You sir, working in your garden
With your leather laugh wrinkled face
Calloused hands steady to the ***
God loving salt of the earth soul
You are my brother

You my lady, tending to your family
With your silver locks of hair
Portraits on the wall
Rocking chair tales of innocence (lost)
Untold secrets that will remain
Untold
You are my sister

He who walks down Bond Road limping
Broken banjo string strumming
Songs of the mother land singing
Tepestuous youth smiling
He is my brother

She who hides in the shadow
Licking incestuous wounds inflicted
Untrusting broken open heart that
Bleeds nightly
She is my sister

You are all angels of light to me
And I love you

I see beauty in soft greens
Triumphant blues escaping
From under the black fading to grey

    Adrianne lost her son
    When buds sprouted outside
    Muddy rain soaked windows
    She will never be the same

    I hug my daughter
    Like this is the last time I will see her
    Viscous malt thickness throat closure
    Because it could be me
    Because why not me

I still see beauty
In fog drifting off the harbour
In the melodies of Mozart
The flavors and spices
Of everyday life

But Adrianne doesn't

On the way to school

Two goats on top of a barn

Always made us laugh

To the half Korean girl
With the nicotine tongue
Who moved to the cubicle next to me
So many years ago:

I am sorry

Blame the hops and barley fueled evenings
Golden amber distorted judgement
Distilled only by the sound of
Fraudulent desperate laughter
Confusing lust for affection
With the faint scent of revenge
In your hair
On your French manicured
Fingertips

Blame the sulfite moon
And the rain dripping down
Highway map trail windows
Coyote past lovers
Egg yolk stained Dennys menus
And the coffee cups that were never
Empty

Empty

Mascara stained chest
Lesbian ******* dreams
The fear in my eyes
Almost gave me away

I am sorry
I didn't mean to *******

Brutal, unforgiving
Organic
Like sand in your teeth

Undeniable as truth in its purest form

As beautiful as color

Planes are departing
Landing
Crashing

Frogs are leaping
Dogs are guarding
Cells are dividing

The woman with her Judas smile
Poison forked tongue flicking
Darkens my doorstep no more!

Freeways hum
Refrigerators buzz
Oil goes unchecked

I turn off the tv set
Ignore the rioting in the streets
Look away as the one percent
Ruins America

The silence of the phone
Is deafening
Tomorrow is uncertain
As I contemplate my obsessions
And A.D.D
I wonder how patient
Can God be

Last night I sinned
I sinned again
And I'll never be forgiven
If I cry
It's because I've tried
To improve this life I'm living
I say I'll do better
But I never
I do everything the same
It makes me think
This life stinks
And it's just a ******* game

The butterfly knows
Moths are just as beautiful
Without the make-up