I know I'll never find her
I woke up with her voice in my ear.
When she left me
the city died
stars didn't shine
everything had been abandoned
everything was alone
incomplete.
I turned on the t.v
she was talking about the weather.
I woke up with her voice in my ear
her image in my head.
I hope to see her again tonight
because I know I'll never find her.

nobody warns you about the first boy who tells you he wants to marry you.

nobody warns you about the tangible shift in the universe when he parts his lips to smile.

nobody warns you about the poetry he'll write you or how your knees will weaken or the melancholy hidden between the layers of his laughter.

nobody warns you that miles will morph into lightyears and you will curse the ocean for being the only thing that keeps his fingers from resting between yours.

nobody warns you about the day his sweater doesn't smell like him anymore.

nobody warns you that human hands are incapable of holding a person together.

nobody warns you that sometimes love is not enough, no matter how much you wish it was.

nobody warns you about the crippling nostalgia that renders you breathless.

nobody warns you about the nights when silence screams for your blood.

nobody warns you about the crater that forms in your chest in the middle of the night when he doesn't answer.

nobody warns you about how it's going to feel when he tells you he's in love with someone else.

nobody warns you that forever is a lie.

- m.f.

I'm talking to myself again
My thoughts are eating me alive
you filled my head with thoughts of gold.
I was always the colorless one
but your voice, your words
turned my cheeks bright red,
my eyes a sparkly green,
and my soul golden.
You howled to take me back to bed after the sun dropped
you took your colors back
again, I was the colorless one.