You told me something that I hadn't heard before
a past event, another of those that causes you distress
it took a while for you to tell me
Likely, you had to gather lots of courage to face the past.
You didn't want to ruin my view of you,
that I see you as my innocent love.
You never explained everything that happened (had to figure it out for myself)
but I learned what happened.
My view of you never changed, even knowing what was done.
I know I've reassured you of that and you know that I still love you the same.
If there's anything else like that,
don't hesitate to tell me,
so I can then help you get rid of the past.
This poem (poorly written as it may be)
is meant to help you remember
that no matter what, I will love you.

Should I  give up
when it seems impossible to move on?
Do I bother exercising futility?
Nothing I say makes things better
Seems like I just find something else that makes it worse
whether it's having someone be upset for nearly a week,
or looking at requirements that are impossible
I glance around and see I'm going nowhere fast
do I keep trying?
Is it worth the struggle to stay afloat
or should I let the waves carry me along?

What's done is done
and cannot be changed
I've tried to fixed what I can
I pray it's enough
you tell me you're no longer upset
how I wish that to be true
Certain things tell it may not be
but there's not much else I could do
I suppose that I'll just have to wait
to see if what we have will be repaired
I just hope the old adage is true:
"Time heals all wounds"

People say I'm kind
one of the nicest people they've met
I know that isn't true
because I know what my true nature is
I can be nice and calm for a long time
but it'll show eventually
the impatience
the anger
the rage
I hate it when someone sees that
I wish I could hide it forever
when it shows, somebody always gets hurt
and I can't forgive myself for that.
I can't fix what's been done

I hate this.
Everyone talks about what happened
mistakes that were made
yes, they're right, but maybe there's more
more that hasn't been said
I agree with what they say,
but can't there be another way?
Shouldn't we show support and kindness
to someone dealing with the consequences?
Surely berating him isn't going to improve things.
I wouldn't be surprised if it drives him away
I can only feel sorrow in his defense
every word against him pains me.
Am I at fault for showing loyalty to my brother in his mistakes?
I can't stop the pain.
I wish I could just get everyone to stop.
Maybe slow down.
Don't they see the pressure they've created?
The legacy that was left behind, difficult to live up to?
And once again I live with
the dangers of being an empath

Why does time always flow
opposite to how we want it?
How come the cheerful and relaxing times
are over so soon?
Why does the river of time rush past when we need it to slow down?
And for the bad times, why must they drag on, slower than a snail in molasses?
If only the ability to control the flow of time was granted to me...

Two weeks
each day you've said you've gotten better
when every day is worst than the last
you say that it's definitely gone
but you also said you can't tell when it's around
and today you freaked out
over something that should've been nothing
and demanded that I go with you.
I don't like being treated so coldly.
So, in all this,
when tomorrow you say you're better
(Which I know you will)
Forgive me when I have my doubts