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 Sep 2016 Gage D
Sag
So Good
 Sep 2016 Gage D
Sag
How do you throw the good away at the chance of something better?
What if the grass is filled with snakes and glass on the otherside?
What if I'm scared?
What if the risk ends up not being worth it?
What if what is good is good enough?
 Aug 2016 Gage D
Sag
Wrackspurts
 Aug 2016 Gage D
Sag
Somethings different in my head, somewhere along the road of growing up, something changed. I'm not sure when and I definitely don't know exactly what it was that switched and sent me into this intense spiraling, the strangest sensation in my cranium.
you know how when something is spinning so quickly it appears to be standing still?
it's not thoughts.
I wish I could still concentrate on or articulate those things.
Sometimes my head feels like a hive, thousands of swarming bees buzzing, worried only about their honey, when something comes along and shoves a fist inside, grabs a handful, and leaves the bees in a vehement and mettlesome rage. Exasperated and feeling defeated, but determined to please their queen, they never stop.
It never stops.
It never stops.

It grinds it's teeth. It yells "listen to me, do what I say," it yells.
It hardly ever sleeps, and when it does it only dreams of hands reaching - grabbing, jutting out from very direction,
desperately hoping to find something to hold on to.
 Jul 2016 Gage D
Evna-Luna
What if
          I
                                                  ­Fall
In
              Love
With
      A
       Poet?
What if he mesmerises me
       With his lines?
What if
        His words touch me
        And kiss
           Through my skin?
     What if i search for
Him
Everyday
And
      Travel through
              His words
    And meet him
                  Somewhere
       And
We
       Become bare
          And he caresses
Me
          With every
      Stanza
And
       Here
           I am
                Again
Searching
           For him,
    Wanting
Him
        With
                 All
                      Desire
Waiting
             For
                 His
                   Next
                      Poem
                         To
                            Take
                             ­ Me
                          To
                       His
                   World
                Where
             We
          Will
        Lay
      Bare
   What if
               I
                  Fall in love
                      With
                  A
             ­         Poet?

© Evna-Luna
I am just 12 days old on this site and this poem has already bn chosen as A Daily?
I am Amazed and Surprised.
Thanks to hello poetry and every of you.
I am taking a hiatus for now because of some reasons
Regards
Evna-Luna
 Jul 2016 Gage D
Dishes
Im still stuck inside the two way mirror,
Still staring at myself,
Still seeing nothing.
Oh how i wish it would shatter for us all
 Jul 2016 Gage D
Sag
Shades Of Blue
 Jul 2016 Gage D
Sag
Imagine this:
Crystal blue persuasion soundtracking cigarettes smoked in parking lots.

We spent the night crowded around a small table with glasses of wine and a variety of beers. One was blueberry, and they let me try it. It wasn't very good but I also don't have the same affinity for ales that they do.

We played Sorry and smoked cigarettes. We talked about our intimate stories and the things that we take pleasure in. We played scrabble until the sunrise and I lost and we all grabbed blankets and drunkenly stumbled to the front lawn.

We pondered on what color the sky was for some time. We even pulled up a chart of different shades of blue, but couldn't find a perfect match.
I still think it was pretty close to cauliflower blue though.
I ran inside, too tired to try to stay awake any longer and found myself in blankets of white and walls of grey.

I slept in the bed of a minimalist.
I rolled over and looked into the one pair of eyes I could never see the soul of.
Those eyes, like crystal waters, hold a world beneath them no one would dare to endure the pressure of on their shoulders to explore. There's something about them, an aerial view of large black pupils swimming in summer pools surrounded by snow.
They're mysterious, they're wise, they're a word I've been searching for, in that antique dictionary, in tiles of finished games on scrabble boards, that I just can't seem to find...

Like trying to match the exact shade of blue and having to choose cauliflower blue disappointedly.

Staring into them makes you feel vulnerable, like he can see straight through you, like he knows everything you're thinking and feeling and everything you've ever thought or felt, and it scared me.
So I adjusted my gaze to the light freckles on pale skin, the blonde strands lining his chin, full lashes lining his lids. And I fell asleep peacefully.
**
When I woke up, the sun from the blinds split into lines along your white sheets, your hair, your spine.
It looked lovely.
I stood up and took a step back to take it all in.
There was a stillness in the hourglass on your bedside table, piles of white sand lying silently at the bottom.
I smiled softly.
You woke up.
The tea kettle screamed.
You left for work and I left you a note.
Thank you for lending a pillow, and a contentment and appreciation for the softness in my life.
This poem is about a friend so dear to me, that I have learned so much from even though he doesn't know it.
This is an appreciation poem to him because I feel like there aren't enough of them.
Thank you
 Jul 2016 Gage D
Sag
Untitled
 Jul 2016 Gage D
Sag
I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS ABOUT YOU
OR ME
OR US
OR WHATEVER IT IS
THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE MILLIONS OF PIECES OF MATTER IN THE UNIVERSE HAVE EACH OF MY HANDS TUGGING IN OPPOSITE DIRECTIONS WHEN IM AWAY FROM YOU
LIKE IM IN MULTI PARALLEL WORLDS
LIKE ITS TRYING TO TELL ME TO GIVE YOU SOME SPACE
AND ITS NOT LETTING ME FATHOM WHAT ON EARTH THAT EVEN IS
LIKE NO OTHER LIFE EXISTS OUTSIDE OF THIS WORLD -
OUR WORLD
LIKE YOU LIVE IN A WORLD WHERE I DONT
HELLO
I AM ALIVE
I AM HERE
AND I NEED YOU HERE TOO
AND I DONT KNOW WHY
BUT I DO
CAN YOU HEAR ME
 Apr 2016 Gage D
Sag
I don't want you to think of me when I'm gone if it hurts to reminisce.
File the details in the back of your mind and please don't pull them out in fear of forgetting them, for they will only feed the already heavy heart.
In a few weeks, or months, or whenever you're ready, really ready,  I'll have them here for you to read and recollect.

I always freaked out when you licked my face and nostrils and tried to kiss my armpits and toes, but secretly enjoyed the attention and slight aggravation because i knew one day all of it would end, so I tried not to overreact every time in case you decided to actually stop for good. I knew I'd miss it when it was gone.

I liked to shower with the lights off but you had to let me get in first.

I loved your shoulders and wrists and rubbing them softly through the night with my fingertips.

I tried to cuddle you every second i could but i think I put off so much body heat it was hard for you to sleep.

I watched all of the Kevin Gates and Logic interviews because i knew you wanted me to be interested in them because you were.

I wanted to take you to see the ocean and every sunset.

I didn't mind holding your hand and the steering while at the same time, although i wished sometimes i could nap in the passenger seat or be the one shoving fries into your mouth at midnight.

I drank every bottle of wine you bought for me and saw the conscious love in that simple gesture.

I wanted more than you could give, more than anyone could, more than i could give myself.

I wanted nothing more than to be able to love you and for you to love me back in the same way.

I was insecure and worried that I wouldnt ever live up to the first idea you had of me.

I love you. I don't want you to leave. But I will feel so pathetic if I fight for something I know you don't want anymore. I am trying to make this easy although it is killing me.

I wonder how long you've been waiting for an excuse to leave me..
I wonder if she is worth throwing it all away with me. I hope so. Genuinely.
I wonder if she is even the reason.
Maybe I was just too clingy, too needy, too crazy, too much to put up with.  
I hope that if she is the reason, there is longevity in your relationship.
It would hurt even worse if I let you go and you still were unhappy.

The thought of you not wanting me anymore breaks me.

Your kiss on my shoulder through my soft denim shattered me.
I ran away, like I always do, and I sliced my foot open and it still took everything in me not to turn around and run to you.
I even tried, I almost made it, but I turned around again.
I will not fight someone who won't fight back.
.

— The End —