Try as i may,
Beneath the ground was where i stayed.
I was a fool, i gave up colour for gray,
Eternal pain and suffering, that was my price to pay.

But as i felt helpless, the world fading from sight,
I saw the most beautiful light.
Could this be? my escape from this plight?
To escape from the gray, to be bathed in white?

With nothing but escape in mind,
I rushed towards it, hoping to rejoin mankind.
And as i approached it, the brightness made me blind,
But i could feel it, i was no longer confined.

A second chance, was what i had received,
A free man once more, i no longer had to grieve.
And as i walked, i look at what i had achieved,
I had escaped the gray, and for that i was relieved.

But as i walked, i realized something was awry,
I was no longer a man, but a soul in the sky.
I knew i was still dead, and for that i cried,
Even though it was my choice to die.

I see you, standing there,
With the same sparkle in your eyes, and that flawless hair.

I see you, walking past,
And the memories we had, they flood in fast.

I see you, smile on your face,
And i think of us, how we fell from grace.

I see you, with a new guy,
But i can't feel anymore, no matter how hard i try.

I see you, happy again,
And i know it hurts me, but i cant feel the pain.

I see you, looking at me,
but for the first time in my life, i feel free.
Free of the chains that held down my heart,
Free of the pain that broke me apart.

I see you, and i don't bat an eye,
I've finally let go, and that's no lie.
Now that i'm free, i feel like i can fly,
Flying way up high, soaring through the sky.

The silence is deafening,
The pain is numbing.
My body, it's bruising,
My blood, it's crusting.

The pain, i endure it everyday,
Try as i may, the feeling just wont go away.
To put on a smile, telling everyone i'm okay,
To hide the truth, to hide my turmoil from being on on display.

And yet from the ledge i peer down below,
Pondering, if my end will be fast or slow.
Without a care left in the world i leaped, i took flight
And as i landed, the world faded from my sight.

But i still endure the pain everyday,
For what i have done, i had a price to pay.
For i was once in colour, now everything is gray,
To forever suffer, never to find my way.