.....only to find me waking up without you by my side....
....only to hope i would skip more light years....
....only to find my existence in a deep trance of an endless continuum....
....only to find myself out of place....

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

I love you so much
You don't love me that much
Everything i say is wrong
Everything you say about me is right.
I only love the one who doesn't love itself more than anything else does.
Do i love you or not ?
If i do, then heaven exists.
If i do,what if you destroy the possibilities to love?

''why is the night sky black if there is an infinity of stars?''

Why are we here now if love does hurt?
In seeking love, you don't find love.
I do love you but you don't believe in love
It is love.....but you don't believe it is

Love only exists if you choose to love or not to love
We're all the same when it comes to what we think we are
Ask me a question....
When it's all the same in any language....

Who ate your heart?
Who painted a symbol of lies on your face?
Your fingers scratched my soul like poisoned darts
With your lips you kissed me and my heart you defaced

You are cold inside
You killed my passion and hurt my pride
Had you never been shattered before
Had your heart never been hurt with sores

I sat by the frozen river
I could see my pale reflection on the water
Everything in my life seemed to be closing in on me
The wind blew gently,it touched my naked body .

The grey sky up there
The silhouette of the trees
The falling snow....

Then i jumped into the cold frozen water...

Forgotten....
Unforgiven....

There was a beautiful tree by the river.
We called it 'Crying Heather'
On summer days when the wind blew gently
Its branches made eerie sounds like crying

I had been told so many times
When the church bells chimed
This girl would always find her way to the river
She sat under the tree for hours,till night fell upon her.

Her lover had been lost at sea
And the world turned its back on her
She stared at the night sky singing to the wind
The river flowed her longing song away into the sea.

''Take me away into the sea where lovers are crying deep.
Through my veins their lonely songs would seep.
The cold deep water,so blue,i would float forever.
Waiting for my love,and  i would sever''

One cold foggy morning she disappeared
Another autumn day was coming near
They said she had drowned,taken away far far away to the sea.
Her song remained unheard. Her tears remain unseen

You were the only man i had always wanted to see
Walking down the road to the sea
Swaggering in your new jacket
Looking for fellas to bracket

In Carrickfergus they called you a robber
To me you were a handsome rover
Beautiful green eyes as the rolling hills
Your happy thoughts into me you had instilled

In Belfast you smuggled your hopes and fears
Slainté! You danced pints of beer away
Alas! They did not see your tears
You were on your own finding your way

My old friend, my sad handsome friend Patrick...
Alone you sang your weary songs and turned sick
I cried bitterly, nobody to lay you down
Summer,and you had no wheat to sow

Ah! You were so handsome and young
During summer days you smiled and cheered me up in my den
Calling out your name,i screamt at the top of my lungs.
You were gone....gone...you would never answer again

I was waiting

Life just kept on running
While i was waiting
But you never showed up
And very slowly i started to realize i was trapped

It kept getting heavier each time i breathed
Was it me making those eerie sounds i heard?
I was left in the endlessnes of time
You had said 'just forget the world for a while'

My coffee was getting cold
I whispered your name as i had been told
One of those days i had thought that i could have seen you again
But turned out i knew i was just insane

I put more sugar into my coffee and stirred it
Wondering if i would be able to ever drink more bitter coffee again without thinking of you
Then i left it on the table....
I was waiting for you....

Said he 'shut yer gobs ye ****** boggers'
Keen on blatherin' ye spent yer days with yer tongue sharp as a dagger
O ter be 'onest ye be pattin yer boat.
Aul' ducks,yung ducks all makin' faults.

Cats eatin' bazz i say blather ye boyo
A man makin' money, no divils in county mayo
Yer gobs flippin' like hoors feckin ****
Smart fellas know ter kick yer barse

Me,a **** in carrickfergus jammy am i?
Come 'ere ye be told a secret ye culchie
A man pushin his **** tryin ter find his way
Be wide ye yung boyo lots o vultures on yer way

God please don't **** me before i find Your flaws...
Life nowadays is full of men who are either corrupt or unacquainted with any laws...
You created us all after Your own image but each time i look into the mirror i see a blood-thirsty devil.
I've seen too much blood shed and You stand still

God please no more empty reveries.
This world needs more recoveries
Religons are made for vultures
I see nothing but promises in my future

God we need no prophecies
Your divine presence is highest infinity
I am a soul-eater by Your Holy creeks
******,but i know my good greed

Endlessness in heaven is acceptable.
But mortality is the greatest gift here on earth as our days are getting more destructible.
You catch our every tear and capture our every prayer.
Before You we bow,with our innocent endearing.
Blinded by obedience and unstateable feelings.

They are not close to heaven...nor are we to Hell
The 'dark matter',our very hearts,under Your holy spell
God,Thou art one paradox before men and angels
Remain a mystery,an enigma,a divine angler

i woke up this morning and you weren't there lying next to me.
For a moment i thought you had left earlier.
But you hadn't because then i saw you there sitting by the window.
I walked across the room,put my arms around your waist and felt the wind gently blow.

You turned around,i closed my eyes and  you hugged me so tight.
I could feel your heart beating so close to mine.
My life is a game of love,and with you i wish i was paired.
I opened my eyes and you weren't there...you turned into air...

una rosa no es una rosa hasta que una mujer la recoje y la situa al
lado de su corazon
una canción no es una canción hasta que un amante la canta a la
tierra y al cielo
una mujer no es una mujer hasta que un hombre la encuentra y la
hace sentir digna de amor
tu eres la canción que resuena en mi corazón
tu eres el sonido que late en mi cuerpo cada día y noche
tu eres la luz que brilla dentro de mis más oscuros sueños
tu eres los colores de mi energia
tu eres el último capítulo de un libro que estaré leyendo antes de
morir
tu eres el rostro que veo siempre que cierro mis ojos
tu eres mi sombra
cada vez que te vas te llevas la belleza de este mundo
tu caminas a través del pasillo de mi corazon y llenas los espacios
vacios
mi amor por ti es un perfume que derramo a tus pies
me convertí en un poema del cielo y de la tierra
que será leido y cantado por la eternidad
estoy borracho por tu amor
tu eres el viñedo de mi juventud
más bebo más siento
la belleza que me das es la que busco

I packed my things when you were still deep in your sleep.
I wandered around the room,barefoot,i knew there was no promise to keep.
A ray of gloomy light seeping through,morning rain had clouded up your windows.
You're only a ring away i know  

But i have to go,i missed the last night train.
Here i am at my stop just waiting.
A stranger, no way i'd change back.
I'm going nowhere for you to track.

X : Do you love me or not?
Y : i do if you do,i don't if you don't
X : Does it mean you love me or not?
Y : i love you if you love me and i don't love you if you don't love me.
X : what if i i didn't love you?
Y : then i wouldn't love you.
X : what if i had been lying when i said i loved you?
Y : then i might have loved you but i don't love you.
X : i just want to know if you love me or not.
Y : Ask me then ...whether i love you or not and i'll give you the answer tommorow.
X : Okay,i'll ask you tomorrow...

Eóghan,
Hail, o pasture o' yers
'ere mo chrói,as red as fire
Yer lovers walkin down the road o' me lonely town...
With wheat yer fields sown

Eóghan,
Drunk,i danced,sang the ol' song o' ancient rovers
Calling yer name like blatherin' sober
O brother me sweet ***,me ol' stout,nothin' reefin me like this longing fer ye
Drunk,i,slappers snoggin' me

Eóghan,
Me boyo o' Cill Channaigh....
'up the yard' they told us,so ****** wrecked o' this life
Me mate ye,yonks ye been gone,
I still can see yer new basser o son....

Mate,
On the greens walkin' ye gawkin' at the stars freely
Yer grand shoes stompin'  heavily
Mo cara,mo chrói,missin' ye like a ****** rover to his ol town
Yer green eyes,a pint o' stout,dancin' mateys,waitin for dawn.

I started to write a letter.
It's amazing how each word changed colors everytime i thought of you.
Your delicious voice that makes me feel like i've eaten enough for the rest of my life.
How i smell the sweetness air that blows through the forest i used to go each time you touch me.
How i hear such a heavenly tune when you kiss me.
How i see bright rays of lights dancing in front of me each time you sing to me.

Every sound in the world emitting such beautiful colours....
But your voice is the only colour i see....
Your skin is the only perfume i smell on mine...
Your voice is a cup of honey i have a taste of
Your love is the only song i hear

The green breeze smiled on my skin.
With all my singing heart i touch your colours with love.
i drink your every touch with such a gentle desire...
I listen to your body....moving closer to mine...
With our colours i extract a bottle of perfume and paint the air with stars.

Listen to my touches,my heavenly song...
I'm in love with you so red....
This day has smiled at me...
As you looked into my honey-heart

"he is walking down the road so happily. he is going to propose to the love of his life today. They had talked about this a few months ago. Living together without a shame. Having kids and becoming parents. What more could he want? This morning when he woke up,he could see a soft ray of sunlight seeping in through the window. For a moment he knew where his life was going to. This girl who has madly make him beg on his knees asking for love. She's the reason he changed his mind about many things in life. They say a man could love more than just once. But not him. He knows that this girl is the only one he wants to grow old with. 'till death or maybe debts do us part' he thought hahaha.....
Oh There she is standing at the door.... So beautiful and heavenly.... Looking into his eyes with such unbearable feelings....
He opens his mouth,begging on his knees....  'will you marry me........?'
She smiles.''

And just like that i woke up finding myself standing in front of her house. It was raining. She had declined my proposal a few months ago. And ever since,every morning i always woke up and found myself sitting in front of her house,staring at it vaguely. The pine trees were my wittnesses. They saw a man who had been cutting wounds on his own heart.

Why did God do this to us?
Why did everyone have to despise us?
Did we do anything wrong?
Or is it just because into this world we were born?

How long has it been since the last time i saw your beautiful face?
they did not understand how pure our feelings for each other were...
We lived in a circle of loneliness
And the wounds they cut on our skins would remain the same

Living my true life is like secretly reading a forbidden book late at night when the world is asleep.
Being myself is like being stranded in a land where rain never stops falling
Speaking up my own truth in a dark trance of my deepest dreams.
Where my shadow is the only light i see.
Where my heartbeat is the only sound i hear.

I'm transparent and glass-like
Easily read,hands outstretched
Exposed and hurt,unto the world i am
My tunnels of night have no end...

If i could choose where and when...
I would go back to the day i first saw you. Swaggering on your way home without fear.
You said 'being a man is not about being a man. it is about living your life as your heart tells you'.
  
This forbidden passion we shared
These secret touches you poured into me
these kisses that healed my wounds.
You were the willow tree i leant on by the river of despair.....

When the Sun laughs...
The Moon laughs
The Earth laughs
The Stars laugh

When The Sun cries...
The Moon cries
The Earth cries
The Stars cry

It's only us not laughing and crying....

Given secrets,stolen moments
Collapsed,the walls of time
A vow made and so the story began
'The Great Hands forming the ancient colours of the world'. It was time.

One fallen,one forced to dwell,one obliged to serve, for good
Remains cursed,remains bound over emotion,remains divine

Blood and desire hunters hovering around
Lovers in sacred bed knitting their dreams
Shining lights fulfilling holy promises

Dark as starless nights,blasphemous,the fallen one
Passionate,so delicate,trembling with unbearable desires,the promised one.
Timeless,eternal messengers,the heavenly one.

Once cast out,the fall remains untouched.
Twice spread out,the seeking goes to the ends of the world.
Three times invoked,the holy service is eternal.

Let me feel your nakedness,my Lady...
Let me undress you with one single look.
The world out there promises you nothing but bitterness of life.
Behold.....
In my arms i'm holding a dagger of certainty and a rose as red as your sweet blood.
Your lips remind me of those rosebuds that bloomed eternally
Your *******,sacred and pure,i touch with such a lonely desire.
Your fear arouses my manhood charm
This night has no end.
Let us dance with the rhythm of my passion.
The smoothness of your skin i feel with my lips like a heavenly tune.
Your shivering body,my heart beating...
My hands around your waist...
Tighter,closer....bring and bind yourself to me.
My breath runs around your neck,with every kiss you walk closer to the path i'm giving you...
How smooth.... How passionate...
The sweetness of your tongue ,swaggering on my manhood like a golden glass of wine.
This night has no end,my love
Let me see....let me feel your blood drip down  my body...
Let me bathe in your exposed nakedness.
I will kiss the wounds i cut on your heart...
Kiss the pain away as this feeling i bear i can't help it
Your death would be so beautiful as the night grows darker...
Your stream of unconsciousness redeems my lonely soul...
Here on this path,i will lay your sweet  dead body....beneath the stars you can not see
Unto heaven and earth....