Lingering moments in time out of mind
Acknowledging cracks on the face of each when
Perfections persistence each instance to rule
Proves fools of us all every time, and again
For nothing will be everything that we’ve dreamed of
Especially when some scarcely dare dream at all
The hope that destroys us will yet prove to save us
If we’ll keep from shattering each time we fall

No matter how complicated our pain,
grand our joy,
pure our love,
or deep our sorrow,
we can never truly find the words
to express just how we feel.
Metaphors,
descriptives,
or long-winded phrases,
no words we can form
will ever actuate
what it is we truly feel.
Whether we use scarce few
or many
to express our emotions,
our words are still but vague reference cards
in the library of soul.

He sat with shattered heart in hand,
studying each shard
so as to find where love went wrong.
Suddenly, it all became clear.
Every piece he had tried to give to any other
still resonated with her voice,
reflected her face,
and dripped of her essence.
His heart still belonged to her.
No other would ever be able to claim it.

No amount of words,
love or lust,
would ever tear his heart away.
Effort and denial,
each painted on smile;
none would chase her from his dreams.
With hope he burned,
as he slowly learned
that happiness has always been
deep within each part
of his broken heart.
It was time to let it breathe.

I know I am my own disaster
Even as I fall, so grow the flames
I rise, but feel I’m sinking faster
The caster of my sorrow, I’ve proclaimed
That I, when into myself gazing
May never tame the sorrows come to play
I know that it’s myself I am betraying
Denying everything my heart proclaims

At times, I find the things I fight for
Become the things that slowly tear me down
It’s hard to know just what to die for
When so much I have faith in lets me down
My heart still knows what I cry out for
When all falls down, and every in-between
The truth of it all: I’m misleading myself
When through it all, I know what true love means

Yet, I tell myself the same things
And I sell myself the lies
I ignore I’ve been forsaken
By my painted on disguise
As I fall a little deeper
In regret and in despair
‘Til the day time brings me nearer
To the love my heart declares

And so, I’ve come to love disaster
Sometimes, it seems the only truth at all
But even so, I will not make it master
I fight myself through every bitter fall
I know true love is some day waiting
In my heart of hearts, I can’t deny
Someday, when I’ve finished breaking
I’ll know just what it is to feel alive

So with every lifeless motion
I hold on to peace of mind
Even when it so betrays me
And I feel so dead inside
Raging on against the darkness
I embrace with such disdain
Knowing once, my heart was happy
And it will be once again

So I tell myself the same things
I’ve ignored too many times
Knowing so much has been taken
But I will not lose the fight
Every day, my heart falls deeper
Someday, hearts will be declared
When I open up my eyes
I hope to see you standing there

And here it is, out in the open,
as if not even trying to hide.
It is ourselves who choose to bury
the very facts which we deny.
Too often truths can drain our strength
when all we'll do is keep disguised
the choices we know we must make
once we realize we've embraced demise.

The beasts of my creation battle ‘gainst those born within
As I rage here in my silence never letting my self in
Watching my self slowly crush me despite pushing me away
Wondering which one I will be when all my pieces have their way

Just where along the line
did how anyone feign judge us
in superficial and disrespectful ways
become how we judge ourselves?
No one has any such power to destroy us
other than that which we allow.
This includes the power
we have over ourselves.
We’ve torn ourselves apart for far too long.
We have the power to heal.
The time has come to rebuild.