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154 · Apr 2020
In This World
Samantha Apr 2020
In this world
Of sickness or health
In this world
Of distance or wealth
In this world
In this time
I know I can't be yours
You know you can't be mine
To all the couples who have been torn apart due to the virus and/or quarantine.
148 · May 2020
blur
Samantha May 2020
the day a blur
its bright, i'm sure
it leaks and stirs
but theres no cure
the dark, it lures
i will endure
147 · Apr 2020
never loved before
Samantha Apr 2020
i'm just now realizing
i've never really loved anyone before you
what a fool to think i have
nothing was quite as true
as how i feel about you
146 · Feb 2018
The World's Thoughts
Samantha Feb 2018
what do they see
when they look at me
to know the things they think
tears or laughter it might bring
I want to know
but yet I don't
behind the masks of this cruel world
thoughts can hurt or uplift this little girl
#judgement
146 · Nov 2018
Show Me Who I Am
Samantha Nov 2018
I'm trying

...at least I think I am

I'm lying

...but who gives a ****

You know me

...at least you thought you knew

You show me

...but that's all you can do
146 · Apr 2020
blame
Samantha Apr 2020
you walked away from me
and blamed me for not chasing after you
144 · Feb 2018
Don't Remind Me
Samantha Feb 2018
Never too quick to say sorry
Always too quick to forgive
I will forget that you saw me
Because I can't live with my sins
143 · Nov 2019
3 Shots
Samantha Nov 2019
3 shots of whiskey and a box of thin mints is all it took to get over u...
now what would it take for you to get over yourself?
143 · Apr 2020
Stuck At Home/Wanting You
Samantha Apr 2020
sometimes i think
its still not real
hungover from the time i steal
i wonder what drew you to me
i wonder if our bond will keep

stuck at home
you're far away
please don't get weary
of my way

every day
the same sweet face
every day
the same fixed place

stuck at home
but wanting you
stuck at home
will you stay true?
"We got this babe!" - Brian <3
140 · Feb 2018
Cruel Humor
Samantha Feb 2018
do you think it's funny?
well, I think it's cruel
don't think that you're above me
because I think you're a fool
your jokes are not lost
don't think that I don't get it
but their laughter has a cost
don't think that I'll forget it
I will always stand my ground
and you'll regret your humor
a new hatred for you I've found
and you've got another hater
Samantha Apr 2020
"You accept the love you think you deserve."
                                                
                                                                     - Stephen Chbosky
137 · Feb 2018
Not So True
Samantha Feb 2018
Out of sight, out of mind
Is not so true for me
You see I've left my home behind
And still it's where I long to be
137 · Nov 2019
my love
Samantha Nov 2019
my love is handsome
and cute
and funny
and smart
not just smart but intelligent
he thinks im pretty
he laughs with me
he watches cartoons with me
he helps with cleaning
he kisses me
he holds me
i love him
he loves me
now i only need to find him
he must be somewhere in this world
i hope i meet him soon
136 · Apr 2020
fit
Samantha Apr 2020
fit
i thought i had found the words that fit the feeling
but it turns out the feeling doesn't fit into words
this isn't love.
this is more.
this is us.
134 · Nov 2019
Poison
Samantha Nov 2019
beautiful poison
sickly sweet
***** my finger on a thorn
my blood as red as the petals of a rose
you hold my heart
and wrap it in barbed wire
i feel so safe
and so dangerous
i could spend my last seconds on this earth
******* poison from your lips
130 · Oct 2019
Personally
Samantha Oct 2019
I was there.
When it all went to ****.
Don't you remember?
I held your hand.
I stood by your side.
I took every bullet.
Just to keep you safe.
But it didn't last.
Because apparently I'm too complicated to be a doormat...
129 · Oct 2019
addicted
Samantha Oct 2019
addicted to the way you break my heart
128 · Apr 2020
mutual
Samantha Apr 2020
i think it would be easier to get over you
if i didn't know you still have feelings for me too
125 · Apr 2020
more love than pain
Samantha Apr 2020
even though it's over
i still find myself happy at times
because i know how much i loved you
that's what keeps me going
so i'm not over you
there's more love than there is pain
i will always love you
i guess that's why i'm okay
i know my love is true
when my heart was broken
my love didn't fly out
instead it stays within
content in knowing it was never a lie
124 · Apr 2020
cut off before the knot
Samantha Apr 2020
if i'm being honest
i think i only started to love you
after it was already over
never got a chance
124 · Apr 2020
come up for air, babe
Samantha Apr 2020
i stood there wondering what it was that i was feeling
i don't know how long i stood there
i couldn't even tell you if i was actually standing
i could't tell my body from the ground or the people around me
the only thing i know is that it was raining that day
it was remarkable really
i've never know the weather to move through walls before
i tried to look up to see the rainclouds that lurked in over my head
but i only saw the back of my eyelids
i wondered if i really was blind
was i always?
i heard the thunder then
and the lightning struck me
it was her voice
and i felt my heart shatter

stop
feeling
everything

open your eyes
you're not blind
you're just scared
scared of the truth
open your eyes
and take things as they come

it's not rain, babe
those are tears
it's time to come up for air
it's time to catch your breath
it's time to breath

I opened My eyes
and I saw Her

I opened My eyes
and I saw Myself
i see you
124 · Apr 2020
I Shall Not Weep
Samantha Apr 2020
In another life
I know we are together
In another life
The distance wouldn't matter
In another life
I know I shall not weep
In another life
I know our love would keep
And though this life is dismal
And though this life is poor
I know that we are happy
In another world
Sometimes I wonder what if
But then I catch myself
There is more to this
Than what we could have been
And I know that it is futile
To try and cut you off
And though it hurts to see you
It's better than nothing at all
I wonder if it was easy
For you to break it off
I wonder if it's easy
For you to just move on
120 · Dec 2018
Whatever Happened?
Samantha Dec 2018
Whatever happened to the choices that we thought we had?
When we were younger we were happy but - now we're sad.
Everything was always simple - either black or white
Maybe cause no one ever dared to ever shed the light
On our innocent minds, that couldn't take up the real world -
Now we wake up in the real world -
Now we're so scared of the real world -
That nobody dares to change it -
We're changing sadness to anger -
And he goes home and blames her -
And their children are learning -
From violence and hurting -
That this is the answer -
Changing from happy to sad to changing to anger.
That's not the change we need -
To show your children -
They are the world, they are the future, and they are the difference
Between this world - and theirs
Between the ground floor - and the stairs
They can't move up -
If we bring them down -
You don't need to grow up -
To make a change -
One random act of kindness -
Works like a chain -
People pay forward -
And we all lean towards -
A better place for us -
But it's never enough -
Because there's always someone suffering
Part 1 (Not Finished)
119 · Apr 2020
Sweet Spot
Samantha Apr 2020
how do i find that sweet spot
i want them to be happy
even when i'm not
119 · Apr 2020
Why We Try
Samantha Apr 2020
you say it's ******* hard
but i already know
i said thats why we try
but then i watched you go
117 · Apr 2020
#Stayhome
Samantha Apr 2020
please stay safe
COVID-19
96 · Oct 2019
Tempting
Samantha Oct 2019
u think that i dont notice
every time i look up
ur eyes look back at me
but i thought i knew u didnt want me
and i guess ur having second thoughts
because now im not there
and now u want me back
well i guess u missed ur chance
but every time i catch ur glance
its tempting me...
90 · Apr 2020
in awe
Samantha Apr 2020
amazed
and confused
that you find me the subject
of your love and affection

...

what a wonderful world
and of all people
83 · Apr 2020
Broken Heart
Samantha Apr 2020
Why
Why do you
Describe it so gently
As if it were glass
And could shatter
Love is not broken
So easily
In fact
It's not broken at all
It's larger than life
And not easy to lose
Always in sight
And has nothing to prove
Quite confident,
It is!
But easily fooled...
Some find this amusing
And make it a ruse
oh Let's bully this love
Make it believe that we care!
oh How we will laugh
When it's shocked and impaired!
Embarrassed and abashed
At the lies and the dare
But love is alive
And some think it's quite folly
That it's stupid and jolly
That through all in all
It continues about
Patient and welcome
And kind
And no doubts
And with time it matures
It never hates on the haters
And lets truth be spoken
Love lives in your heart .

And your heart is what's broken.
Love is Strong.
79 · Apr 2020
Him
Samantha Apr 2020
Him
I want to make him happy
What can I really do?

Sometimes I catch him laughing
At my point of view

He says that I surprise him;
That every day is new

He says I make him happy;
I brighten up the blues

I love to be his sunshine
I love to be his muse

But between a brighter world
And a happy me and you

Between me and the world
What would you really choose?

I hate to take perspective
And focus on what I'd lose

But I want him to be happy
What can I really do?

I want to make you happy.
Tell me what to do.
For Brian

— The End —