Gazing into ever after, I see naught, but for disaster
Somehow, being happy only leads to my demise
Trying to heal, I break what’s broken
Fighting not to let the ghosts in
Choking on the words my bleeding heart so ill-advise

My losses and my failures always seem to plague my mind
But I’m trying to hold on for better days
Smiles and laughter
Then disaster, always close behind
Too often I un-sleep the night away

Too many seconds in a day when time stands still
I’ve had my fill
But to un-break my will is something that may never come to be
I’ve fought myself for far too long
I’m losing strength to carry on
Just how long until there’s nothing left of me?

Too many words so sweetly spoken
Hope the smoke I slowly choke on
Even so, not wishing to take back a word of what I’ve bled
Just how do I defend against a night that never ends?
My every fear insisting to be fed

Gazing into ever after, I see naught, but for disaster
Somehow, being happy only leads to my demise
Trying to heal, I break what’s broken
Fighting not to let the ghosts in
Choking on the words my bleeding heart so ill-advise

Some may think it’s not that bad
But too long, it’s been my hell
Where everything I set my heart to fades away
Becoming scarred with my chagrin as sorrow tangles deep within
Each smile I find is never long to stay

In my heart and in my mind there seems no peace that I can find
When every dream that seems come true
Comes crashing through all efforts made
‘Til even beauty can’t console a weary heart that’s never whole
Just a broken-hearted fool out on display

When comes the day when I can say
It’s worth the price my heart has paid?
Has every war I’ve waged against myself been fought in vain?
If happiness will come, I beg it soon
Lest I succumb to the darkness where no trace of me remains

Gazing into ever after, I see naught, but for disaster
Somehow, being happy only leads to my demise
Trying to heal, I break what’s broken
Fighting not to let the ghosts in
Choking on the words my bleeding heart so ill-advise

Am I doomed forever after?
Is there naught but for disaster?
I want so much more from life than merely to survive
Tired of always being torn open
Never whole, but wholly broken
When will come the day my bleeding heart can finally thrive?

Voices of stone in a chorus of madness
Multitude sorrows embedded in bone
Confliction entangling efforts towards gladness
'Til the purest of heart still feel all alone
Condemning the hopeful to hells of defeat
Not so much by another as much as ourselves
As hope slowly bleeds to be born self-deceit
Choking the hearts of our souls so dispelled
Reminding ourselves more of how we have failed us
Than any a beauty our lives so possess
Becoming the ones who will come back to haunt us
When we realize we are the ones we forget

Broken is the notion that the one we love will feel the same
For some things, despite want and wait, are just not meant to be
Although our hope and effort may feel wasted, this is not the case
For it shows how boldly we will fight for true love still unseen
And even though sometimes it feels like we've become too broken
For anyone to love us even though our love is true
One day, someone will come along, whose heart will sing so for us
That the love we find when hearts entwine will pale all we ever knew

If I said all that I want to
If I said all that I’d dare
I’m afraid that you would run from me
And the feelings I’d declare
I’ve come to care so for you
That sometimes, it brings despair
Oh, the things I long to share with you
If you, as well, would dare

Gazing into ever after, I see naught, but for disaster
Somehow, being happy always leads to my demise
In trying to heal, I break what’s broken
Fighting not to let the ghosts in
Choking on the words my bleeding heart so ill-advise

In ways, we’re both imperfect
And our hearts wear many scars
Some days can be tormenting
Some nights are worse by far
Sometimes to keep from breaking
We hide ourselves away
Trying to fight our demons
To find we’re breaking, anyway

At times, it does get better
Sometimes, it feels much worse
One day, we feel we’re healing
The next, it seems we’re cursed
Some days, the smiles seem endless
Some days, there are only tears
We hope for bright tomorrows
While we’re haunted by our years

But I know that when I’m near you
I don’t feel so insane
And if I could, I’d take away
Your sorrow and your pain
Even if I can’t, I still want you
I want your all
To be with you through good and bad
Together, stand or fall

I don’t just want the laughter
I don’t just want the smiles
I’ll hold your hand through the brighter days
And through the weary miles
I’ll laugh with you, and I’ll cry with you
Which I do now, near or far
I don’t want just the best of you
I want everything you are

So let both smiles and sorrows come
Whether joyful or dismayed
I’ll always be here for you
Even when you need your space
I won't ask for what I wouldn't give
I’ll want all the same from you
I only want your everything
I hope you’ll want mine, too

Silence filled the shadowed halls,
confusing voices once so loud,
for not even their echo could be heard,
even if only for a moment.
But, sometimes a moment is all it takes
for realization to set in.
For so long, there was always sorrow despite smiles.
Now, there are always smiles despite sorrow.