

moiety

how do you get to a point
when you no longer
recognize the person
you are- when the hands
you've watched every day
become two strangers
hanging on your arms, when
your words taste dry and
sour rolling off your own tongue?
more importantly, how do
you find your way back?

Feb 2014 gd

2:27

Feb 2014 gd

Megan Grace

2:27

I wish you were
one of those people
who made drunk
phone calls.

Feb 2014 gd

three months later

Feb 2014 gd

Megan Grace

three months later

do I still haunt the
air
at that house? do you see me
stretched out on the floor
in front of that coffee
table you built,
does my laugh echo out
from the
bedroom, do you smell
my shampoo on that one
white blanket I loved so
much, do you hear me
softly
whisper "hey" when you
walk past the studio, do
you go around the place I
stood in the middle of the
kitchen on the Fourth of
July and accidentally

dropped

my lemonade on
the carpet? does
anything
remind you of me?

Feb 2014 gd

how accurate

Feb 2014 gd

hkr

how accurate

i saw a quote the other day
about emptiness
and how no amount of love
on this planet
can fill it
when it's sincere
and i couldn't help but think
of myself
as a black hole
gaping and bare
stealing kisses in the dark
and words out of the mouths
of babes
just for the thrill
just for the reassurance
that i am desirable
but nothing more

because he took
the rest of my capabilities
with him.

this is a ****** poem but this quote hit me hard: "'you know what the problem is?' he asked, 'it's not that i'm not enough, it's that you're empty. you're just so ******* empty and greedy that every single person on this ******* planet could love you and it wouldn't be enough for you.'"

Feb 2014 gd

longing in the winter

Feb 2014 gd

Morgan

longing in the winter

the coffee in my hand
has got me wired but
i'm running on
nostalgia and
a lack of motivation
it's been snowing for
the past five days
and the shower
is never hot enough
to shake the cold
from my tired veins
my hands are shivering
through the sleeves
of an old sweatshirt
and i'm looking into
the sky with the same
longing in my eyes
you get when you
have to say goodbye
i don't know what it is
i'm missing anymore,
i just always have this
pit in my stomach
like i'm forgetting something
and i need to get away from here

Feb 2014 gd

eternity

Feb 2014 gd

Morgan

eternity

he interrupted me
in the middle of
an earth shatteringly
pointless story
to tell me i had
a cute laugh,
in a smoke-filled
garage infront of
all of our friends.
i said,
"alright dude
*******"

that night
i slept in the fetal
position with four blankets
and craved his skin so
bad i didn't even notice
that i bit my lip
until the pool of blood
collecting inside the deep ditch
of my gums, began to taste
of hot metal

today he texted me
while i was at work
and asked if he could
bring me a coffee
i looked at myself
in the bathroom mirror,
sighed and told him
we were busy
then i bought a
coffee for myself,
let the bitter sweet
warm liquid
linger on my tongue
and pretended
it was his lips

alone is a state of being
and i have never been alone,
lonely is a state of mind
and i have never been anything but